ANBalanay

I'm in love with a man who's hard to reach,his like a star that I'll never reach.

it is possible?

that someday he'll notice me,
that someday he'll loves me the way I love him.
that someday he'll down,and leaned his hands towards me.

and I'll wait that SOMEDAY will come.


His my bestfriend since Highschool,
and I''ll never expected that I fall for him,
his jolly and gayish and who thought that He'll become an Idol.

and you know what I regret the most?

that I fall for him,too late.

I just woke up one day that...

I love him,secretly or we just I love him not because his just my idol,but a man who's makes me feel comfortable when everytimes Im sad and down,my bestfriend.

he will never notice me,because he forget about me,
An accident came,and change everything.

He forgot all about me,
about his bestfriend,
about his woman,he loved.

The Lost soul that We built together

I can't believe he do that,he played me.I trusted him too much,I controlled myelf to like him,because I thought his a gay.


"It's me,Mommy."she said and I stand up to open the door


"What's wrong sweety? is everything's okay?"she asked,then shake my head as a sign that everything is not okay.


"Rohan,Mom he played me,he pretended to be a gay just be closed with me...h-he love me,Mom."I said with teary eyed


"How sweet!"she giggled and I'm confused. "No man can do that he do,You see? He pretended to be a gay just to be with you for soooo long,honey.he really love you  that he sacrifice his dignity,he love you that much,that he don't want to lost you....he love you that much,that he lied to you"Mom explained and I was crying.


"Tammy,baby.He did that because he had a reason,and that reason is because he love you"Mom smiled.


"I'm stopping myself to like him or love him,Mom. Because I thought his a gay,ahhhh that jerk.His making me insane!"I said and mom just laughed.


"You know,sweety? Talk to him and everything will be fine." and I smiled.


Its Monday night, Thinking that,why is Rohan is absent.I thought I can talk to him today but I was wrong.


Now,I'm here at the park in our village,looking at the sky where the stars is twinkling.


"Tamarah"someone called my with his baritone voice,at I looked at him,yeah it's him.


"I miss you,and I'm wishing for your forgiveness."he said and smile bitterly.


"You love me that much,that you do that such a things?"I asked him.and Iknow to myself that I'll listen to what he said.


"Since Elementary,I'm loving you for so long, tamarah. Maybe you didn't remember but...I'm the one you saved seven years ago from the bullies at the park...I'm the nerdy kid you saved that day....and start from that... I'm admiring you because your so brave to fight them...I want to be your friend but I'm worried because someone told me that you don't want to be friends with boys,And that day I become your stalker, we're highschool that time when you transferred to our school and I see you talking a gay, and that's give me an idea...I pretended to be a gay,and I know everybody at school is confused but I really don't care,I do whatever it takes,and that....we became a friend and I'm so happy."he explained.


"Did you know the reason,that I don't want to be friends with boys?"he shake his head."because I'm a victim of kidnapping,they hurt me,beaten me up,and scarring me,and the age of five I've got a trauma,but that trauma....I faced it even it's scared me."


"Because I'm still scared." I said while trembling.


"Hushh,stop thinking that thing. Can we talk about us without knowing that or the other details because I know your not ready."he then I nod.


" I'm forgiving you but can you please be honest with me now?"


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Sorry for wrong typos and grammars,I'm still improving myself.


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