Chapter 2

Warning: This chapter is kinda long and boring. I'm just trying to explain the story in detail, so please bare with me.

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I opened my eyes, and a blinding light hits me. I tried to raise my hand to cover my eyes from the light, but I felt something was attach to my wrist.

My brows frowned and as my eyes adjusted, my vision gets clearer. I am in a all white room. And from the colors and the scent of it, I can easily identify that it is a hospital room.

I reluctantly tried to raise my body and adjusted my back so that it will lean on the wall, as I felt strangely dizzy.

I looked at my right wrist and I instantly notice the dextrose attached to it. But the thing that catches my attention is, the scar on it. My left hand reached for my neck and I immediately felt a stinging sensation on it.

This is the second time that I almost died. Why does someone has to see me, before I lose the life in this body.

The door of my room flew open. Then a girl, who's wearing a peach casual dress that complimented her skin color appeared.

She looked at me with sadness. She walked towards me and gave me a kiss before, she settled in the bedside.

"How are you feeling right now?" She asked, eyes full of concern.

"Feeling alive" I plainly said

"Why are you being like this?! Don't you know that you're not just hurting yourself? You're hurting me too." She said as tears started made its way down from her cheeks.

Fuck it! You're such a stupid jerk Levi. Now you're hurting the only person that's left.

Seeing the tears in my girlfriend's eyes made me feel way more horrible about myself.

This is all my fault.

"Why are y-you acting like no one cares for you? A-Are you not considering me as y-your g-girlfriend?" She said as she sobs in front of me even more.

"I'm sorry" The only words that left my mouth as I looked down to avoid her eyes.

She just continues to cry and I just listen to her, not knowing what to do, since it is all my fault.

After a few minutes, she calms herself and then smiled at me, just as the door opened, allowing two unwelcome person to enter the room.

"Levi, you're awake now. Are you feeling okay?" She said as she walked towards me.

No, I feel more horrible now that the two of you were here. I said in my mind, but never voice it out, instead I just ignore her.

"Levi! Your mom's talking to you, don't be rude!" My good father yelled at me. I just keep my mouth shut.

"You should be thankful that your mom saw you before you choke yourself to death" he said

She's not my mom and I don't care if I die. That's actually what I've been planning for, but you kept on ruining it! I want to tell them that, but as far as I can, I want to avoid any arguments.

"What were you even thinking?! This is the second time that you tried to kill yourself! Are you that stupid to do such foolishness?" He bursted.

I just shut my eyes tightly, trying to calm myself, and trying to let all those words to only pass through my ears.

"Are you even thinking that your affecting other people's lives? Specially their time?!" He said and smirked before he continues "You're really just like that woman." He added referring to my mom.

I furiously glared at him. My ears are burning and my chest was almost squeezed out like it's about to drain everything inside it.

"Don't you dare, insult my mother!" I yelled at him

"You respect her more than me?" He asked in amusement. This old man is a total jerk. "She's not even your mother" he added with a smirked on his face.

"What are you talking about?" I asked out of confusion.

What the hell is he talking about?

"Me and your mom we're only married because it's what our parents want. We didn't agree to this arrange marriage, well not me, but our parents insisted. I never love your mom. I have never even touched her through out our entire marriage. I asked for an annulment but she refused, because she said she already loved me, but I don't. That's why I ended up cheating on her. And you were my son from my mistress. She left you to me, and your MOM took you in, like you're her real son. It's funny how you respect her so much than your real father." He revealed, as if it was like a bed time story

"You're lying! You only wanted me to forget about mom, and accept your new wife!" I yelled at him, while Annie, my girlfriend, is trying to calm me down.

"Well, I never really plan to tell you this, but I can't just put up with your rude attitude on me" he said calmly, but his eyes is definitely saying the opposite

His wife held his arm and looked at him caringly. Then she looked at me with pity before she turn to my father again.

"Honey, Levi needs some rest. Can we just leave him? He doesn't need this kind of conversation at this point" she said

My father nodded at her and they turn away.

"I'll comeback later sweetheart" she told me

I was about to answer her but they were already out of sight.

I felt a hand hold mine and as I looked at the owner, her eyes met mine. Her eyes were covered with pain, not out of sympathy but out of pity, and I hated that. I don't need anyone's pity.

I also want to sent her out but I choose not to. She's the only one who choose to stay, and I can't just shut the only person that's on my side. I need her.

"Hey" she quietly said

I heard her, but I just remained silent.

"You know you can always tell me everything. I'm here for you." She said, sincerely but not as my girlfriend anymore.

There's something wrong with the way she looked at me now. It's like, she went back to being my best friend.

"Can you stay with me tonight?" I asked her. She then smiled at me sadly.

"Levi, I'm sorry but I c-can't. I have exams tomorrow. I have to study." She replied, not even looking at me in the eye.

She's lying, I can tell. She never say no to me. And when she lies, she never looked at me in the eyes, because I know her too well. We've been best friends since we were kids, before we decided to be together.

I looked at her blankly.

"Okay" I replied

She smiled at me and gave me a kiss on my cheeks.

"I have to go now. You better take a rest okay? I'll visit you again tomorrow" she said before she stood up and walk towards the door.

I didn't replied and just let her leave the room.

I closed my eyes tightly, and my conversation with dad came back to me. My mom is not even my real mother? I'm not mad at her because she's not my real mother. I'm actually greatful that she loved me unconditionally. I'm just hurt, because she never told me and kept it a secret from me.

I covered my face with my hands, then I heard Annie's phone beeped.She forgot her phone.

I pick it up and opened the message. I instantly frowned.

Who is Kevin?

He said that he's waiting at the elevator.

I stood up, held my dextrose and slowly walked towards the door, but just as I was about to opened it, I heard voices.

"You stay here. He can't see you. I'll just get my phone really quick" I easily identify that it's Annie

"You haven't tell him yet?" A guy replied at her

"How am I supposed to tell him? His in a great mess. I can't just add myself, and hurt him even more" Annie replied

I don't know what they're talking about, but I had a very bad feeling about it.

"I thought you love me?" The guy asked her

"Of course I do" she replied.

"But you care for him more. We've been hiding for months now, and I'm getting inpatient" he replied

Hiding for months? Is she cheating on me?

"When he's all fine, I'll break up with him. I promise"

That's when I opened the door. Annie immediately turned to face me.

"You don't have to wait till I'm fine" I sad blankly

"Levi! W-Wait listen.. I-I.." she said trying to find a better lie, but before she could ever speak up, I handed her, her phone.

"I'm letting you go. Now, kindly leave" I said

She just looked down at the floor, feeling sorry, but it's all too late for it now.

I close the door, and sat at my bed. I don't know what to think and what to feel anymore.

I looked at the tablets that were on my table. I think it's my medicines, and that gives me an idea.

Now that everyone left, I'm also leaving. This time, I'm leaving for good.