chapter 4

The medicine train hasn't arrived, I have spent the last two hours wide awake.

Am starving am tired, weak to my bone.

They open the door, we're ordered to walk to screen room, here we go again.

As I walk I can feel my bones collide, am just a skeleton walking, nothing inside me am numb hurt and lost.

They play the clip again and again till the message stick's in heads, engraved in there never to be forgotten.

2 hours of the day have been wasted on the clip, I feel my mind fade away tired, it can't think it's no longer strong. it's a piece of mash.

They drag us out like animals to the hall for breakfast, the food itself is animal standard.

The one spoon I have placed in my mouth comes back to haunt me, I shallow hard.

It's been too many days, I need to eat even if it kills me. which I eventually hope it does.

We're ordered to go back to our cells, no one has to talk to anyone around here.

"You have visitors." the guard comes to my room to tell me.

I walk over to the visiting room, it's them again.

"What do you want." I sit across from them.

"We came to see you, we miss you "

"suree." my tone is cold as ice.

"The doctors said your not listening, nothing has changed." One of them speak out.

"I should have known." I place my hands in my hair.

"If you don't work with them, it will be years till you get out."

"Wasn't that your plan all along."

"Excuse me." the woman asks in shock. Great at acting.

"You sent me here so you could have one less mouth to feed, am I right."

"No dear." She places her hand on my skin.

"—We wanted you to get help and get better."

"Nothing was and nothing is wrong with me." I move my body away from her fake compassion.

"That's what they all say dear, we had to get you help before that evil girl poisoned your mind even more."

"She has a name, it's Sam mother, Samantha. She did not poison me, she made me live for once in all my years." My voice comes out stronger than expected.

"Look at what she did."

"What did she do."

"She turned you against your family, that horrible bitch." I already did not like you.

"Respect her." I place my teeth together. "she's didn't do anything," I state.

"Respect that witch, not happening."

I grab the edge of the table with anger. "Why do I even bother, you never heard me and never going to, the only thing you love, is a person who is perfect. I have never been your daughter/sister, I have never been myself till I met her."

"Your joking, she's brought nothing but pain and heartache."

"Only love and acceptance, I love her and will always love her, even if I never get out of here."

"Think before you speak, without us who do you think will take care of you."

"I can fend for myself."

I get up, it's about time this conversation ends.

"You'll need us, she won't ever come near you. In here or out there, what do you think will save you."

"Hope, I believe I'll see her again even if it's in death." The guard closes the door behind me.

Finally get to my cell, I can finally think straight once I haven't taken my medication from the morning and afternoon, it's on a piece of cloth in my pocket.

"Your mother, wanted us to treat you accordingly for the words you said today." They strap me to the chair. That little bitch.

My body goes into shock again and again, till the room starts spinning and the lights go dim.

"Do it Again." I can hear a masculine voice from the background, my body is shocked in water, am cold.

"Try not to faint next time." They close the door to my cell.

'just kill me already' I say in my mind, weak and tired, I close my eyes.

Am woken up by the a Sting on my skin.

"what the fuck." They are holding me by my arm, as they inject another needle in me.

"Stupid little piece of shit." They close the door behind me.

Am tired of this, before I know it I throw the pills from my pocket in my mouth at once.