The Killer's hardship

I was 19 that time when I accepted his offer, I became a hired killer in the fear of losing a home. Also the fact that this guy in front of me saved me, and now he’s offering me a job. I cannot seem to refuse anymore. I know it was absurd on how he recruits their members, but I’m starting to like being a hired man. At first it was hard, the training and everything, but when I receive my first salary I can’t seem to describe the feeling I have that day. I’m happy and proud of myself, I get to have my own money without stealing it. Jabez even congratulated me that day, he said I was doing good and I just need to keep it up to get to the higher ranking. I looked up to him since he saved me and up until now, I still looked up to him. He’s like a god to me, that's what I always feel about him, but things started to get weird after what Mr. Manson told me that day. I got really curious about Mr. Jabez Wilkes. He said Jabez is the one who trained Mr. Park; my mentor. It’s been 4 months since I got hired as a killer in a False Collateral company. I was praised by our boss when I killed that criminal with the use of a bomb. I was expecting Mr. Jabez to congratulate me too, but he wasn’t there that day. I started to watch Jabez from afar since the day he killed the presidential candidate. I was so happy to be part of his success on that job.I keep on having this weird feeling that I wanted to get close to him. I know it sounds pathetic, but I can’t seem to stop myself. I admire him so much that I think I'm going obsessed. I know Mr. Jabez isn't someone I can get closed with but I'm still hoping and asking myself what is this feeling? I don't know how to handle this type of emotion, and I'm pretty sure I will make some mistake but I won't regret any of it.

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After that dramatic day, Dristan started to act strange. He keeps on avoiding me like he’s too scared that I will open up about what happened that night. It’s funny how I can still act like nothing happened after I got rejected. It’s still clear to me what happened that day. It was a painful yet happy moment in my life. I finally got a chance to tell him how I feel even if I got rejected. I decided that I won't give up, until I make him mine. It’s me who’s been by his side all this time, I know someday he will realize that I'm the one for him.

“Good Morning, Mr. Wilkes.”

I looked up to see who spoke and to my surprise it was, “Lucas?” I exclaimed. “What are you doing here? Did Mr. Manson called you?” I asked while looking at Dristan’s schedule. We didn’t accept any contract killing job this week so why is he here?

He smiled while shaking his head. “I’m here to visit someone,” he answered.

I frown at him. “This isn’t a prison or a hospital, why are you going to meet up here?” I asked.

He laughed. “I’m sorry, that person works here and he rarely leaves his seat. So I decided to visit him,” he explained. Who the hell is he going to visit? “So, Mr. Wilkes are you free this afternoon?”

“What?” I exclaimed. “Why are you asking me?”

“Is there a reason to ask you?” he smiled. “So, are you free?”

What is wrong with Lucas? He’s asking me to go out with him? Is he crazy or something? “No. I’m super busy,” I answered. I’m still trying to figure out why he is asking me. I hope what I’m thinking is wrong.

“Ah, I see you are really busy. Maybe dinner?” he asked again.

“Look here, Lucas. If you are not here for business you better leave already before Mr. Manson came.”

“Aw, you’re throwing me away?” he asked in a sad tone. “I’ll wait for you in the evening,” he said before walking away. What the hell is that kid saying? Showing at the Aegis Oasis, like it’s so casual.

“Is that Lucas?”

I looked in front of me and saw Dristan. I can smell the smoke in his coat. Damn this man, I told him to stop already.He’s been smoking again at his office.

“Yeah. He came to bother me,” I answered trying to avoid eye contact. “Never mind that, you better change your coat. You smell!” I exclaimed. I don’t know if I’m glad because he started to talk to me again, but I feel slightly mad. I’ve been telling him that he should stop smoking, but he just won’t listen to me. I’m not enough, is what I always thought.

“What? Really?” he asked while trying to sniff his coat.

“Yeah,” I said while pushing him away.

I wonder what Dristan is thinking, I can’t seem to read his expression. He’s always open to me before, he always told me what’s bothering him and what he wanted to do. This time he’s different, he’s hiding something big and I wanted to know what it is. The way how Lucas is acting is bothering me, plus the fact that Dristan is still acting like he’s hiding something from me. My mind is full right now, I don’t know what to do first. We are also short on employees. It’s not a good idea to hire college students, now that they have earned a lot they decided to continue their studies. We are now left with all the work. “Maybe we should hire more men?” I said while looking around.

We started to receive a lot of calls and emails asking when they can book an appointment. I didn’t expect us to be this busy, I’m glad we haven’t had any contract killing clients for a long time now. Since the death of Chris Liam, politicians and other high profiled personalities started to go crazy about their security. Many of our personal bodyguards were hired already. Some are escorting politicians, as for our hired men they are on standby. We don’t want to accept any contract killing business for now because the Aegis Oasis is short of people. It is hard to handle two different companies.