depression #7
Tyler's pov
So after seeing my father/love of my life fucking somone else I ran out of the house and got a hotel room,ive slipped into a bad depression all I want is him but obviously he doesn't give a flying fuck about me but its whatever,maybe one day he will realize what the fuck he did but in the mean time im just going to try and move on,all I hope is that he finds true love and also grows the fuck up,because someone needs to tell him that or knock some common sense into his fucking head,but oh well I guess it wont be me doing it...not yet. I walk over to the soda machine and pay for a mtn.dew,I seriously need something to calm me from getting back into the car and beating his ass..but it's not worth it...he's not worth it. Tommrow will be the third day I've been here and there are some nice people. I met a gay couple on there honey moon,they were so fucking adorable, maybe one day I could have that with someone I wanted it to be him but I guess it wont be him..
Allen's pov
It's been two day's i need to find a way and appoligize to him,he's my everything and always will be maybe I should get ahold with one of my drivers and they could pick him up and not say where they are taking him,and I will have this beautiful thing set up. I'm going to use some of what he bought but I have alot of other stuff I wanna use for this. I need to show him how much I love him no I have to show him,he's the only one that can make me feel complete and not want to just say fuck it all and walk away from music. I need to make him mine I need to ask him to be mine and it has to be soon.
Im not gonna lie ive been deppressed,he's not here to kiss or for me to hold or even show him my secret side.. the only side no one has ever found out about,im a dom so im into bdsm and I call him princess because I wanna hint at it. When I ask him to be mine I also want to ask him to be my sub.. im not new into this whole life style,ive been into it for 10 years now,but when I married his mother she hated it so I stopped. Now I wanna try it with him,and to be fair the only reason I ever had sex with that slut of a woman is because I was forced,but its whatever now I have Tyler and that all I need and ever wanted. I seriously need to get this whole confession set up..it has to be perfect for my princess. First I need a list even tho I have most of the things I need.
1. Roses
2.rose petals
3.candles
4.fairy lights
5. Pizza
6.wings
8.soda
9.music
10.condoms
I think this is all well lets get ready to set it all up,i just really hope he likes it and gives me and accual chance,I cant lose him hes my everything. But first before I set any of this up I need to find out where he is staying.. ill proboly ask my private fbi agent to find him,so I can tell my driver where to pick him up from tommrow night.
Tyler's pov
I wonder if he's even worrying about me,maybe I am just a dumb fuck up for ever thinking coming out and letting him kiss me was a good idea. Everything I do never turns out good,I used to cut but I think I might go back to it..atleast it will help the pain for a little bit..well try atleast. I stand up and walk over towards my bathroom,I grab my razor and make
One small cut
Two cuts
Three cuts
Four cuts
Five cuts..
I watch as the blood drips into the sink,the red mixing into the white sink,its so pretty but show how much pain im in.. I just wish HE WOULD FUCKING LOVE ME BACK,at least I feel better now,maybe I can accually sleep a little.
I wrap the cuts up in bandages around my thighs,I put away the bandages and tape. I walk over towards my door and lock it,I walk towards my bed and finally crawl into it...maybe tommrow will be diffrent,maybe he will love me tommrow....I hope...
Hey everyone im sorry this took me so long to write ive had alot going on,I love you rainbows🏳️🌈,go follow my insta and snap and my Twitter.
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