LAST TIME

I heard laughters after Adam left us. I looked up to Stacey and her friends but they're already shaking their heads and whispering something to each other while giggling.

I rolled my eyes. Ofcourse they find it funny. I just said that Adam is my friend and he denied it. What's more embarrassing than that?

Adam is a new hot guy who transferred in our school. Even though he stayed low-key, his mysteriousness is what making him more attractive. Damn, did I have just said the word 'attractive'?

Well, whatever. As I was saying, even Stacey, the brat who used to ignore silent type of guy like Adam was here, checking him out. And Adam, denying me as his friend is an issue that I don't want to be involved in.

I spent the rest of the day like the usual inspite of some laughters I've been hearing from my schoolmates. The school year is ending and I don't want to be bullied. Not when the year is getting over. I had a lot of drama in my life that I don't want to add another.

After cleaning up myself after the long day, I dive in my bed and stare at my ceiling. Yesterday, I stayed all up night putting some glow in the dark stars on it. I just want to get lost in the view of the dark starry night and forget all the things that's been bothering me.

Everyday, it's getting heavy. I don't know the reason why but it feels like, as day passes by, there's something that I should be afraid of. Maybe it my paranoia but I am not looking forward to see those.

I don't want my dream to turn into a nightmare.

I sighed as I get lost in my thoughts... until eventually, I fell asleep.

I woke up feeling a hand brushing off the strands of my hair blocking in ny face. I slowly opened my eyes only see him again. My eyes widened and my heart pounded so fast when I saw my Alpha leaning against me, touching my cheeks.

My eyes start to water and my heart clenched upon seeing him.

"Where have you been?" I asked, already crying while I hit his chest. He didn't answer so I kept on hitting him over again. Until, eventually he caught my hand and brought him into his lips.

I closed my eyes tightly when he kisses the back of my hand slowly.

"I missed you." he said in a low baritone voice. I melted in his arms when he pulled me against his chest.

I can hear and literally feel his heart beating against my ear. My tears are continuously streaming down my cheeks.

I almost gave up the thought of seeing him again! I almost convinced myself that he is just a dream. A freaking dream and will only remain that way. But now, he's back. And all the worry I felt for that past night he isn't here faded.

"Why did you suddenly disappear?" I asked, almost a whisper.

"I'm sorry."

"I need a reason." I said. He sighed and let go of me. I looked up to meet his gaze and I was greeted by those sad eyes. My lips parted.

"They're already looking for me." he said.

"Who?" I asked, confused.

"My pack."

I gasped. His pack? Meaning he's really a werewolf? Why am I even surprised. He's a dream and he's here. There's nothing different between the two.

"You.... will leave me again?" I asked.

He cupped my cheek and my heart almost shutter because even though he won't answer, I knew he will.

"I came back to see you before I leave." he said slowly.

I swallowed the lump in my throat as another batch of tears came to blur my vision of him. I shook my head slowly.

"You will still come back right?" I asked, hopeful. He sighed and nod, barely. My heart hurt.

"I will."

I wrapped my arms around his neck and I let myself cry on his shoulders. I was bothered without him these past few days. And now, he will be gone again.

"This isn't our goodbye right?"

"Certainly not."

"I don't want to wake up yet." I said honestly. He sighed deeply.

"Me neither. I don't want to leave you yet."

"I... I will wait for you." I said and I start sobbing. I just see him again, I cannot afford to just woke up knowing that he'll be gone.

"I promise to come back. I will always come back to you." he said.

I nod. Right now, all I can do is to hold into his promise. Maybe this is just my mind tricking me. Maybe this is all my brain making these things. Maybe this is just me, that's why he's here. Maybe it's just ny subconscious self to made him.

But I never thought that this will be this painful. My hand are shaking and my lips are trembling. I am hugging him tightly. He doesn't want to let go, me neither. I just want to hold him, feel him, until I woke up.

"Until we saw each other again." that's the last word he whispered before I woke up in reality.

I touched my face and feel that it's wet from crying. I am still sobbing when I woke up. My heart is clenching and my throat hurts.

I hugged myself and I begin to cry again. I let myself bleed. I let myself cry, until it doesn't hurt anymore.

I did not go to school that day. I just told Mamita that I am not feeling well. I am not lying though. I am really feel sick.

The next morning, Eli greeted me with her rants about me not telling her that I am not going to school yesterday. I just shrugged her off. I am used to her being like that.

She never misses telling me even the slightest detail of her day. And I am glad that she trusts me.

"And Adama is looking for you yesterday. He keeps on tailing me to ask about your whereabouts." she continued. She got my attention there.

"Why?" I asked. Eli shook her head.

"He did not tell me. But it feels like, he need to see you yesterday." she added. My lips parted.

"He waited outside all of my class to look for you. Are you in trouble with him?"

I shook my head. I don't know why he's looking for me. The last time we encountered is when he invited me over lunch. That's all what I remember.

"Well, you'll be seeing him later so don't worry." Eli said and she continued telling me her stories again.

But my mind drift in Adam, and why is he looking for me. Is there something important that he needs to say?

I sighed deeply. Eli is right. I'll just ask him later.

But then again, that later didn't happen. Adam didn't go to school for today. I haven't see him since this morning and he did not attend on our Biology class. I don't want to seem to bothered but I cannot help it. Eli's words kept on playing in my head.

"It feels like he need to see you."

I sighed and decided to just go home after staying for another two hours after my last class in school.

I cannot hide my loneliness as I enter my room. It feels like I don't want to sleep again knowing that I won't see my Alpha there. As much as possible, I don't want to think any of what happened. I just toss my bag and went inside the bathroom to have a quick shower.

After that, I grab my favorite hoodie partnered with my shorts. I also wear my cap and I am ready to go.

Billy waved his hand at me when I enter the convenience store. I grab my favorite ice cream and went directly to him to pay for it.

"Stressed?" he asked. I chuckled.

"Kinda." I answered. It's just a quick interaction with him. I just found myself walking on the park where I last saw Adam.

I sighed as I sat on the bench. Fine, I had to admit this. I am hoping to see him. What Eli said kept on bothering me. I am curious why he wants to see me.

But then, I already finished my ice cream and I haven't see him.

The next day, I looked forward to see him. Bjt then, he didn't show up. It's been like that for the whole two weeks. He was suddenly gone. Without any words. It's not that he need to, bjt then, I just can't help to feel bothered.

It's Monday morning on the third week that he's gone when I saw him entering our Biology class. I cannot explain, but my heart pounded fast and I feel a sudden excitement upon seeing him.

His face darkened when our eyes met. He sat beside me and I can feel the tension between us. I cannot help but to stare at him. He's gone for long. And now that he came back, he feels like he's angry with everything.

"Quit staring." he said and I jolted in my seat. My face heated as I immediately looked away.

Adam sighed deeply. I took a glance of him and I saw him closing his eyes tightly, clenching his jaw and his hands are balled into fist. I even saw it getting red. I start to worry.

"Are you okay?" I asked softly. Adam groaned and he opened his eyes.

My forehead creased when he put his hand on my armchair and opened it in front of me. I craned my neck on the other side as I looked up to him, confused.

"Put you hand on mind." he ordered. My lips parted in shock.

"What?"

"Put it." he said. I didn't move. I am stunned by him being this demanding. And the sound of possessiveness in his voice is driving me nuts.

Eventually he grabbed my hand and interwined our fingers when I didn't move. My eyes widened at what he did. Heat came across my skin when our hands met. I was holding my breath while he's tightening the grip on my hand.

"W-What are you doing?" I asked, stuttering.

Adam bowed his head and closed his eyes tightly like he's controlling himself about something... well about me?

"Hold on... Just let me." he said. My forehead creased even more.

"What do you mean?"

He opened his eyes and I was taken a back when he looked at me.

"Just let me. Because this is the last time I am going to hold you. I'm afraid that the next time, I might hurt you." he said and I almost hear his voice tremble.