November 28, 2020 Saturday

Hello Self!

So, how is everything? good? bad?

Haha.. no benefit of asking you. You also won't reply. Just like my ex lol. I am just kidding. Don't take it seriously plz. Bcoz when you take a joke seriously, that's the first crack in the relationship.

Ok, let's go today's day tour.

Finally, my family is back from their vacations. I don't know if I should be happy ir disappointed. Yeah, it sounds wierd but this is my current feeling. I feel happy because they are back and I won't have to do all the chores I used to do and I will get more free time. And I am disappointed because my family has very high expectations from me. They want me to study so hard that I will succeed every stage of my life. And that's why I think, they think games are a bad thing. Anytime, they see me taking a rest from studies, they will start shouting over me explaining the benefits of studying. I am literally fed up of this all. But who cares!? Everyone just want results. They don't want if I am happy or not. Well, let's leave it.

Next, I will introduce a new character to you. His name is Martin, he is from Cambodia. Round face, medium height and 17 years old. And as you would have guessed, I have tried on this guy too. Last time, everything was going well between us. But those days, I was facing a depression and it caused to break our relationship. I hurt him too much I think.😢😥

Today, I texted to him. I asked him if we can create a good environment between us. He is so mad over me still, but he gave me a chance to prove myself. I was very happy hearing this. It gives a great feeling. Later, we did a little chitchat and then he went to sleep. His time is ahead of my time. Country time difference you know. And also, there is a secret. But u have promised not reveal it until the person allows me to. So, let's wait for their approval. Soon, you will also know that secret.

Nothing Interesting is left in my life. Just monotonous and black &White.

Here, it's too cold and the temperature currently is 10°Celcius. I am in my blanket warming me up. The weather out is very foggy and cold. If someone goes out without warm clothes, he is getting back with his skin as cold as ice and head spinning like windmill. And if he still didn't get a cold, he surely have a good immune, otherwise even people with warm clothes get a cold so easily. And haha, I am currently wearing three layers of clothing on top, two on bottom and socks in feet and I still can feel the coldness of weather, even all the windows and doors are closed and I am inside a blanket.

Have you ever felt such a weather?

Ok Self, I will tell you a story. Once, there was a boy (just like an stereotypical start of the story). He was very angry over small things. one day, he tried to commit suicide. He just ate poison, ate a mango after that and went to sleep. Next day, parents found only his body. That boy was a star performer in school. He was one of the best students, just like a gem of the treasure.

But, this depression thing snatched his life away. And when this all accident happened, he was 10 years old. Just 10 years. You can imagine the amount of depression he would have faced which led him to suicide. Whenever I think about it, I feel very uncomfortable. Do you know, how do I know this story? That boy was my junior in the school. He was in 4th grade and I was in 5th. I had seen him doing so well in studies. And after that incident, when i saw his parents crying, i couldn't hold myself anymore and my eyes turned glossy.

Moral of the story, You already know. The decision is on you.

Well, That's it for today. Next day again we will meet, ok!

Good night. Bbye 😘