First Date : part 3

Merula's P.O.V

Its been a week since the incident where I and Adam kissed.We haven't talk about it yet and its look like he have been avoiding me.Or at least I'm avoiding him.

We didn't insult each other,arguing or even look at each others eyes.It killed me to be like this.I don't know why he looked really mad when I said it was a mistake.Shouldn't he be grateful so that he can have a date with his stupid crush.

Why can't he understand that I like him,he is my crush.But yet he still got a nerve to kiss me and now pretending nothing ever happened.I know he like someone else but al least ask forgiveness.He just play with my feeling and I felt so weak that I can't fight him back.

Adam always got my attention,like always.Starting in our first year,he always being the only one who brave enough to fight me.I felt annoyed at first but it turned out somehow,I fancy him.

When he save me on the cursed ice on our first year,proving that I'm good enough to get a family christmas with Weasley at year two.He even trust me and defended me infront of Tallbot.He also let me get my patronus,he always being kind to me.It just me who always pretend to be mean so that he couldn't find my weakspot.

But everything turn bad as the last week came.I felt embrassed as I want more from him.I want him to be my boyfriend,I want him to have crush on me.I want me to be his crush.

But it all go wrong and he now,planning a date for his crush.What a very good man.

I didn't have any appetie to eat today,so I just skipped lunch and goes to the courtyard.Its always empty whenever lunch time.That is also why I get my first kiss here.

I sit at the very same place when I'm with Adam before.I sit and watch the sky,at least I got a beautiful memory to be remembered and my mind is relax.

As I'm happily having my very own time,I heard a footstep behind me.I hide behind the tree as I saw Adam walk in.He sit at my place and his face look stress.

I just stare at him quietly.His eyes suddenly flooded with tears making my heart to break.I wanna comfort him,but I never done it before.The only person that I ever love is my mum.

I just watch him from a far.For a while he just crying,like a girl.He really sometimes do look like a girlish but sometimes too,he look very manly.His cute side attracted me,and his manly side make me fall harder.

Suddenly another person walk in.I saw penny Haywood entering it and pull Michael in a hug.

Anger flooded inside me,jealousy took all of me.She then said a few things that makes Michael to laugh.They sit together,very same to what we both have done,but now he is with Penny out of all people.

I felt jealous but then I just remember something.Maybe its Penny who he likes.The thought of it makes me hurt.My brain ask me to ask him,but my heart tell me that I'm hurt enough.

They suddenly stand up and headed out from the courtyard together.Weirdly Penny's hand is on his wrist.Does it really need to do that?

I walk from behind the tree and sit at the place back.Michael's perfume still can be smelled.I disguted at myself at how much I like him.But he in the other hand,like Penny...or even love her.

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Today's potion class will be replaced by cleaning the class.Snape said it because the fellow Slytherin student break almost three of the cauldron and it is our fault for not teaching them.

I look around and see there is no Adam.Yes!!

My lips curled into a smile.

"Did you see it?Merula just smiled!"I heard Rowan's voice,talking to Barnaby.

"What is wrong with that?"Barnaby ask dumbly to him.I laugh at this,both of them are so dumb.

"Maybe its because Michael have crush on someone else?"I heard Rowan's voice and it hurt me.I didn't said anything cause I wanna heard more.

"Yeah,you know I always see Merula like Michael"Barnaby said this time.

"But she rejected"Rowan added.That's it.I can't hold my anger anymore.

I smash the table on top,making everyone to shocked.Luckily,Professor Snape isn't here.I then turn around and give a death glare to Rowan and Barnaby before stormed out from the class.

Just as I'm going out,there is someone knocked me.I look at the person with a anger face.But it turn out to be Adam.

My facial expression turn from anger to hurt,but I change it back to anger.I'm not gonna let him play with my feelings anymore.

I knocked his shoulder and leave the classroom.As it already in the evening,I don't really know where I should go.So I just walk on the hallway without destination.

Its quiet and I felt relax again.I walk slowly,thinking about my own life.

What have happened to me?I am the best witch at Hogwarts,The powerful one.But I just felt so weak when it comes to Adam.He never care about it though.He is the first one who care about me,my past.He even let me be his guest on the Celestial Ball.But now he planning a date.What a good men.

Suddenly I felt someone arms on my wrist.I stopped my movement and turn around.Shockedly I saw Adam standing right infront of me now with an angry face.

"Where are you going?"He said coldly.I roll my eyes at his stupid and clueless.

"Mind your own business"I said pulling away my hand from his arm.

"Why did you avoiding me"He said again,his grip on my arms tighten just like he didn't want to let me go.

"Oh look who is talking?"I said sarcasticly.His brow furrowed then relax again.

Silent awkward take us for a while and we I can't stand the way he staring at me.His green eyes look directly to mine,making me to shiver.

"Let me go"I said after a while and tried to escape from his hand but he didn't let me.Meanwhile his grip tighten more.

I'm done wasting my time so I push him and finally escape.I roll my eyes at him before started to walk away.

Before I can do anything,he grab my shoulder and push my body to the wall behind me.His hand each on my side,preventing me from escape.

"Stop whatever it is Adam"I said hiding my blush.

"Why did you said it was a big mistake?"His sudden question jumped me a little.His facial expression si really serious making me felt scared.

"What did you expect then?"I finally let out a words.He didn't answer me but started to talking.

"Merula,you have been driving me crazy for this past four years.You can't stop arguing with me,always picking on me,you'll always bother me in everything that I do"He paused but his facial expression still serious.

"And that's all thing you did,making me thinking about you for every single second.I can't stop thinking about you,you always on my mind and I hate it."He said again.

I didn't said anything still taken by his words.

"You know what the craziest part?!"His voice suddenly increased.

"I know you think the same way as I did"He finish and receive a smirk from me.

"Now you can read my mind?"I said sarcasticly.

"Prove me if I'm wrong Merula,you have been my date for celestial ball,you always look at me in the class,we even kiss a week ago.Prove me if that's all is nothing to do with you have a crush on me"He said to me.

All that he said is true.

"Stop it Adam!You know it won't happened no matter what we do"I shouted at him.

"You like someone else and that is Penny!Why don't you just kiss her?!Why me!!?"I yelled again.

"You like me but you keep saying the other thing.Just tell me the truth"He said again and I'm froze.

"I-I"I don't know why I can't said anything to fight back.It makes me felt weak when he keep asking me.

"Owh,now the Most Powerful Witch at Hogwarts can't answer back?"He said sarcasticly.

I grab my wand from my robes and pointed it to him.

"You don't know what I can do Adam"I said threathening him.

"I know you can,but I know you won't do it"He said casually,didn't even scared about what I'm going to do.

"You don't know Adam"I said to him.Anger taking me now.

I just about to flick my wand when he grab my hand.

I stunned and the wand fell to the floor.My eyes still on him and I didn't move.The way he hold my hand make me feel so weak.

"Won't you stop pretending?!Just tell me the truth Merula.If you didn't like me then tell me what you feel!"He shouted to me.

"I-I"I stumbled again,my eyes are flooded with tears.My gaze now focus on him,just him.I felt that I'm almost lost to him.

"Prove me that I'm wrong.Prove me that you don't like me,prove-"

I interrupted him as I press my lips againts his soft lips.Our kiss is different with the one before,it is so passionate and rough.His lips hungrily push againts mine.He pin my body on the wall,his hand started to touch all my body and stop on my arse.

He squized it tight,earning a soft moan from me.

"You talk too much,Adam"I mumble on the kiss.He smirk again and deepent the kiss.

We kiss for a minutes before pulling away.He rested his head on my forehead.My hand on his chest.

He look at me and smile.I can't help but smile too.

"I fancy you Merula"His word jumped me a little.My eyes widen.

"I am your crush?!"I ask shocked by the news.

"Its always you"He added and I smile.

"I fancy you too"I admitted with a blush.

"So that's blushing"He said looking at my red cheek.His hand move to my cheek and caress it slowly.

I blush harder,my face almost look like a tomato.I never felt so loved by someone before,excluding my mum.

I smile at him before leaning again.