17.Bruises.

"I gotta go",he said. "It's fine ,I had fun thanks",I tell him. I walk him to the door scratch that am just going to close the door. He hugs me and once again am lost in his embrace. "Goodnight pretty"he says as he goes out. "Goodnight Enzo",I tell him. I shut the door and once again am left alone. I feel the void I mean how could I have survived this long. I was such a fun person till he destroyed me ,Ryan. Have you ever loved someone that the emotions hurt. That's how I felt. I tried everything so I can fit in with him. We were so different , from different worlds. He was I don't know how to put it like he didn't care about anything in the world , not even me. I was a bother to him . I thought maybe he just didn't like people I don't know. I was just a toy to him something he could just toss around. I loved him how could I see that I was blind funny right? He never liked having me around and I thought maybe he didn't want my mind to be poisoned by his friends. I was too good for him.

So I changed to be like him and he liked me more and that's all that I wanted. The things we do for love.... I started skipping school so I could be with him . He was older than me by four years. All we could do is get high and fuck nothing productive and I liked it that way so long as I could spend some time with him. All I wanted was his love and attention. That was after my dad had passed away. My life had no meaning precisely so I could do anything ,my grades started decreasing. I was no longer that sweet girl, I was someone else. He helped me escape reality. He was there for me I guess I was dumb that time to think so . I gave him money for whatever he wanted to use it for and it was for drug dealing. It was his hustle I couldn't judge him. I knew nothing about him i am not even sure Ryan was his name . I knew nothing about where he came from , totally nothing. Everytime I asked him about his family he just brought something else up and I got it he didn't want to talk about it.

I went to late night parties just to be with him, stupid bitch. I was just young I didn't know about this stuff. He was my first everything so I'd be stupid obviously I never saw his mistakes,to me there is nothing he could do that is wrong.

My best friend Camila tried to show me everything that he did wrong but I couldn't see. I had multiple fights with her because of him . I wonder why she couldn't focus on her life she was all over my business. Judging everything I did but she couldn't understand. I stopped spending time with her and she was mad at me. Our movie nights were long forgotten . We used to talk alot and then we stopped. There is this time I told her to focus on her massive crush with my brother. He would reject her for sure she was too young for him . Ryan didn't like her I don't know why though. She changed all of a sudden and I couldn't recognize her anymore. She had new friends ,the ones we despised. She used to come to our place but not for me ,it was for Hugho. Before I could have been happy seeing my best friend and my brother together. She stopped coming over after some time and I didn't ask why . Later I learnt they were just fucking wierd to know about my brothers sex life. My relationship with Ryan wasn't doing good. Whenever I went around his place it was either he was not present or he was busy. I assumed that maybe he was busy . I kept my distance we were mostly talking on phone. There was this time we were talking and I think someone knocked on his door and he asked who it was , it was a lady and I couldn't recognize the voice . He said he gotta go and he hung up. I really didn't think that it was anything suspicious maybe it was a client. We stopped talking and I started getting worried but I couldn't tell him. I was his girl or that's what I thought so I had to support him. We became distant him never being available like I was the only one who was in the relationship. That gut feeling is always right,I knew something was up but I couldn't figure out what it was . I spent all my time staring at all our pictures , talking to his pictures,lame. I didn't see or talk to him for two weeks I was worried maybe he got busted. So I decided to go to his place. Reaching his place I tried knocking but I guess he couldn't hear me the music was too loud . I had a key to his place so I opened the door . It reeked of weed. Stuff was thrown all over the area . I decided to pick them up and clean the place but there were sounds from the bedroom and I was curious . I dropped my bag on his couch and made my way to his room . The door wasn't closed it was open a little so I wouldn't startle whoever was in there . There on the floor entering his room there was a pair of matching black silk ,lace bra and panties. I knew who they belonged to because I bought them. On the bed was Camila ,legs spread wide Ryan eating her out. I just stood there motionless when I looked at Camila I could see the victory in her eyes ,yes I guess I lost this time round . When Ryan looked up at me there was no regret in his eyes . I was the fool all along . I just turned around and left. He didn't even come after me . I guess I was nothing I never mattered . They even dated but broke up after a month ,they could never last . The cheating walking creature had the nerve to come back saying he didn't know what was wrong with him . It was too late. I had realised what a full I was . I stopped being nice this world didn't deserve someone who was good because no matter how good you are someone would still want to hurt you. But what happened didn't turn me to a puppy,shit happens and it happened to me . I guess it was my time to experience pain.

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