What are you?

The bell rang. Students flocked in our room but we stayed still. Adam is staring hard, and I stared back. Our hands are still interwined and the heat is getting more intense but that doesn't matter now.

What matters to me now is the way he looked at me. His eyes speaks a lot even though he didn't utter any word. He is sad. He is angry. He's in pain. And I can almost taste his pain.

I swallowed hard when his jaw clenched so tightly. He gripped on my hand like it will be gone if he let go. And I let him. I manage to ignore our classmates that are silently watching us. I even heard Eli gasping on the other side.

Mrs. Litchfield enter our room and she settled everyone down. I barely made my head turn to look at our teacher because Adam seems to not mind everyone around us except our hands. My heart pounded so fast.

"Adam..." I whispered. Adam sighed deeply. And without uttering any word, he slowly let go.

I gasped. Him letting go of him made my hand feels so lonely. My lips parted at shock with my own reaction. I bit my lip hard as I fought not to beg him to still hold me.

Just what the freaking hell am I thinking?

"Luna." he called. I bring my head up to look at him. He's looking intently at me. I am waiting for him to say anything rather than staring at me but then... there's none. He just looked away and he did not bring back his eyes on me again.

It was our lunch time when Eli hit my arm. She's beaming with excitement trying to fish information about what happened while ago. But then, I cannot give her any. Because I don't fucking know what happened too. It just happened too fast.

Adam excused himself in the middle of the class. I watched him walked away. And he did not came back after.

"I cannot understand the both of you!" Eli lamented. I sighed as I played my food with fork.

"One day, you'll look like you have some secret communication between your exchange of stares. Then the next day, you'll act like you're both strangers to each other. Then after, you'll act as if you are grieving for the lost love that you haven't even had in the first place! C'mon Luna, want to enlighten me?" Eli continued.

I stopped playing with ny food and give my full attention to her, trying to absorb all the words she have said.

Actually, she's right. Adam and I had this confusing interaction between the two of us. Even I can't understand what is really happening. All this shits are messing with my head and I cannot keep up anymore.

At the end, I only sighed at Eli.

"I don't know." I answered honestly. Eli creased her forehead.

"You don't know what?" she asked.

I shrugged my head as a response.

"I have no idea what's happening. I'm confused too." I admit. Eli sighed dramatically and then she settle down in front of me.

"I think he likes you."

My eyes widened a bit with what she said. I shook my head at her.

"No."

"Yes."

"Eli." I called her. Eli arched her brows at me.

"What? What's wrong with what I said?"

"He doesn't like me." I answered instead. Eli rolled her eyes.

"It's obvious. Don't deny---"

"We haven't even interact aside from Biology class. Stop exxagerating things."

"God Luna! You're so dense! Just believe me okay? I am the one who saw how he looks at you. He.Likes.You. And there's nothing wrong wit that."

I parted my lips to catch some air. I badly want to correct Eli because she doesn't know a thing. She doesn't know what did Adam told me after holding my hand. She doesn't know how he denied being my friend. So she can't tell that Adam likes me.

I just shook my head and sip on my orange juice.

"And what's the matter? It's not as if you're cheating or what because you don't have anyone in your heart." she added with a ridiculous laugh.

I swallowed hard. And then, I thought of my Alpha. I thought of him inside my dreams. I suddenly thought of the promise he made. Then I felt guilty. I told him that I'll wait for him, but then, I let other man hold my hand.

But, he's just a dream. And Adam is real. But again, Adam does not like me. I even think that he hates me. He hates being with me.

I shook my head and sighed. I don't know what happened but everything just messed up. Me and my alpha. The freaking dream and the promise. Adam and his intensity. I cannot absorb it at all.

The following days, Adam seems to be so distant even though he's just sitting beside me. He wasn't talking to me. He barely made an aye contact. Even in our project, he didn't bother to say anything. He just sat there looking straight ahead, like a mad ape.

I sighed as I close my book for the end of class. I stood up and looked down at Adam who is putting his things on his bag.

"I'll be at the library by 4pm. I'll work of our project." I said. I waited for him to answer. When he finally looked at me, I almost jolted on our sudden eye contact. I swallowed hard.

"Y-You don't have to come. I just informed you." I stutter. I tightened the grip on my book and turned around. I sighed deeply before I walked away.

Damn.

I was all alone in our library and I am not expecting Adam to show up. So I just stayed there and work silently.

I was in the middle of searching between shelves when I felt something behind me. I parted my lips as I slowly turned around to see who it was.

"Adam..." I whispered when I found him leaning against the shelf behind me, staring back at me.

"I'll help you." he said. Then he got a book right above my head making him so close to me.

I step back when he cornered me. I blinked and looked away when he looked down at me. I felt him breathing in front of me. When I decided to look up, I found him watching me. I parted my lips when his adams apple moved up and down when he swallowed.

"Let's go." he said coldly and then he walked away.

I gasped and I touched my chest feeling my heart beating faster than ever. Shit.

It took me five more minutes to recover from that. I just stood there, where he left me stupidly and trying to calm my heart. Damn, it's beating so loud and fast that I even think of it coming out from my ribcage.

Adam is already focused reading when I head in our table. I sighed deeply as I sat in front of him. I looked down and pretend to be busy reading too, even though I wasn't reading anything at all.

"I'm sorry."

I stopped. I glanced up to see Adam and he's looking back at me. My lips parted when I saw his eyes flickering. I blinked because of shock but it still remains the same. His dark brown eyes is shining, like those in the movies, like those being described in a fantasy book!

"Adam..." I whispered, almost breathless.

Adam clenched his jaw and swallowed hard. My breathing became heavy. He...He looks scary.

"Are you afraid?" he asked while smirking. I almost lost my breath. Adam stood up and I watched him. He chuckled as if everything is ridiculous. I remain silent.

"You can scream." he said, sounded hurt. I swallowed hard.

"I... I'm not s-scared." I said trying to sound brave but my voice failed me.

Adam looked at me with an amused look. It seems like he's not believing yet he's finding it interesting.

"You sounded like one." he smirked. Adam didn't wait for me to answer and then he started taking steps away. I shook my head to wake up myself. There is no way in hell that I'll let go of him that fast.

"Adam wait!" I said as I stood up. I look around to see if we we're alone. And when I found no one, I start running to chase him.

"Adam..." I said when I stopped in front of him. Adam looked bewildered upon seeing me suddenly appearing in front of him.

I parted my lips and drew a very deep breath. I know we weren't friends. I don't know why he said sorry. I don't know what with his eyes and those light, I don't know why I feel like I need to chase him and explain. But then, I'm already here, standing literally so close in front of him, and I cannot turn back.

"I am not scared." I repeated, now more convincing.

Adam's brows furrowed like he doesn't know what am I doing. I don't know what I'm doing either.

Adam craned his neck on the other side while watching me. Then, a slow smile escaped om his lips.

"You don't know what you're saying." he said.

"I am willing to listen."

Adam's jaw clenched and then he stepped forward. I stepped backward same with him. I gasped when my back bumped in a shelf behind me. Adam smirked before putting his one hand above my head and the other one in my waist.

My eyes widened with that! Adam pulled me closer to him that our chest are already touching. My breathing hitched.

"Still not afraid?" he teased. His eyes grew more intense. It shines, it was more defined now that we're so close. And I saw the veins on his neck almost popping. I swallowed hard and shook my head.

"No."

Adam chuckled and I stiffened when he placed his head on my shoulder. I almost fell, my knees are wobbly, good thing he's holding me.

"You should have run when you had the chance." he whispered and I felt his breathing on my neck.

"I... I won't do that."

"Fuck." he muttered to himself. I shut my mouth and remain silent. Adam hold me for I don't know how long. He just stayed there, burying his face on my neck making deep and heavy breaths.

I put my hand on his shoulder and I felt him stiffened. I sighed and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Adam..." I whispered.

Adam groaned and I felt him kissing my neck. My eyes widened and my heart almost burst.

"What are you?" I asked, almost a whisper.

Adam stayed still as I wait for his answer. Then I heard him chuckle.

"You don't want to know." he said and in a blink, he dissapeared.