Not Friends

"W-What?" I asked stuttering. Adam only looked away and chose not to answer me. I folded my hands into fist and put it in my lap.

Damn, it feels hot. His touch was literally hot. How is that even possible?

Our class continued without him talking to me again. He doesn't even bother to look at me even though I steal glances of him. He's just constantly clenching his jaw like he just made the biggest mistake of asking me out for lunch.

I sighed.

He barely knows me. He just pity me for seeing me cry last night. And what he said is out of politeness and nothing else. I wouldn't be surprised if he said that he really don't want to be with me in our lunch break.

The bell rang as a sign that our class ended and it's our freaking lunch break. I saw Eli talking to Jason and they're heading towards me. I sighed and gather all my things to put it inside my bag. When I was done I stood up and put my bag on my shoulder. I stiffened when I saw Adam towering over me.

"Done?" he asked. I blinked and then I looked away. Why is he still here?

"Uh..." I cannot find the right words to answer.

"Luna let's go! I'm starving." Eli called me while pouting. I glanced at Adam and he's staring back at me. I sighed.

"I... I'll go now." I said. Adam licked his lips and nodded.

"So you're really avoiding me." he said, a statement not a question. I chewed my lip.

"I said I'm not!" I replied a bit irritated. I'm tired of this conversation. Yes, I am avoiding him but he doesn't need to know, damn him.

Adam arched his brows and I rolled my eyes.

"Fine! But I have Eli and her boyfriend with me during lunch." I said. He only licked his lips.

"I can't see any problem with that."

I sighed at his answer. I don't even know why did I agree.

The next thing I knew, we are all in one table. Adam beside me, Eli in front of me and her boyfriend beside her. In the middle of the noisy crowd of our cafeteria, I was almost deaf in silence. Eli is keeping herself busy on her phone but she's obviously stealing glances at Adam. She even kicked me under the table but I only glared at her.

At the end, I sighed and decided to speak up. If I don't, all of us will die in hunger.

"Let's buy our foods." I said and I stood up. Adam followed me so I cannot help but to look at him.

"Let me." he said. I shook my head, almost glaring at him.

"I can---" my sentence was cut off when Eli spoke.

"Babe, can you buy me my food too? I'll just talk to Luna."

My brows furrowed. And what are we going to talk about.

"I'm buying my lunch." I said. Eli took a glance of Adam.

"Let him. This is urgent." Eli answered. I rolled my eyes. And before I can even protest, Adam is already walking away. Jason run to follow him but he was left behind. He scratched the back of his head before shooking it.

I sighed.

"What the freaking hell?!"

I looked at Eli when she shouted at me. I arched my brows in defense.

"What?" I asked innocently.

"Are you... Are you two dating?"

I groaned and rolled my eyes at her.

"No. Ofcourse not."

"Then what the fuck is he doing in our table? Sitting beside you? Offering you to buy your lunch? And what about the glances? I feel so outdated!" she exclaimed exxageratingly. I sighed again, feeling tired of this argument.

Ofcourse I cannot tell her about last night. Because if I do, she will ask follow up questions and I will be forced to tell her everything I failed to tell. Including my alpha. And that's something I don't want to share with anyone. I just want that thing to be mine. Be it, real or not.

Eli continued asking me questions even though I kept on dodging it. She only kept her mouth shut when she saw Adam and Jason approaching us. I scoffed.

When they reached our table, I saw Eli stood up. I watched her as she smiled at me with so much betrayal.

"Where are you going?" I almost hissed but Eli only shrugged her head at me.

"We need to talk something in private." she said pointing at Jason. I almost rolled my eyes.

"Since when did you learn the word privacy?" I asked and she almost pouted, maybe realizing that her reason to leave me with Adam is lame.

"Oh my Luna. You don't want to hear what are we going to talk about."

"I always don't. But you always do it anyway." I said already glaring at her.

Adam start to put the plate of food in front of me. I tried hard not to mind it but he just bought the meal that I usually eat. Rice, with vegetables and meat. Plus my orange juice.

How did he know that? Did Jason told him? Nah, I don't think Adam will even utter a single word to him.

"I'm sure you don't want to hear about birth controls, pills, condoms, family planning---"

Oh God.

"Shut it!" I said and put both of my hand on my ear. Eli smirked. The kind of smirk that told me she won. I scoffed.

"See you at Arts." she said and they're gone.

I sighed heavily when Adam sat in front of me. He didn't say anything. He just sat there and eat. He doesn't even wait for me. Why would I expect it in the first place though?

Silently, I started eating. I don't know why he even asked me to eat lunch with him if he'll not talk to me.

"You don't have to bought this." I said playing the food with my fork. Adam arched his brows, unpleased that I am not eating.

"I already did. The food is already in front of you. Don't make it a big deal."

I hitched. Three sentences and it already offended me. How rude!

"What's this? A peace offering?" I asked and laughed at myself.

"I did not do anything to offer that." he answered and I gritted my teeth. Fine! He's not that nice. Whatever.

"Then why buy me lunch. To have some company? Tss." I said and eat my food forcefully. Free lunch, I shouldn't take this for granted.

Adam didn't answer. And I wasn't even surprised. It is more shocking if he do.

We're in the middle of eating when I remember something. I don't know if I should bring this up but then, I feel the need to do so.

"Don't tell anyone about last night." I said almost begging. The dream and my feelings inside that dream are mine. It was an accident to tell him.

"I have no one to tell." he shrugged and I cannot help but to groan in frustration.

"Still. I'm warning you."

"Why you want it a secret? You're ashamed you love him? Because he isn't real?"

I tightened my grip on my utensils. He just beep a thing. I clenched my jaw and breathe deeply. Adam smirked at me, but I saw dissapointment in his eyes. My eyes narrowed. Why is he giving me that expression?

I did not answer him. Like what he always do to me. It's now fair. I don't need to explain anything to him. It's not his business.

And the dream.... It's just a freaking dream. I don't know why I let it interefere my reality. I parted my lips and looked away.

"You're afraid people will laugh at you when they found out that you have an imaginary boyfriend inside that pretty head of you?"

I gritted my teeth. He doesn't know a thing. Actually, no one knows how this feels. I can't even understand myself so who is he to judge me?

I sighed deeply and looked at him bravely.

"Maybe I am too stucked in my dreams that's why I made him." I said. I saw his face darkened. I don't know where he's coming from but he has issues in my dreams.

"Maybe I should follow Eli's advise. Get myself a boyfriend and forget that damn dream that's obviously, won't become real." I said.

But ofcourse I won't do that. Not yet. I can't. I'm still holding that I did not stop dreaming about him. Or he did not stop visiting me. I still want him. And I don't need a boyfriend.

I hold Adam's stare. Every second, his eyes are becoming more intense. My heart pounded when I saw his dark brown eyes darkened, highlighting the color of it. And I almost looked forward for it to flicker. Like the last time.

But then, I heard someone clearing her throat. I looked up only to find Stacey and her friends looking at us. Stacey is the queen bee. The cheerleader, mean, and brat girl that gets anything that she wants. She has no drama in her life except for her nails and make up. And I don't know why she's here.

"Hi Lea." she waved her hand at me. I smirked because she mistook my name as someone else's. I'm not surprised. She doesn't know me. Everyone in this school except Eli and her boyfriend doesn't know me.

I am not that someone who easily to be remember though. I am not special. I don't gain attention. And I love staying that way.

"It's Luna." I said and her smile faded. Her friends laugh at bit and I saw her roll her eyes telling me whatever your name is, I don't care. I smirked.

"I just noticed that you are with this guy..." her eyes lingered on Adam that still staring at me, like I have made a crime to him. I creased my forehead at Adam.

If he keep on staring like that, Stacey and her league will make a fuss about it.

"Is he your boyfriend?" she asked straightforwardly. My brows arched same as Adam.

I shook my head as an answer. I can even saw relief in her eyes. Obviously, she wants him. Like I care. Tss.

"No. We're just friends." I said. Stacey nodded in delight. And I saw Adam stood up. I watched as he put back his plate on his tray.

And then he looked at me.

"No. We're not friends." he tell them but never breaking his eye contact with me. My lips parted.

"I am not her friend." he said again, this time slowly, like he's making me see through his words how much he doesn't want to be my friend.

I looked away and then Adam walked away. My heart hurt. He always chose to leave me. Always.