Chapter 14: Late happy endings

They say a happy ending comes once in a lifetime. That after all the hardships hurdles and everything you've face so far. There is that one moment. That you must seize. A moment you can't let pass you because it would lead to an ending we all want. Which is sucess or a happy ending. But what if you changed your mind? What if you didn't have the courage to take that moment? That because of your overthinking you failed to seize your sucess. Your happiness or the happy ending that everyone in this world desires. Life only gives us so few chances. That's why not taking one is something that you'll surely regret. That's why I implore you. To take risks. To not be afraid. Don't push away the chances that are given to you.

Its been days and Valentine's had passed. I thought my Valentine's would be different this time. I was hoping all along that maybe this time I can spend it with Ana. Even as a friend. Because I'm tired of being lonely. For years I've lived alone. Yes I'm use to being a loner. To be on my own but that doesn't make me feel less sad or miserable about my situation. Because sometimes we all seek companionship. To have someone there for us. A feeling that I never actually had. Or maybe I have but I was blind by my overthinking and negativity to see. Because something happened this Valentine's my parents called to greet me. Something unsual but I responded and replied for once. Eat dinner with them. Maybe just to take things off my mind and the weird things is I ask them a question for once. I asked them

"Do you think there's a happy ending?"

"Well sure there is" said my dad

"You see son our marriage may have failed but still we end up being happy" said mom

"Because endings may come to everyone but still it's always up to you. Weather you choose to be tragic or make it happy"

"Because son happiness is still a choice and me and your dad was unhappy together that's why we choose to leave each otherso we can find happiness"

Well that kind of help me. I think my parents were right. Because all this time I've been wanting a happiness that I thought I can only feel when I'm with her. But maybe that's because I only choose happiness when I'm with Ana. Maybe if I try harder on my own I can choose to be happy to smile without relying on anybody. But that's still a long shot and just a thought I'm having right now. But still I wonder what's going through Ana's mind right now

Meanwhile Ana was under a dillemma she's lost weather on what to do. She's been living in the institute for a while now. But she's wondering weather she'll remove all the parts that had Joseph in his journal or keep it. Because everyday when she wakes up. She may forget Joseph but still she always have this feeling in her. That each time she reads every moment she wrote about them spending time together hurts her. Because a mind may forget but a heart never does. Each day she reads Joseph's poems. And bit by bit weirdly she misses him. But there's nothing she can do. Because for her it was for the best. She doesn't want to make Joseph hope for a tommorow where she will remember him. A future where there's a possibility of them having kids. Because it just can't. Yet still that doesn't change the fact. That even if Ana forgets Joseph each day that her heart is still in love with him. Which is the thing that John saw all along.

"Hey what's wrong" asked John

"Nothing just been thinking" said Ana

"About what exactly"

"You know stuff about my journal"

"Ahh I see."

"Yup I'm still confused right now"

"What do you mean?"

"I know that everyday I go along this same process where I accept the fact that I have short term memory but still for me everything is new. Even if years have passed I feel as if everyday I wake up in an older version of me which is weird as it is. But something is still bothering me rather than that"

"And what is it?"

"Well I don't understand it too"

"It's Joseph isn't it?"

"Huh? What make you think its him?"

" Just a guess, why is it him?"

"Honestly I don't know. Which is everything I am"

"What?"

" A person who doesn't know. Who doesn't know what it means to live through tommorow. Because even if I get to tommorow for me it would just be the same day again and again. Change is constant but nothing has changed. I'm still the forgetful Ana. No new memories intact. Nor anything. I'm thankful that your here always but sometimes. No always I wish I could remember"

"It is him them"

"What makes you say that"

"You say you haven't changed since you can't remember. But your wrong. When we move here and you met Joseph again. Everything about you changed. When you got home from meeting with him. You always am happy. Writing in that journal. Making sure you don't forget. That is the change that had happened to you. Also everyday that we've been together only one moment has differ from you. That's when you read his poems from the newspaper. You say don't know him. That you only know him from your notes on your journal. But even if you can't remember him. There's always a part of you that does"

"And what is that?"

"Well read this to know"

Then John handed over the newspaper. And Ana read Joseph's poem.

Kairoclerosis

In life we deal with negativity

That's due to pressure and gravity

We face so many atrocity

That blocks are view from the real reality

Which is life may come along with sadness

With pain and hopelessness

There are times you feel powerless

But know this you choose your happiness

That's why all you need to do is break free

So you can see

You can see that reality still beholds beauty

That no matter how cruel it is you can be happy

That's why quit being negative

Just go on and live

Overthinking is something you should leave

Because if you can believe

Without any sort of basis

Then when a your happy ending comes you won't miss

And always know this

When you stop overthinking you'll reach kairoclerosis

Kairoclerosis deep word right. But it has a simple meaning. It's the realization people have when they are currently happy. Sometimes we let negativity stop us from seeing that we are actually fine. That we are happy with everything that is happening and cause of that. We get blinded and pull away from the happiness we are currently beholding. That's why avoid overthinking and just go for it. Life gives us few chances do take it. That's what Ana was supposed to do. After reading that poem she ran to find me. But when she found me. Tragedy struck. She suddenly forgotten where she was. She was standing in the middle of the road when that happen. And there I was. Jumping to save her without any hesitation. But the thing that I didn't calculated was will I make it to tomorrow. Because Ana was supposed to be hit by a car. But I pushed her out of the way. Right now here I am. The one who got hit. Which is I don't know what's going to happen next. But when I got hit a thought came through my mind. Why was Ana in the middle of the road? Was she looking for me? Are there late happy endings?