Blurry World

I don't trust myself and that's the scary part.

My hands don't feel like my own

Trying to venture the world

Without a magnifying glass

It feels fake with my chest heaving,

Suicidal thoughts churning,

Nightmares of ideation becoming too real

Bending my consciousness

Until it's all I think about.

I don't know how to recover back from this…

Will I ever be normal again?