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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

I stare at her when she's sleeping  I know I sound like a creep. She looks so cute . She stirs in her sleep and I think she'll wake up but she doesn't . I get up from the  bed and go to the bathroom. 


I hear footsteps coming towards the kitchen and glance back to see Ella. 


"My clothes look good on you ,does your head hurt?"I ask her .


"Yeah have any pills to stop ?"she asks.


"Just wait a little bit let me get them to you",I tell her as I go to the medicine cabinet and fetch her some pills.


"Here ",I tell her as I hand her the pills and a glass of water.


"You shouldn't be drinking that much "I tell her .


"I know but then I couldn't say no",she says as she sits on one of the stools.


"So what are you making as I can see it's already break time",she says as she glances at the clock .


"I really want to help what can I do?"she asks.


"Just sit there and look pretty that's it",I say and she chuckles .


30.Happiness.