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Chapter 10 : Feelings

Ritz

He's so easy to read. I know. I finally got it now. For the whole time that I was observing and watching him from where I am. I can now proved that he's also into me but deeper than mine. I'd said deeper because I know that he had a plan already 'on claiming me completely. And 'when I say completely, my heart is obviously included to it. He wants to own it in any way. But I'm not that dumb also to get easily fooled by it. I knew already from the start that it wasn't really me. I've felt it and seen it with my own eyes.

Honestly, It was her. It was my twin. The only woman that he's inlove with. It was never me and I totally do understand. My silence is the only proof of that. And I am also aware that they've met first and knew each other already when I came into their lives. Also, Rizz didn't knew that I know all about it, about their little secrets. I stayed behind after knowing everything because I am waiting, patiently waiting to hear her confession personally.

Actually, this situation that where in right now is really cruel to us but someone must let go, and it must be me. I'm out of the picture. It was really them. They are the original one. I must do this. I really must. And I will not judge her. I would never judge them for falling for each other even if in a shortest time.

And as you all can see, Senn still didn't know the true, about our truth. About my real relationship to her real lover. He only knows that I am her and we're one. He's still clueless that have a twin that is existing in this life which is her 'the woman who's he really inlove with. And in time, we will confess everything to him, not now but very soon. I hope we really will before it's too late.

I am very considerated here. I know where should i stand in this situation. I didn't want to cross the line. As much as possible I don't want to be an hindrance to their love story. I love her as much as she does so, if this is the key for her to be happy. I am more than willing to sacrifice everything for her even it breaks my heart too. I can do anything just to see the happiest version of her and the better her with him, to the man he truly loves.

" She really deserve him as much as I do so, she must be happy with him "

I sudden excuse myself to them for a moment and walk straightly to the comfort room. I just needed to let it out. I must, before I even explode in front of them.

And when I am about to enter to the comfort room someone grab me back to face who ever he/she is.

" Are you alright? " It was him who asked. It's Senn who's stopping me from going.

I just nod and smiled at him, trying to hide the pain inside of me. 'Everything will be okay!' I repeatedly reminded to myself.

He's still look worried. His eyes can't even fake it. It's sending a lot of emotion that is unknown to me. I knew he's having a second thought about my answer but I reassured him that I was really fine through my smile.

Seconds later, he finally let me go and reminded me to go back quickly because we were still not finished yet on our wedding photoshoot. Yeah right! we must finished that quick so I can finally let him go and make my twin 'the happiest woman alive here on earth.

I can't help now but to smile bitterly. What a tragic ending for me 'but it will be worth it right?

Inside the comfort room. I silently cried it all out. I explode my tears at once until I can't take it anymore. I guess, this is my only way to comfort myself. And after this, we will act again like a pro, like nothing really happened and don't have any single problem at all.

And to tell you all the truth. This situation is harder than it seems. It became more harder to me to push it through because I've learned the thing they called 'love and the true meaning behind the word itself. It's holding me back but as I've already said, I must stop. I must erase this feelings that I have for my twin's lover. I'm committing a sinful act if I didn't remove it all to my whole system. It is a sin to still love him knowing that we were really not meant to be. Anyway, I had enough of this drama. Let's go back to the reality now.

Once I've finished fixing myself, I instantly walk out of the comfort room and smile like there's no tomorrow. Let's hide all of this pain away and blow this sinful feelings at once. " May you go, far far away..."

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" Be ready, Senn and Ritz. We will be having your couple shots now! " Our photographer reminded us.

We hurried back to our individual teams and change our outfits immediately. The set is already prepared for us. It's looks like we were finishing this one with the theme 'wedding as usual. And obviously this is just the first part, we will have more of it together with our families in both side in an island. They're the one who decided it and not us. We respected it so we are obligated to do it of course. No disapproval or disobeyance happened because it's them.They will not gonna let it go if we disagreed.

And of course, I don't want to mess this up right? Our plans must not mess up because if this so, I'm back on track now. And will going to make sure that this time, No feelings involved in our little fire game. We will just play on the fire right now and had no plan to get burned by them.

" Come on and let's continue to play! "