Payback time

Mico POV

I don't remember a bit of what just happen back there at the house, wishing that my dream will come true and sometimes it frighten me a bit because it change quickly wherein I don't know what to feel once I wake up which I keep missing that person who appear in my dreams and becoming tragic that might hurt me someday and forget everything happen until it change me into someone else.

I don't want to be a worst person with someone I loved that turns me into person which I don't recognize myself too. It's hard to keep all these emotions I had when I lost someone and I think my heart will burst which I can't keep it anymore because I end up hurting everyone. So I try my best not let my emotion out and change into someone else that everyone will going to hate me eventually if that happens.

Do you know what makes me stronger despite I'm in deep pain inside? I try to be as cold and bad to others because that's the only time who are the people going to stay by my side when they finally accept my bad side which I can only show to them my good side.

We all know that different stories of each persons may define as someone that we can't imagine but we tend to believe what they want us to know about their past instead of degrading them without knowing what is right and wrong.

Probably, I can't let my problems be a burden to someone else because seeing the person I love suffer which make me my heart feel hurt and I can see what they've been through these time and sacrifices they had made all their entire life.

I realized many things happen in my life but that won't stop me moving forward. It's true that our angry side will always show us our true color which it doesn't mean we're bad person and maybe we're just having a bad day that's all. We look for a place to stay but we went to our favorite spot

"Did you bring the medicine james?"

"Yes I did and it's in my bag, but first we should eat something before we take the medicine"

"Guys, I just need to buy some food for us and we need to eat even we don't feel good" benjamin said

"Do you need some help dude?" charles asked

"Maybe james will help me instead and you two just take rest before anything else happen" he said and cough. All of us, look pale and we can't move properly because our body aches

The two already left and I just want to a rest for a bit since I can't do anything right now which make me feel like my whole body break into pieces but we still have left things to clean before our community service is done today

"Mico, I see that you're not into yourself awhile ago and until now because you're dozing off which I want to know why" charles said and I don't want him to know what I've been feeling lately

"I feel fine and I can clean the swimming pool later" I said to change the topic quickly because I want to divert his attention to other things than to focus on mine which I don't want to be bother at all with it

"Don't even dare lie to me mico because I saw you crying while sleeping and I know you been having nightmares for almost 12 years of your life because you lost someone precious to you" charles said out of line which I don't get mad easily and he really knows me. We've been friends since kid and our parents are really close because my mom and his mom are bestfriend which made me bit a surprised.

No wonder, me and charles are so close and treated ourselves like brothers which I can tell all my problems with him and he understand me way better than anyone else. I can't lie to him

"Okay, you caught me there and you know me better than myself" I said which I can't hide to him

"Now tell me and don't feel too stressed because I really want to know" he said

"Okay, but don't tell my mom about it because I don't want to be burden on them and you know I'm not close to my dad since that day happen" I said and warned him so that he will take it seriously because I know charles. He would definitely going to tell everything to my mom since she told charles to take care of me

"No need to worry about it, did you even see me call your mom and tell everything to her?" he convince me a bit

"Okay fine, I thought it was real" I said which I don't how to explain it

"You thought that you feel like you're with melody"

"I think so, because the way I talk to her which made me cried and hugged her tight. I knew I was dreaming but I felt that it was real. I've been staring at her the whole time then she is just smiling and laughing at me as if it was an illusion. We're like a happy family and grandpa is also there scolding me because he taught that I made a trouble again" I said which my tear fell but I wipe it quickly because I don't want others to see me like this feel weak

"Go ahead, I'm listening"

"I keep saying or hoping that it's not a dream. We're about to have breakfast together then suddenly melody was not there and she disappear like a thin air. I keep calling her name but she is not even answering or calling my name wherein I keep calling her out but she's not around then I suddenly woke up crying and my eyes are swollen. Then I saw james besides on my bed and feel worried but I didn't tell her the real reason to him which I only said that I'm fine" I continued and look away so that I won't even feel like crying over and over again.

I promised melody that I should be happy but I can't when she's no longer exist in this world where I should be with her enjoying those small things and made such promises that someday I'm going to fulfill it but with one glimpse of closing my eyes, everything was gone.

Charles just hugged when he knew that I needed it. I always wanted to get hugged with my mom but I can't because she'll figured it out that I'm still holding to it when it's about time for me to let go which this made me think twice. Moving on is one if the hardest part thing to do in life when you can't still let go of that person but at the same you must to let yourself feel free on the pain you've been holding for years.

"I know what you're feeling right now mico, but you should let it out and the pain won't let you feel at ease. I can't tell you parents about it but one thing for sure is you should learn to let go of it" he said

"How can I let go of something precious?" I asked

"It's part of our life mico and remember what you promised to melody when she is still there by your side" charles said

"I'm just afraid to let go, if I do as well I might forget that person for a long time" I said which made me hold to it all these years.

"We know that, once you let go either you forget or remember it. But it doesn't mean you lost yourself for something instead you learn how to be the person you are when it makes you stronger than you expected to be" charles really knows how tell an advice and give you something very inspiring realization in life

Everything he says or tells me, I find it something I can learn from it. He is right and I never doubt him even sometimes we argue with small things but we don't take it as big deal. This is how keep my friendship with them because we cared and loved the way we do things in our common traits. But I hope this day will be over because I really want to take a rest for a week.

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Benjamin POV

When we just simply going to buy food but james insisted to go to a pharmacy because he needs to buy medicine for us and went somewhere else for awhile because he needs to refresh his minds which he might lost his thoughts. I know james throughout the years and that is why we're very close. Because his dad and my dad are bestfriend for almost 30 years which I'm not surprised because they work together but have their own company now.

Why did we even get sick? Is it because of doing community service for five days? We have cold, cough and fever wherein it makes my whole body weak which I can't move properly but I have no choice but to do so and go to school because we still have things to do and finish our community service today. I don't know what will happen to us after this community service and we don't also have a choice to force ourselves to finish everything or else it will extend

Where did james go this time? We've been here in the beach and we should go back because we still need to buy some food in the canteen or else mico and charles will get hungry

What is lovely doing today? I hope she is fine and how I wish I could get to know her even she hates me because I bully her but I made up my mind that I should protect her instead hurting or making her cry wherein man should do that to their woman.

"Dude, what are you thinking?" james just suddenly appear out of nowhere which gave me an heart attack. But all of sudden, my head hurts a bit and I try to massage it to ease the pain

"Yah, are you alright?"

"I don't know, I feel like my whole body going to collapse but I can still handle it dude. Don't worry about it and you should check on yourself because you don't look good as well" I said because I feel worried about us.

Actually, mico is the most weakest person on the four us and james is the strongest one because despite the situation he had face with his father he never talk back or disobey everything which his decision are being destroyed because he prefer to keep it to his self than to let his dad because he wouldn't give him a chance to pursue it.

While me, dad let me decide on my own when he knew it will make me happy because at first we always fight because I disregard everything he say and he thought that music can destroy my life but he doesn't even know that music is my passion and I want to pursue my singing career after I graduate so that's how we end up arguing. Still, he let me decide on my own which he let me do so.

I don't know how does james hold back on the pain he had for almost 13 years and I never see him cry again after that day. I don't want to be a busybody by just asking him this one question.

"Let's go back to the school, since we still need to buy some food and our bags are still in the classroom so we need to get them before the professor come in" james said and went to the car then drove back to school since swimming pool and gym need to be clean or else will get home late again which I don't to happen and we really need to take a rest.

"Dude, have you cried for something or someone?" I asked nowhere and I can't pull it back

"You know me benji, we been friends since kid and did you saw me cried?" james said

"Is that so? If I say yes, would you tell me?" I asked but suddenly my conscious swallow me

"Or maybe you don't need to answer it" I added

"Yeah, I will and there's no problem at all. I already told you about that and I think you know me. Is there something missing here that you want to know? Just go ahead ask me" james said

James is really a straightforward person, and sometimes he can be serious with all this matters then the situation he is in. He would definitely going to look for a solution to solve within the day because he won't feel at ease if the problem is not solved.

"Do you want me to drive?" james asked but I declined which we're almost there

"No thanks, maybe you just need to take a rest then we're going to buy food on the cafeteria" I said

I'm too lazy to clean or finish the community service because my body hurts so much and I can't hardly move but I can still handle it. But I'm really weak now, I'm about to collapse in no time and james is coughing. The four of us had a high fever that we thought was mild but it wasn't.

Even if you clean for more than a week at school, won't you even get tired of cleaning everything in every corner of the school? The oversized library, gym, swimming pool, field, theater, and campus especially the office of the president and vice president will almost take you over like 13 hours to clean it tidy.

We got out of the car and hurried to the cafeteria, there might be too many students and we wouldn't be able to choose anything in the menu. James was obviously tired and could not move properly

"Benji, would you please take it slowly? Because I can't anymore and I'm too tired" james complain and same goes to me

"Hang in there dude, we can still make it" I said and help him

We just want to sit for awhile and take a rest because you don't know what will happen but I insist of walking until we reach the cafeteria. Well at least the cafeteria here is near and there's no student that much then I look for a place wherein james can take a sit while I buy the food

What to eat right now? Good for fever and I should buy some honey juice. When someone tap at my back then turn around which I didn't notice who it is but I didn't mind because I'm not in the mood to talk or argue to anyone right now

"Oh benjamin, are you alright?" Ms. Jang asked and hand me the food

"I'm fine Ms. Jang" I said and hand me a honey juice for free which made me smile

I went back to where james was sitting and I can finally able to sit because my foot hurt when I walked too much, especially since james and I did some running even though we had a fever.

"Ahh" suddenly someone stumbled on my foot and that was intentional. Then the students are looking at me right now and some of them are laughing which I find it weird. This is not funny at all and I feel annoyed. And my body hurts more and I get weaker.

I looked at who was responsible and I wouldn't be surprised anymore. What's wrong with this girl? Is she insane? And as if I'm done something wrong with her which she would hold a grudge on me

"Lovely" I said

This is so embarrassing then james trying to help me stand up and suddenly my heart ached especially I don't know what happened which I hold a grip on my chest then trying to breath wherein I'm having a hard time right now

"Oops sorry about that, my bad" she said and laughing at me like she think this is funny? You're lucky enough that I don't feel like arguing with you today if I hadn't, I would definitely embarrass you in front of these many students and you would suddenly cry if that happens.

We were about to leave when james suddenly fell on the floor and so did I.

"What the hell?!" james said and gone mad right now

"Sorry, I thought there's no one around" a girl said then we looked up who did it

"MICHELLE!" james shouted then cough

"What? Did I do something wrong?" then she rolled her eyes

"Yes you did!"

"Do you have any proof?" she smirked

I just hold on to james so that he won't make any trouble and I saw his hand trying to hold his grip and clinch which he is about to hurt michelle but I just stop him and I don't want james seek attention here in the cafeteria

"Let's go james and they're already waiting for us on the campus" I said

"I'm not done with you!"

"I'm not done with you. As if, loser" then she laugh and do a make face. I didn't know she had this kind of attitude towards to james which make him totally feel annoyed at the same time they're scary.

We just ignored those two women who seemed crazy and just laughing. Because james might definitely hurt that michelle in no time despite on his condition right now. All I can think now is I want to go home early

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Mico POV

What taking those two so long? Like they just went to the cafeteria and it's been already an hour yet they're not still here. My throat hurts and my whole body is so hot and deep inside my body is like broken into pieces and thorn apart that I don't likely want to move a bit because of the pain I feel inside.

We still need to clean the swimming pool and gym because that's all we need to finish before it finishes us. I can still hold onto it and handle this. All I want is to finish our community service and I don't want to do it again.

Charles fell asleep because he was waiting for the two and I just let him rest first. My phone suddenly ring which I check who is calling and it just made me feel pissed off wherein I just ignore the call until it stop ringing.

What would more that will make me feel unhappy and unpleasant seeing the person calling me right now which I hated the most and I don't really want to answer the call because I forbidden myself to hate him for entire life after that day.

Then another person is calling right now and I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone right as this moment which all I want is a peace of mind. But I don't have a choice but to answer it

"Hello"

"Wow, are you mad?"

"Who's calling?"

"As if, you don't know or remember me mico? Is that serious?"

"Just answer my question, who are you?" see, this is what going to happen when I'm not really in the mood and I'm becoming arrogant to anyone

"Wow mico, you must be displeased talking to me right now?"

"I'll end this call now" when I was about to end it

"It's me, your cousin" I have a lot of cousins and I don't know who I am talking to?

"Like who?"

"Jessica Fortes and you forget that I always talk to you" – Jessica

"I'm so sorry about that Jessica" *cough

"No it's fine and I understand because you're not in the mood right now" – Jessica

"You really know me well" *cough *sniff

"Are you alright? You sounded like a sick person" – Jessica

I laugh so that she won't notice it because she will definitely tell my mom about it which she won't stop nagging and telling me that I should take care of myself better when she's not around.

"Do I? Because I'm not and I eat a lot" I lied

"Are you sure? I know you mico for almost 13 years of your life and you hated me that much because I broke your toy which I didn't mean to because I didn't see it on the floor" – Jessica

Wow, how could she still remember that one? Well, it's true that I got mad and I hate her but not anymore since she always talk to me and never leave by my side even she is a bit nosy.

"You still remember that?"

"Yes of course, you actually made me cry like I don't know what I am going to do with you if I didn't bought you a new one" – Jessica

"I don't quiet remember but thank you for telling me and I'm sorry about that. You know, I'm still kid who always like to play with a toy rather than making friends which charles is the only friend I got"

"Oh yes charles smith, how is he? Tell him, I want to see him again because the last time I saw him is when you two went out without telling me" – Jessica

"We got bored, you know kids like us back then having fun outside than staying at home watching tv all day and walking around the house all the time. Sometimes we need to go out to have fresh air"

"Fresh air? When you two almost let yourself get hurt and get into trouble because you argue with that chubby kid" – Jessica

"Well, it's not my fault either charles and he started it when we just want to play but he boss around the other kids which I try to teach him a lesson wherein he pushed me then I fight back"

"That's true and the other kids tell me the whole story which make me proud of you at least you help them without doing something suspicious" – Jessica

"What do you think of me? Bully?"

"Not really, anyway, how are you? How's school?" – Jessica

"Doing fine and you?"

"Got a long break and still have a lot of things to do here before I visit you there" – Jessica

"Well, you can do that. If you can find me"

"Come on, mico. Give me a break and you would definitely tell me or else I'll tell your parents about it whether you like it or not" – Jessica

"Are you threatening me? Well go ahead and this will be the last that we're going to talk"

"You know what, you can be a shitty person which I remember when you're a kid wherein you really made me cry back then and threaten because of something which I don't find it funny at all" – Jessica

"Am I? Well, it depends on how you treat me which I can really be a shitty person and I have my reason because I ask you not to tell my mom yet you told her wherein you broke your promise with me"

"Okay fine, I'm sorry for what I did back then and you know me I can't lie to your mom" – Jessica

"I know. You're just worried about me"

"Now you really know, but please don't be a shitty person because you're totally different person. Do you have like dissociative identity disorder or what?" – Jessica

"Maybe I do or not"

"Don't play jokes like that because you can really hurt someone like what you did to me" – Jessica

"Ah, I did have a nice nap for a bit" he said and rubbed his eyes

"Did benjamin text you charles?" I asked

"I don't know and I just fall asleep"

"Where are the two now? What taking them so long? It's almost an hour since they left here" I complained

"Benji just said that they're just going to buy some food and I don't know what happen to them right now neither where they are" charles said which he don't know either

"Sorry about that mico, I just went out for a bit" – Jessica

"Dude, we're here" benjamin said and cough

"Is that benji?" – Jessica

Oh, I'm still on a phone call and Jessica misses them already

"Who are you talking to mico?" james asked and he look like a ghost which he look pale

"Jessica, my cousin" I said and my throat hurts

"Mico, tell me the truth. Are you guys sick?" – Jessica

"No, we're totally fine and I need to go now. Talk to you next time cousin and take care of yourself. Say hi for auntie to me. Love you" I said quickly and end the call

"Sorry we took so long because james bought something on the pharmacy" benjamin apologize

"Its fine and I fell asleep which I don't know what happen" charles said which still seem to be sleepy since he just took a nap for like an hour wherein it is not enough for us to take a rest and I think after this community service, it will definitely let us sleep for like 3 days so that we can regain a sleep and.

"Come on, let's start cleaning because we only have two left to clean. Charles and I were going to clean the swimming pool while you and James clean the gym, if you finish right away, just go straight in the swimming pool" I said and Charles just agreed on what I said

The two nodded because they didn't want to complain anymore and just wanted the community service to end. We just eat before we went back to the classroom first to get our belongings so that later were just going straight home so we wouldn't have to think about anything else.