Chapter 11: Who is That

My heart dropped. Is that who I think it is. It can't be, there's no way in hell.

"Maddie, are you ok?" Sam asked.

I couldn't speak, I had no words, I was frozen.

"Mads, what's wrong?" Paul asked me.

I guess I started crying because Paul picked me up putting his hands under my butt. I didn't care that he did that because we've known each other since we were little so I trusted him not to do anything bad.

"What's wrong tell me please." Paul sat down and sat me down on his lap.

"I can't." I said sniffling.

"Why not?" He asked rubbing my back softly trying to calm me down.

"Because I don't wanna talk about it." I said busting into tears.

"Don't cry it's going to be ok." He said stilling rubbing my back.

I buried my head into his chest and kept crying. Paul just held me while I cried in his chest. I finally brought myself to stop crying and pull away. Then Sam, Emily, Quil, Jared, Embry, and Leah came outside to check on me.

"Guys I'm fine don't worry." I said before they could speak.

"Are you sure?" Sam asked.

"Yes I'm sure." I said trying to sound reassuring.

Paul hugged me and so did everyone else.

"Can you take me to Billy's I have to talk to him." I asked Paul.

"Yeah no problem." He said getting up.

"Bye guys love you." I said waving bye.

Paul carried me on his back Billy's was right next a half mile from Emily's. We got there and he set me down.

"Thank you Paul and sorry for getting your shirt dirty." I said hugging him.

"No it's ok I just want to make sure your ok." He said hugging me back.

I walked in Billy's house.

"Billy, are you home?" I yelled.

"Yeah I'm in the living room." He yelled back.

"Hey Billy." I said sitting down.

"What's wrong?" He asked noticing I have been crying.

"She's here, she's actually here Billy, I don't know what to do." I said staring to cry again.

"Who's here?" He asked.

"The girl from my dream Yolanda, she's real and she's here." I said while tears fell down my face.

"Where did you see her?" He asked in shock.

"She, she was at Emily's house, I was at the beach and then the guys invited me to Emily's and when we walked in I saw her she was sitting next to Jake on the couch. I didn't know what to do. Billy I don't want that stuff I saw happen to Jake I don't want to lose my best friend. Billy I can't lose him it'll destroy me I just can't. I said bursting into tears again.

"Your not going to lose him, I don't think Jake is stupid enough to do that." He said reassuring me.

"Billy I'm scared." I said sniggling.

"I know but it's going to be ok, just wait here till Jake comes home and talk to him that's the best way this will blow over." He said smiling.

"Wait what if he is mad at me still from last night, what if he meant what he said." I said still crying.

"Jake didn't mean those things, you know he gets wrapped up in his emotions." Billy said.

"I know." I said.

I had stopped crying. I then got up and went to Jake's room to grab a shirt because I didn't have one. I walked back to the living room and sat down. Billy and I watched some tv and I fell asleep on the couch.

I heard people talking so I woke up and sat up seeing who it was. It was Jake and Billy. Jake looked at me and came to my side.

"You can go back to sleep it's ok." He said softly.

"I need to talk to you." I said trying not to sound upset.

He picked me up bridle style and took me to his room he sat down and placed me on his lap.

"Jake I'm so sorry about last night I wasn't thinking straight and I shouldn't have taken it out on you I'm sorry." I said looking down.

"It's ok and I wasn't mad I just didn't want nothing to happen to you and I got wrapped up in my emotions and you did end up getting hurt. He sighed looking at my head.

"I should have listened to you Jake I'm so sorry." I said still looking down.

He pulled up my chin so I was looking at him in his beautiful brown eyes.

"It's ok, I'm not mad I promise." He said pulling me closer.

I smiled and wrapped my hands around his neck.

"Why did you start crying at Emily's today, you stood there frozen like you saw a ghost." Jake asked,

"So I had this dream the other night about you and that girl that was at Emily's, I was yelling at her because she was hurting you Jake, she was playing I=with your emotions and just using you because she knew she could. You were so upset with me because I was yelling at you, you loved her and I was so upset because I had lost you I had lost my best friend. Seeing that she was real just made me messed up." I said holding tears back again.

"You could never lose me I promise." He smiled and hugged.

He hugged me and we just sat there hugging each other. We finally let go when we heard Billy calling me. So we got up and walked to the kitchen where Billy was.

"It's your grandparents." He said handing me the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hi Madilyn I knew you were going to end up at Billy's." Grams laughed.

I laughed to.

"So me and Gramps are going to go on a little vacation and we will be gone for 3 weeks, we are leaving tonight." She said happily.

"Ok I'll be right over." I said hanging up the phone.

"What did they say?" Jake asked.

"Grams and Gramps are going on vacation for 3 weeks and I want to go say goodbye before they leave." I said.

"Oh ok I'll take you and you can sleep over here tonight if you want." Jake said smiling.

"Is that ok if I stay the night?" I asked Billy.

"Of course it's ok." he smiled.

Jake and I left and went to my house. We finally got there after a couple minutes and walked in. Grams and Gramps were waiting for us. We said our goodbyes and I told them to be safe. They said they would be and they left. I went upstairs to grab some pajamas and clothes for tomorrow. I walked back down stairs and Jake was waiting for me. We locked the house and left back to his house. We got to his house and Billy was already asleep it was like 11. I went to the bathroom to change I put on my cotton shorts and a sports bra. I walked back into Jake's room and he was shirtless and only wearing boxers.

"Really?" I laughed

"What?" He asked.

"That's what your wearing to sleep?" I laughed again.

"Yeah it gets hot in here." He laughed.

"Fine." I laughed and walked over to his bed.

I climbed into his bed and then I felt warm arms wrap around my waist and Jake pulled me into him so my back was against his chest. I flipped around so I was facing him.

"Can I sleep on your chest again pretty please." Jake asked with puppy dog eyes.

"How could I say no to that face." I giggled.

"Yes." He whisper yelled.

I giggled and he let me go so I could lay on my back while he crawled up to my chest and placed his head in my shoulder and nuzzling his head in my neck. He was just like a baby he always had to feel skin on skin contact. I started rubbing his back with one hand and then with my other I rubbed his neck and the back of his head.

"I love you." Jake said before falling asleep.

"I love you to Jake." I said back I knew he heard me because I felt him smile on my shoulder.

He fell asleep easily after that. I didn't I was caught up in my thoughts. What if he did choose her over me? What if he loves her more than he loves me? What if I lose him? I can't lose Jake no one understands he is my everything, he is my other half, I don't know what I would do with myself if I lost him I really don't. All I knew was it would destroy me if I lost him.

I pulled Jake closer and held on tight to him like someone was going to take him from me. When I pulled him closer he snuggled more into my neck like he was holding on to me to.

I sighed and fell into a deep sleep.