Chapter 39: Nothing compares

EXPLICIT CHAPTER! YOU ARE REQUIRED TO BE 16 AND ABOVE TO READ

Haya's POV

Am I stupid for giving in? how could I resist, his soft touch, the way he stops kissing me and admires me instead. There was no way I could push him away, I had not burned for anyone for such a long time and as a fire sign whenever my fire is ignited I lose my mind.

As we were both kissing I realized how empty I had become and how our close contact filled me up. How do I explain this feeling? it is only felt by lovers, you can neither run away from it nor ignore it. A simple touch from that one specific person sends you flying.

He unbuttoned my dress and as he went through each button his cold fingertips touched my skin. I bit my lip from the shocks that went through my body as he did that. It is the little things he does whenever he touches me I think about when I get home. He makes me touch myself.

My breasts were bare for him to see, he used his index finger to circle my nipple. He looked at me as he did it, not taking his eyes away from me. I tried looking at him but the pleasure I was feeling became too much to control.

He went down to suck my breasts, my breathing increased and I failed to whisper out to him to stop teasing me.

I was only longing for what is inside of his pants.

He picked me up while continuing to suck my breasts, I wondered how he saw where he was going and to be honest I got scared we might fall for a second. I guess he knows his office because I was suddenly on top of his desk.

He kept on kissing me as he took off his clothes. He lied me down on the table then got on top of me and parted both of my legs. He got in between them and started rubbing his bulge up and down my vagina. I wrapped my legs behind his back and squeezed them together as I could not handle the sexual climax I had reached.

He gently inserted all of him inside of me, I truly felt it on my spinal cord. He started penetrating inside of me mildly, he was neither rough nor soft...I received the best of both worlds.

Everything became clear to me, no matter how mad I get at this man in between my legs my love for him will never change. I am easily affected by anything he does and I guess true love is supposed to sway you away. Make you do things you never thought you would do, the kind of love that is opposite to what the bible says and the kind of love that is forbidden by the heavens.

Our love has ripped me off of my innocence yet I seem to understand heaven better when he is in between my legs.

"Jahinnn..." I repeatedly moaned out his name.

My hands massaged his strong back, he groaned and I enjoyed hearing him respond to my touches. I needed to hear that I was doing it right.

My hands went up to his neck then I placed my fingers into his hair and softly made movements immediately making him tighten his grip on my thigh as he was fully granting himself to me. I was almost there but it was so good I did not want it to stop. My upper body had arrived in heaven and my feet were in contact with the grounds of hell...(A bittersweet sweet desire to have)

I just let myself fully comply to heavens call and I was set free, shortly after my arrival he pulled out and came on my breasts...why am I even surprised he did that, I do not think Jahin will ever let go of his old ways.

He got off the table and I laid there naked and looked outside the huge window of his office.

"I wonder if the people in the other building saw us fucking...but who cares?" I said to myself as I looked at the city come alive as the sun was setting. The sight of it all looked too good to be true, I felt like running towards the light but it shunned away from me.

I got off the table and wore my nude panties. As I was about to wear my matching bra, Jahin was suddenly behind me and he wiped off the cum that was on my breasts. My whole body received a shock from being so close to his, I almost went in to kiss him but I decided otherwise. He and I need to talk. I am not going to let what he did to me slide.

I tried to keep myself from crying but I could not deprive myself of the closure of him knowing how much his departure affected me. I turn to look at him with tears in my eyes.

"What's wrong?" the sight of seeing me crying made him uneasy.

"Noo, do not cry. Did I hurt you?" does he think that he physically hurt me when we were making love?

"Yes, you have hurt me but not physically. Emotionally you have hurt me. You left Jahin, you f***** left me all alone! Do you know how much I needed you, do you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep begging for you to come back to me? Do you know!" I screamed out at him with tears rushing out of my eyes.

He held my face in between his hands and looked into my eyes. I saw the pain in his eyes, the kind of pain I have never seen before. I could see he had a lot to say, as I kept begging him spiritually to confide in me he hesitated.

"Forgive me, I was in pain. I needed to leave Haya," a tear fell down his cheek.

He quickly turn away from me and secretly wiped it off.

"You do not have to hide from me, I do not think crying makes you weak." I turn him to face me.

"I was not crying. There was something in my eye." all the emotions on his face suddenly disappeared and I felt locked away. I felt rejected, the same rejection I run away from and I am scared of.

"Tell me, why did you leave?" I wiped off my tears and returned the same energy he gave me.

"Do you realize that we are naked? we should get dressed. We still have time," he said trying to avoid the current situation.

"I do not care, this is nothing we both haven't seen before. I want to know why you left or I am leaving right now and you are never going to hear from me," I provided him with an ultimatum.

"You are mine Haya, you are not going anywhere," he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me close to him.

"I do not think I can resist him anymore," I said to myself.

"You do not own me, let me go! Jahin I said let me go," I did not give in, I stayed true to myself and kept shrugging away from him.

"I love you, please do not leave me. Can we forget all that we have done to each other and start afresh," he ran his fingers into my hair turning my attention to his face.

I felt provoked when he blamed me for his actions. At this point, if he isn't going to tell me the truth I am out of here.

"What did I do to you?" I asked fuming with anger.

"You slept with him!" he punched me away from him like I was dirty.

"I never slept with anyone while I was with you Jahin, what are you talking about?" I asked with a lot going through my mind since I have recently had intercourse with someone who is not him but I convinced myself that there is no way he knows about that.

"Nevermind," he replied. He grabbed his clothes and started getting dressed. I just stood there looking at him with disbelief...I could not stand being in his presence anymore so I also grabbed my stuff and went inside the bathroom.

After a few minutes, I walked out and the smell of pizza hit my nostrils. The moment I laid my eyes on it my stomach growled but seeing Jahin seated on the table near it took my appetite away.

"I am probably in trouble right now since you beat up my lecturer and you brought me inside of here during a school activity so I am leaving. I will see which story to make up, do not say anything," I said after I paced towards the door.

"Don't you dare step out of that door Haya!" he instructed and for a moment I wanted to stop but walked out of the door anyway.