Chapter 19

Perspective Yuki

Why is it always different when I'm with him, every time I'm not with him he behaves very ugly and aggressively, I want to discover the real Max, not the one he wants me to see, I feel like I'm in love with a fake. Why always when I talk about Yu is different, as if he still loves me, every time he is next to him he looks at him like he looked at me at first, now he looks at me like a friend, he says he loves me but I don't think , from that evening I don't trust him anymore, I said to forgive him but I don't think I made the right choice.

4 days ago

I was coming back from Erik, I was visiting him because I hadn't been in a long time, I wanted to come with Max but he said he was busy and couldn't come, so I left alone, something seemed changed at Max, he wasn't as smiling as he was at the beginning, as if he was hiding something from me, but I didn't notice, I asked him to have a worse phase and I left him alone, I didn't ask questions , I thought he was going to be my Max again, but I don't think so now.

When I got home there were strange sounds coming from my room and Max's, so I went to see what was happening, Max was in the room with a boy, I didn't recognize the boy at first but when he spoke to me I realized it was Yu, I couldn't believe he was cheating on me with his ex, I thought he loved me, the weirdest part was when he told Yu my name, at that moment I left and I went to Erik, told him everything that had happened, and he told me to wait until tomorrow and talk to Max.

The next day when I went home, Yu was gone, and Max was fast asleep, so I said to wait for him to wake up, but when he woke up, what he said left me speechless.

-Yuki, did you like last night to have more nights like this?

At that moment I stood up and slapped him on the face, he started screaming at me. At that moment he saw that he was not my Max, he would never have screamed at me, I let him scream, and after he finished I told him everything I saw last night, he said he is not True, remember that I came into the room and jumped on it.

The first time I didn't want to believe him but he convinced me as he usually does, I said to give him another chance, but I regret that I didn't break up with him then, now I suffer like an ox.

I thought everything would be back to normal, but Max was starting to stop coming home in the evenings and every time we asked him he said it wasn't my job, and not to control him so much that he wasn't a small child and that he knew what he was doing. One evening I watched him see what he was doing, but I immediately regretted it. He had entered a bar and went out with a boy who looked strikingly like Yu, I followed them until I arrived in front of a hotel, I did not have the courage to follow them to the end, so I left there running and crying.

When I got home, I took all of Max's clothes from the closet and put them in a suitcase, and put them in front of the door. When he returned home he started yelling at me that what his suitcase was looking for in front of the door, I told him that I would kick him out of the house, that he would never look for me again, and that I would break up with him. he left without saying anything. I thought he was going to kill me, but he left.

I haven't talked to him since that day and I haven't seen him, everyone said he left the country, or that he died, honestly I really don't care anymore.

Three years have passed since then I graduated high school with the highest grade and now I am at a famous college in the country.

Yu apologized to me for what he did, and now he's in a relationship with Erik, at first I didn't think this relationship would work for them, but I was wrong. Now we have become best friends. I also tried to be with someone but it didn't work, every time I compared him to Max, and he couldn't stand it like that anymore and he broke up with me.

I learned an important lesson, not to trust anyone, even the one you thought was close can betray you.

Now I'm a different person, I'm no longer Yuki's fool from the beginning, now my name is Derek, and I don't trust anyone anymore, not even Erik and Yu, I know they were with me in the hard times, but i -I heard them talk about me once, and I didn't like it, then I beat them, but we reconciled, even if the relationship is not as it was at the beginning. Now everyone is afraid of me, even the one I thought was the strongest is afraid of me.

I didn't want to end up like that, but my life taught me a lesson I will never forget, I lost everyone who was with me, even my parents are really dead.

I hope I will have a true love, but I'm not sure, after I lost Max, I didn't love the same way, now I focus more on college, and I hope I don't meet Max again , but you know how to say hope dies last.