Chapter 7

Aria

I was beyond excited when we arrived in Maldives, the resort was just simply amazing. Quiet too. I couldn't help but to think about Carnell's & I relationship. Is it really love? I know I sound stupid but what if he doesn't love this new me? What if it's the old Aria he's inlove with still? I wanted to be open minded and tried not to think too much on it but Carnell putting all this together just made me feel like it was being a tad bit rushed.

"Hey, are you okay?" He asked getting in bed, now facing me

"I have something that's been on my mind for a while. I feel like things with us will become complicated. I don't want you to be doing all of this because you loved the Aria that you remembered. I fear that you won't love who I am now. I like us getting to know each other and being in this cupcake phase. I want it to stay this way. I don't want us to overdo this. I want this to work because I do feel something very special for you." I said leading him to the balcony over the water.

We seem to get somewhere much smoother in our conversations when we're under the influence. We had a private chef for the night so we were currently killing time until it was time to eat.

"I had to learn to be okay with that before even approaching you again." He started as he lit the spliff, as we sat down on the giant pillow near the water

"I never thought I'd get the same Aria back after the accident. Then for us to meet again. I mean you didn't even remember who I was. Yea, you knew I was apart of a boy band but I was with you throughout some of that time to. I knew you weren't the same anymore. So, I'm okay with doing whatever it takes to make you and myself as comfortable as possible, to make us work. We've been through a great deal and I don't expect for us to be the same as we were. I like this for us too." He said.

I was on the verge of tears because I really didn't expect for him to understand. Other guys don't. I really wanted him to blow up, ruin the trip so we could leave but here we are. I don't know why my mind imagines the worst of a situation that turns out or could've been good.

"You've been through a great deal of hurt and pain which I know in the past I've added to that hurt but you've always suffered from abandonment issues. You always push people away when all you have to do is open up." He continued again

I wasn't mad but it did change my perspective a bit. I could loose him if I keep this up. I knew I suffered . Through the time I did spend with my "mother" she had no issue throwing that in my face.

"You're very understanding. I underestimated this conversation. I thought it would go left. Give me some time. Im learning to be more open minded." I admitted taking the blunt from him as he passed it to me

"I try to be different from how I was before. Thank you for not assuming, and for wanting to look at the bigger picture." He said

"Yea.." I said while inhaling then smiling a little

Why was I so weird about this? I couldn't even tell you if I knew.

Carnell

I thought more about how Aria felt about about us being together. I like this phase that we're in and it's a great space to be in.

I was feeling it, so I sat back and listened to the water. That was until she sat on my lap facing me. We were high and we definitely haven't shown each other any sexual attention at all.

Wrapping her arms around my neck, she looked at me before going in for a kiss. This kiss right here.. gone make me a little to happy and I need for her and myself to calm down. We still have guest arriving. She didn't know that but I could deflee take her right here.

"Baby wait, before we get down,  there are some things we need to do first. Slide your slippers on I'm going to take you on a tour." I said breaking the sexual tension while she sighed out in frustration

I know what your thinking and just let this play out. She gone ruin her surprises before I can even get to them and before y'all assume.. I'm not purposing to her. We started from the guest room then made our way towards the front of the house.

"Well, well, well.. look who finally decided to come out." Jacob said making Aria roll her eyes then chuckle

"Hey guys, how long were you here?" Aria asked while hugging them both

"About an hour, we just got settled in." Bree said

"We're trying to figure out something to eat. We hungry and haven't ate since before the flight." I said taking a seat next to Ari who was already sitting on the couch

Right now I have someone in our actual bedroom setting up. Well the room she chose, we're not staying in. We are actually staying on the other side of the house. While this side will be for Jacob and SaBree. We could always meet here for breakfast or something.

"Anyways, I'm going to steal her for an hour or two. Babe, you don't mind?" B said talking to me than Jacob

I was shocked a little bit. Now I have to wait to show her the set up I had.

"I need her back as soon as possible please." I said grabbing a controller from Jacob as he handed it to me

The girls walked off and I proceeded to play the PlayStation 4 with J.

"What you got planned while we're out here?" Jacob said logging into his MyPlayer profile

"I wanna show Ari a good time. I want us both to relax. With everything that's been going on, I want us to be sure and on the right track. This is a love I've never had before and it's like I'm fighting for her to love me. I don't want us to be over."

"Don't worry bro, she loves you. I've known her for a while and she doesn't really do the relationship thing but I know for a fact that if she loves someone, she rocking, no doubt. If she doesn't you'll have to cross that bridge when it gets here but for right now. She wouldn't have stayed this long if she didn't have any feelings for you. Don't rush it. Everyone handles life differently and the more you push the more it just will not work out. Go with the flow and just talk to her bro." Jacob said making me think a little

I do love Ari. Shit, she's the only girl I've ever fought so hard to be with so I don't want to ruin this, I just don't want her to not love me. I don't want one of my BIGGEST fears to play out.

"Come on now, so I can whoop yo ass in 2k." Jacob said knocking me out of my thoughts

"Whatever nigga." I said tossing a pillow at him before taking a seat on the other couch

Aria

"So do you even love him?" B asked

We were currently sitting in one of the guest bedroom, chatting while eating the snacks and fruit from the mini snack area. Which by the way I knew would run up the bill considering the sodas was about 8oz but $20 dollars a piece.

"I do, I really do. It's not because I got my memory back either. Mainly because what he went through to get back with me. I liked him for just a split second before he got shot. I'm just amazed at how everything took place. We have been going to therapy together and it's been going good. I mean except our last session." I said sighing and rubbing my fingers through my hair

"Sis, relationships have their problems but the goal is to work through it and not push it off because that's where the problems starts." She said eating out of her bag of chips

"I know. I just want to move forward with my man and just not be afraid. He's trying and I see it. All I keep doing is expressing mixed emotions." I sighed

I was so frustrated. It's like my mind keeps wondering to the why? Why did he fight so hard to get back with me? Why not get into another relationship? Start over. I'm not mad. I'm just still baffled even after damn near 7 months of consistency. My trust issues are very bad and if I don't fix it soon.. I might just actually loose him.

"You know how you feel, you just have to stop second guessing it because of your past reality. I know it's tough but you have to let him in at all angles because if you don't he won't know how to disable situations you may come across in the future. Stay open."

"I am it's just.. I don't know maybe I just need reassurance. Makes me feel safe and respected."

I'm not sure if it's an insecure thing but what I do know for sure is that I love him and I want to be with him. I just let my insecurities get in the way sometimes.

"Y'all will be alright sissy. Just talk to him. After all he's working to become your husband. I see it. Take it one step at a time if you need too." Bree said

"Now that that's over. I'm pregnant." Bree said nonchalantly with a smirk forming on her face

"Say what?!" I semi yelled

"I'm pregnant like showing and everything." She said lifting up her shirt, showing me her small baby bump

"Wayda minute now. Does Jacob know?" I asked excitingly

"No actually I'm going to surprise him I wanna bathe and put on something cute and lace so he can see my belly poking a little." She said making me laugh

"How could he not see this? Y'all live in the same house!?" I honestly was happy for her but come on now how that man can't see this bum taking up space

"Actually he has he just thinks it's my fatness from eating. He doesn't question to much. I just woke up this early morning for a bathroom break and I had a whole belly. I ain't never threw on one of Jacobs hoodie faster than I did this morning."

"Awe , Congratulations I know that must've been weird." I said playing in my hair a little

"Thank you girl, and Very." She said

I could not believe my best-friend was pregnant. If you would've told me that she would be having a baby right now I would seriously kick you in the face.

"I'm so happy for you B. I know that this has been a journey for y'all and I'm excited to see where it goes." I said rubbing her small baby bump

"How long are you?" I asked admiring her belly

"Twenty-one weeks and it's a girl. I found out last week that I was pregnant and decided to tell him on the trip." Bree said looking through her bags

"So, no symptoms, no nothing?" I asked curiously

"Girl my boobs were sore here and there but everything else.. nope." She said

"Look ima let you get to it. You get in the bathroom, I'll set your clothes and stuff up on the bed." I said grabbing her other suitcase from the hallway and sliding it to the room

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"Thank you so much for helping me out." She said walking to the bathroom

"Not a problem." I said before setting her clothes out on the bed, alongside her

The night was closing in and I was getting tired but after finding out she's having a baby it only made me more excited and I started making an online cart!

After helping her get ready I made my way onto Carnell's lap to let him know I was ready for bed. Which made him and J cut off the game. Honestly that was the first time I've ever seen guys turn off the game without finishing

Jacob went to find Bree. As for me, Carnell picked me up bridal style and we went a different direction than the room we were in when we got here.

"Where are we going?" I asked

"It's a surprise. Just wait." He said smiling

"What do you have up your sleeve Mr. Hunnicut?" I asked

"I have a relaxing night planned for us but first we need food."

I just knew I was in for a long night...