Chapter 17: Agreement

When you are depressed, you tend to look at life as a tragedy. As a sad story that will keep on going until you die. You never will learn to open up for change. Unless you meet people that will cause that change to happen. A person that will change your entire point of view in life. Suddenly from a tragedy you'd be transported into a romantic comedy. Into a sort of fairy tale love story that everyone hope for, yet never be sure because the ending can't always be happy. That's why appreciate the now. Be happy every moment in time you get. Because happiness is a choice one of the lessons I learn as I encounter people. That for so long I've chosen to look down, to stop myself, to put it always belong, I never took a chance nor give any possibility that something could actually change. That's why right now all I am but is thankful, because one encounter. One predicament changed how my life was going. It was all thanks to Ana. Who right now I never want to let go, no matter what happens I'd be choosing the now, I'll choose her because as corny as it sounds she is my happiness. Even if I have to make her fall for me each day it doesn't matter. Because if I want to be happy. The only thing I can do is that. love her no matter it takes. Choose her always, and unlike seven years ago this time I won't give up.

This past few weeks have been ok, nothing much have changed. Although some days Ana can't accept the fact that we are in a relationship, and sometimes she just kinds of freak out when we meet, we tried a couple of things to make her know that she has short term memory loss and we are a thing. But sadly nothing has work so far. It still back to zero as always, still on some days we are just fine. We spend the day together. Go on a date. I tell her stories about memories we had together. We laugh, although I know she is still uncertain about a few things. That's why right now my problem is making her feel comfortable every time I explain to her everything. But it's just hard. Her journal is helping a little bit. Although sometimes she doesn't believe and I wound up not being able to spend any time with her.

I'm kind of lost on what to do. Because I' m new to all of this and so is she. I don't know how to act , or what I can do to make things easier for her. I worry about her a lot. But I'm just not able to do anything. That's why as I grow desperate I asked for help from the person who knew Ana longer than me.

"Hey John"

"Hey what is this about?"

"Well since we're here I want to apologize for before you were right I was stupid and also hurting her"

"It's fine I apologize as well for punching you, so was that it?"

"Well mostly but I came to ask you about some things?"

"Sure go on ahead"

This actually feels weird I hope there's no actual hard feelings between me and him.

"Ok you see it's about Ana I want to make things more comfortable and easier for her as she wakes up everyday"

"What do you mean?"

"You know her day to day transition, I want to think of something that will help her understand the current situation I've tried certain things but nothing has work and I came to ask you for some ideas if I can"

"Hmm. Let me think"

"While your thinking can I also ask you about some other details. Like what's Ana's favorite flowers as well as some of her hobbies. Because as stupid as it sounds since we always spend most of the time me explaining to her I haven't gotten a chance to get to know more about her"

"First of all daisies she's a sucker for those, second she loves watching movies. There was this one time that we watch the same movie for two weeks straight since for her it was a new movie. Next obviously singing, she loves to sing and also read. And if you are going to ask me for an idea, you are my answer. You see your poems helped her a lot as I've said before and I think that's what you need to help her adjust to every new day"

"I never thought of that actually but how?"

"You're a writer write use that"

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"You'll figure it out eventually well I have to go for now take care Ana ok?"

"Sure I will"

As John left with a smirk on his face, I got confused on what he meant by those words. That's why I just went home to brainstorm new ideas and try tomorrow. I stare at the book I am currently writing and kept on thinking what did John meant. I'm still confuse, so I just went to work and write a next poem for the new edition of the newspaper. Then it hit me. I realized what I needed to do. First of all I went online to look up how much for a camera recorder. Then text her the next day about us meeting, along the way I picked up some daisies to surprise her with and then all was set I hope I can pull this off. After giving her the daisies I hand her over my book and ask her to read her and not give it a second thought. She went to reading and from the look on her face I figure she had fun as she is reading it. Since my book is not done yet. That's the first question she asked me.

"What happens next?"

"I don't know yet"

"What do you mean don't you have any ideas what comes next? Are you in a slump or experiencing mental block?"

"Well you can say that. but the real reason I don't know how the story will end or what will happen next is simple. Because we haven't finish writing it yet"

"What do you mean by that?"

"I know the events in that particular story is not familiar for you. Since you can't remember, but that's ok. You see I started writing this book after we got separated for seven years. After that I was also not able to continue writing it and then I met you again. After that little by little I manage to add some chapters. The events in the story are actually our encounters. I was hopeless before. That's why it lead me to writing this story. Thinking that if we cannot have a happy ending, maybe at least in a book that I write it can happen. Yet there are moments when I was confused weather if I can even make it a happy ending. Then bit by bit I realized something"

"And what is that?"

"You are my inspiration towards writing this. The book that you have read are all of our encounters. Basically it's our love story. And the reason that there's no next chapter yet is because you and me are still writing it. But to make things official or formal I came here to actually ask you something"

"Ok go on?"

"Ana will you help me finish writing this love story? Or can you join me into writing this love story of you and me?

I don't know what she will answer but this is my idea. Well with the help of John I manage to think of this idea. Who I think is fitting. Now all what's left is to know her answer.

Deal

It all started with an encounter

Then suddenly the darkness was over

Though confusion came through altogether

I still manage to be stronger

We met once again

After all the pain

And the sadness that had remain

It wasn't all in vain

Because me wet once more

I'm not as stupid as before

Time to walk out that door

And see what's in store

I know the future

Is uncertain and unsure

Your disorder may have no cure

But I'm willing to give my love that is pure

I want to be together with you in every meal

My heart is for you to steal

You are the only one I want to feel

That's why is it a deal?

I hope she answers yes, because honestly without her I can't finish this story that I've been writing for so long. This was my last resort a corny yet romantic in a way agreement…