Broken Friendship

Ronnie reeked of alcohol. His slurred speech was hard to understand. I wasn't sure if I heard the last part correctly. What did he mean by choosing Zaphyr or him?

"Ronnie, you're drunk, and you aren't making any sense."

Ronnie's arm moved around my back, pressing my body against him. I could smell the alcohol coming out of his breath. His eyes were entranced with mine as if he was looking deep within my soul.

" I love you, Bella, but I am tired of sharing you. I know you love Zaphyr, but he is only a celebrity. All you do is talk about him. I have tried changing the topic, but we always end up talking about him. You don't want to hang out because you're busy doing "fan stuff." When I get the opportunity to have a day with you, it starts with Zaphyr and ends with Zaphyr. I feel like I am dating Zaphyr and not Bella."

I couldn't move because every word that was coming out of him was tearing me apart. He backed off and stood up. I thought that was the end of our conversation, but I was wrong.

He turned, and I saw his anger emanating off of him.

" I can't believe I am saying this, but I am jealous of the dam bastard. He has your heart, and he hasn't even lifted a finger or done anything for you, yet he has your heart. I don't understand what he has that I don't besides money and fame. Tell me, Bella, what does he have that I don't".

I stood there frozen. I didn't answer because I understood why he was mad, but he didn't understand why I loved Zaphyr. I assumed I was accepted, but reality came back to rip apart the fantasy world I had created. I was never accepted for who I was. It was just an illusion that I had created. Everything I thought we had done together from day one was a delusion of what I hoped for in a relationship. Everything was falling apart, and I didn't know how to fix it.

Ronnie had an answer to my unspoken question.

" Bella, please let go of Zaphyr. Please do it for us. He isn't real he is only an idolized person created by people. You live in a completely different world from him. Please, come back to reality, come back to me as Bella, not Bella and Zaphyr".

Zaphyr was my life; how could I leave him. He doesn't understand, and at this point, he will never understand. That's what I get for letting someone in. I knew this was too good to be true. I stood up, and with a heavy heart for what I was about to do, I looked at Ronnie. As soon as I did, he knew, he knew who I had chosen. I never expected what he would do next; he wounded me to the core.

" You don't have to say a word, Bella. I already see the answer in your eyes."

Instead of walking out of the front door as I expected him to, he ran upstairs to my room. My heart started to palpitate because I didn't want to believe what he was about to do. I screamed, but too angry to listen, he ignored my plea.

"RONNIE!! Please don't do what I think you are about to do. PLEASE!!!".

I begged him with all my might as I ran after him.

I saw my door wide open and I heard my precious collections flying and crashing as they hit the walls and then the floor. Too scared and hurt to look at the disaster that was happening in my room. All I could do was let the tears slide down my cheeks. I fell to my knees and then hugged them to my chest knowing that every piece that I had collected with all my hard work was being destroyed in an instant. I knew that all I would have left would be the memories.

A breathless and frustrated Ronnie walked out. With one look at my face, Ronnie's anger vanished, and with it, guilt and realization of what he had just done.

Too hurt and stunned, I couldn't even say or do anything.

Ronnie kneeled in front of me, knowing that he just lost the chance to ever get back with me.

" Bella, I was angry. I am so sorry I didn't think. I'm sorry. I'm not used to drinking. Please, please forgive me. I will replace everything in your room, I promise."

He reached towards me but right away moved his hands as if he was electrocuted. He grabbed his hair and pulled at it as if he were going through a mental breakdown.

I didn't have the energy even to breathe, but I wanted him to leave. So I whispered my desire for him to leave and never return.

"Leave."

He looked at me and got closer.

"What did you say."

I tried my hardest to contain my emotions. I failed miserably.

" GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE AND NEVER COME BACK, YOU STUPID ASSHOLE!!!

In shock, Ronnie got up, stumbled on his feet, and ran to my front door. All I heard was the front door close with a thud. That day I vowed that I would never talk to Ronnie ever again.

He texted three days after the incident, pleading with me that he wanted to talk to me. I was too angry to talk to him. I didn't even want to see him because I was sure I would punch him in the face.

He was so stubborn he kept at it for the next couple of weeks. I didn't even sit next to him during class. Finally, he cornered me in the hallway. I glared at him and yanked my arm out of his grasp.

"Let go and don't touch me".

My words obviously hurt him, but at this point, he was nothing to me.

" Bella, please just let me say something".

I stopped walking and looked straight ahead. Waiting to see what this bastard wanted. I didn't want to deal with him anymore.

" That night, I was drunk. I really didn't mean to destroy your room. I haven't slept, just thinking of how much I hurt you. I really, really am sorry. I'll pay for everything I destroyed, please stop avoiding me. Let me fix this".

He destroyed everything I treasured. A mere sorry and compensation weren't going to return the hours I had worked for. It wasn't going to bring back the attachment and love I poured every time I succeeded in getting another collectible. The loss was too great, and there was honestly nothing he could do to fix it.

"Don't bother. You destroyed more than just my collection. You destroyed my soul. There is nothing you can do to fix it. All I ask is to leave me alone. I want nothing to do with you."

I started to walk away. He had the audacity to grab my hand as if what I just said went through one ear and came out through the other. I pulled my hand out and glared at him.

" Don't touch me, ever again.

I turned to leave once again, but Ronnie was so determined to piss me off. This time I shoved him away and threw my water bottle away. Everyone turned and stared at the commotion. This time I will say it in front of everyone to hear.

" Leave me alone. We are through, and don't touch me".

I left angry and hurt. I didn't want to humiliate him, but he wasn't taking no for an answer.

He didn't try to talk to me again or sent me text messages. All I could think was good riddance. A week passed by with no contact.

During lunch, I heard someone calling out to me. Maliah came running towards me, pushing away bystanders. Her urgency was imitable. That was the day that Maliah had found Ronnie with another girl.