Chapter two

With his brown hair, fit body and a sad smile on his face he was just standing beside her and all I could think about was that this boy right here would only bring trouble.

Nurse: Addison, Addison! Are you listening to me?

Addison: no, sorry I was distracted, what were you saying?

Nurse: I was asking if it would be okey for Noah to sit next to you

Addison: I um—

In that moment I froze, words didn’t come out of my mouth and my mind kept going to the night Eli passed, but rapidly I snapped out of it, it had been a while since someone new came into the group and they had asked us to make him feel welcome, sure it would be a big change for me but I didn’t want to be rude or make him feel bad so I just went with it, I took a big breath and said.

Addison: yeah, it’s fine.

And with that the meeting started, as always they asked Noah to present himself, he didn’t say much apart from were he was and how old he was, it turns out that he was from Malibu and he was 17 years old.

After the meeting ended I was dying to go to my room and binge watch friends and drink some tea, so as I was gathering my stuff Noah came up to me and he just stared down at me which I found strange.

Addison: you know you could just take a picture it’ll last longer

Noah: I wasn’t staring at you I was staring at the sticker you have in your computer

Addison: ahh this, it’s the logo of my hockey team.

Noah: well I think its nice for you to carry it around

Addison: um…thanks

Well that was not strange at all, and as he was leaving he stoped and said

Noah: ohh and I’m sorry if I was a distraction to you earlier.

A distraction really does this guy think he is the center of the world or something, he for sure wasn’t a distraction.

Addison: first of all I was concentrated in my book and didn’t even notice you were there until the nurse told us so I’m sorry if I hurt that big ego of yours.

Noah: I could feel your creepy eyes on me so don’t try to come up with excuses.

Addison: I guess that your huge ego is taking up a lot of space in there because I was not staring at you, and you were the one who was staring at me five minutes ago so I would say that ,that makes you a creep then.

Noah: touché

And with that he was gone, touché what does that even mean, and why am I thinking about him and his stupid words, ugh, anyways after our little chat I went to my room and binge watched friends till it was time for dinner.

Like every single night I couldn’t fall asleep so I went to my favorite spot in the hospital, the bay window, as i was sitting there looking at the stars, all my problems seem to have disappeared and for once in two months I wasn’t thinking about the cancer or how I was going to feel tomorrow or if I was going to want to get out of bed, the only thing that was on my mind was how peaceful it was there and for some reason my mind kept going back to my little chat with Noah.

Suddenly I heard him say my name, great just great this is exactly what I needed, now im starting to hear things but his voice was becoming stronger and real, I felt something touch me, so out of instinct I screamed. I turned around and there he was with his gorgeous chestnut brown hair, hazel eyes and a smirky smile on his face. Wait did I just called him gorgeous? ugh.

Noah: Shh shut up, you’re gonna get us caught.

Addison: First of all who the hell does that and second if we get caught is your fault for scaring me!

Noah: well I tried talking to you but you seemed lost in your thoughts

Addison: so what you decided that it was best to scare me!

Noah: oh, come on! what was I supposed to do just stand there till you heard me.

Addison: you’re unbelievable, What are you even doing here?

Noah: I couldn’t sleep, so I decided to go for a walk and for the looks of it I guess that you too.

Addison: well you are right about that

Noah: id like to think that im right about lots of things

Addison: Don’t let it get to your head

Noah: anyways, I was thinking that we could finish our little game.

Addison: what are you talking about?

Noah: the question game

Addison: oh I thought that we were done with that

Noah: oh no we are not, I still got lots of questions for you to answer

Addison: well I don’t

Noah: c’mon you are no fun

Addison: fine but you only get 4 questions

Noah: I’ll take what I can get

And with that we started the game, I had already asked all of my questions and I found out that he had two little twin sisters Grace and Mckenzie, and that he was taking photography in school, now it was his turn to ask me questions.

Noah: so you were the captain of the hockey team, so why hockey?

Addison: when I was little I played lots of sports like soccer, tennis, dance and others, and I guess that hockey was the one that caught my eye the most.

Noah: what are the things that you miss the most?

Addison: hockey tournaments, my friends, school, the holidays, sitting with my family round the christmas tree exchanging gifts, the long car rides to the family cabin, and watching the fireworks for the new year in the snow.

Noah: so… how long has it been?

Addison: about six months

Noah: thats a long time

Addison: yeah it is

Noah: remember the first night we met?

Addison: yeah I remember

Noah: so what were you doing in my room, because when you saw me that night it was like you had seen a ghost.

Suddenly a couple of tears started to fall down my cheeks, he was asking about why was I there and the reason was Ellie but I couldn’t tell him that, I promised myself to never get close to someone from the hospital again and opening up to him was the first step. I was lost in my thoughts once again when I realized that Noah was whipping my tears with his soft hands, in that moment all I could think of was running, getting away from there, from him, so I said.

Addison: I- I can’t, Im sorry.

And with that I was gone, I went to my room, and as I was lying in bed I fell asleep.

When I woke up it was already a new day so like every other day the nurses came to check on me, then they took me to have my chemo, after that it was time for lunch, and after lunch it was time for the group meetings, but I couldn’t do it, I didn’t want to face him, because if I did he was going to ask questions that I didn’t want to answer, so I decided to stay in my room and watch Netflix, and just like that it was night time and again I couldn’t fall asleep so I went to the bay window to look at the stars.

Looking at the starts always seemed peaceful and sometimes I forgot about all of my problems, and for a couple of minutes I enjoyed being able to look outside without worrying about anything.

So I just stayed there appreciating the starts.

Noah: I figured you’ll be here

Addison: what do you want?

Noah: I just wanted to check on you see if you were okey, so I went to your room and you weren’t there so I came here.

Addison: well im fine, now can you leave?

Noah: im not leaving, may I sit?

Addison: sure.

Noah: you didn’t came to the group meeting today, can I ask why

Addison: I wasn’t feeling well

Noah: is that so, it doesn’t have anything to do with last night

Addison: no it doesn’t

Noah: wow no sarcastic comment or comeback, something is definitely up

Addison: look im not in the mood so tell me what do you want

Noah: I want to know what you were doing in my room that night

I knew that telling him was only going to lead to more questions but it was the only way to make him stop, right?

So I answered his question.

Addison: look do you really want to know?

Noah: yes

Addison: fine here it goes, so that night I couldn’t sleep so I decided to go for a walk an-

Noah: like you always do

Addison: Noah! are you going to listen or to interrupt me

Noah: fine, sorry, go on

Addison: as I was saying I couldn’t sleep so I went for a walk, and suddenly without realizing it I was in front of her room and I believe that I went in with out even realizing it

Noah: so… who was her?

Addison: she was Ellie my best friend from here.

Noah: and what happened to her, sorry stupid question don’t answer that.

Addison: no its fine, she got sick and passed

Noah: im sorry

Addison: sorry for what, you didn’t do anything, you didn’t kill her, it’s was all it’s fall!

And again tears started to fall down my cheeks, and again he whipped them off

Noah: hey, hey it’s okey to be sad, and its okey to talk about it if you want of course, or we could just stay here looking at the stars.

Addison: we?

Noah: yes we, im not leaving you like this

Addison: fine, but you know what, it’s not okey, it’s not okey at all.

Noah: what is not okey, feeling sad?

Addison: yes, its not okey

Noah: and why is that?

Addison: because I hate it, I hate being like these, I hate not knowing what is gonna happen tomorrow, I hate having to pretend like everything is okey in front of my family.

Noah: look Addie, sometimes is best if you live in the moment because with what we are dealing with, we will never know what is going to happen.

Addison: I guess that you are right, again

Noah: See I told you that I was right about lots of things

And just like that I was smiling again, and I could feel his eyes on me.

Addison: what, do I have something on my face?

Noah: no, just the prettiest smile I’ve ever seen

Addison: did you just use a line on me?

Noah: maybe, maybe not

Addison: wow just wow

Noah: what?

Addison: nothing

Noah: look why don’t we make a pact, you don’t pretend around me and I don’t pretend around you, what do you say?

Addison: fine, but no secrets okey

Noah: you got it.

Addison: well im going to sleep

Noah: i’ll walk you

Addison: seriously

Noah: look we are going to the same place and our rooms are not that far apart

Addison: fine

After a short walk back we arrived at my room.

Addison: well this is it, goodnight

Noah: goodnight.

As he was leaving he said

Noah: oh and Addie, It wasn’t a line your smile is really pretty

Addison: don’t call me that

Noah: what,Addie?

Addison: yes, don’t

Noah: goodnight Addie

Addison: Noah!

Noah: fine, fine.

And with that he was gone, Addie, no one has ever called me that its kinda cute right? What was I doing I promised myself not to get closer to anyone again, and without realizing it I slowly started to break that promise until it was too late to return.