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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

The universe always had a way if punishing someone.It took away the people you lived most and left behind the people who made your life miserable.

I expected everyone else to be miserable. Maybe grieve like I did but everyone went on with there life like nothing had happened and it infuriated me. Workers continued working and my parents had their weekly business meetings like it was a normal thing. All I felt like doing was go somewhere and scream it out . I was lonely and did not have anyone. My thoughts were killing me and I needed someone to talk to before they consumed me. Every second felt like torture and I wanted it to end so bad.

The ringing of the door bell brought me to reality but I did not bother to go and check to see who it was. It was probably one of my dad's friend who had come to pay his condolences. It rung again and I huffed as I got up to go and see who it was. I opened the door and was a bit relieved to see Calleb on the other side of the door.

ALIVE