Searching

I'm underwater sinking to the ever approaching

Rock bottom as my mind focuses on surviving.

When parts of me got lost in the ocean like litter Feeling my thoughts get caught in the coral

Like sharp knives, It pokes my heart.

But that feeling is familiar like the sand in my toes,

Like the holes of my happiness I patch up

With a fake smile to fool anyone.

I know my worth but it's a ocean full of predators,

Fish disguised as family became trust issues

As they eat my pieces of who I am and spit me out Lying until my tears became the ocean

And my face is pale as the beach I lay on.

The dark never goes away but there is beauty

In the memory's of building sandcastles

When we were younger as we squint

At the sunshine reflecting across the ocean

With the windswept sand all over your face

Feeling uncomfortable on the inside

But beautiful on the outside.

Life is unfair when the ocean sweeps

The sandcastles away like it was nothing

Life is the sea and we're bracing for impact

No matter what we do,

We keep running barefoot through the waves

Searching for sunsets to make us feel something.

Anything, and everything

Just to get through the day.