Chapter 2

Shruti's Pov

To divert my mind from the present things I started to do gardening and to play with Ed. These things really help me to divert my mind. Thinking about the past will not bring any benefit to me other than sorrows and a night full of weeps. And also seeing my depressed mood will automatically make my parents sad and they will try to find the reasons behind it. So why to make others sad? And slowly I became normal and my days became normal. And then came the day of graduation. The last day of my college life as a UG student. I was so happy to receive my certificate because today my dream or should I say my family's dream is being fulfilled. To be a Doctor was my dream from childhood, and now, I don't know how to express my happiness. I am super happy today. Even my parents were happy to see me as a MBBS graduate, I could see my parent's eyes which were filled with tears of happiness. This was the proud moment of my life. For me seeing the happiness in my parent's face is what I need forever. My happiness revolves around my parents.

And at last it was time to bid bye to my friends which was not at all an easy task for me. Its been five long years since we have met and telling us that we have to bid bye is something which we couldn't accept. After a long crying section we bid bye to each other, promising each other to remain in contact forever and to call each other whenever we feel like. After thanking my teachers and after bidding bye to everyone we left for home. I was really tired so as soon as I reached home I took a bath and went to have a nap. As I was having nothing else to do till my results are out, Mamma insisted me to learn some cooking, its not that I don't know how to cook. But like every mothers even my Mamma is afraid about all these things. And even I enjoy making some dishes especially some sweet dishes rather than meals. As the days passed I became a super chef, my parents and Ed started to like my dishes and that made me super happy. And also they used to correct me if something goes wrong. I also helped Mamma in doing other chores also. But still we missed my sister and brother as they are staying abroad. I was really feeling happy in my life and everything was back to normal too. Whenever I used to feel sad I used to go to church, that peaceful atmosphere always helped me with my sorrows.

Everything was being normal in my life until Pappa dropped some news to me. Yeah as you all guessed it was the news of marriage. "Shruthi, as you have completed your MBBS me and your Mamma think that it is time to look for your groom. I had already promised you that if you had anyone in your mind I would accept it, only if I found that it was a good relationship. So yeah tell me, do you have anyone in your life?" Yeah long back itself my parents had told me that they would accept my relationship only if they found that it was a match to my family status, and also they had asked me not to worry about it and to continue my studies. Even I had always thought about it. As I had said earlier, love is not my cup of tea and also I trust my parents a lot so I hadn't got into any serious relationships during my college. So I told Pappa about my decision. " Pappa I had already told you that it would be you and Mamma who would be deciding about my marriage, and also no I don't have anyone in my mind, its just that I want a family were there is happiness, love, trust and peace. Pappa I really believe in your choice, its just that I want time to get to know the person. Other than that you people know my concepts right, so yeah its ok for me. And also I wont get married till I attain an age of twenty six, I want to spent more time with you all. So if you agree to these, then yeah you can start searching an alliance for me." By the time, I had finished telling about my decision to my parents, I could see the happiness in their face. Its true that even though I had found my groom by myself, they would have agreed but, if I had done that I would never had seen so much happiness in their face.

So after conveying my parents about my decision I went to my room. After reaching my room I started to think about my life and my future. Am I really ready to accept someone in my life? Will I be ever to love someone again? Will I be a good partner? These questions were running in my mind, I was not really ready to accept anyone. Its true that I wanted someone in my life, to tell him about my problems, I want someone to heal my heart which is broken into pieces, with love. But I don't know whether I'll be able to accept the sudden changes that are going to be done in my life. Not that I can tell my problems to my parents, but when I tell them they would be worrying about me more, which I don't want. Its better to pretend being happy because already they are having thousands of problems, and when I tell mine, they'll start to worry about my feelings, so yeah no one in my family knows about how broken I am in my life. Anyway they are just going to register my profile in the matrimony site, and I know my parents will choose the best guy for me. Let me not worry about my life, just sitting in my room and thinking and worrying about my life will bring no changes in my life right. So why to waste my time worrying abut the unnecessary things.

As days passed, I started to receive so many proposals but nothing worked out, either I wont like the guy or my parents wont. So the groom hunting process was still going on. Some guys were really annoying, they told that they are not even interested in sending their wife for work, and I was like what the hell? Like seriously, I never thought that there exists such kind of people in this generation. I kindly declined them saying that I am not the person that you are looking for. As soon as I told them my opinion some were even ready to change the opinion, but I was like no. Who knows that once I get married they will be completely forgetting about these things and they will never allow me to work. Now a days boys are really egoistic, like some of my male friends used to ask me, whether they are not capable to look after their family or what, why should girls need to go for a job? They are not understanding the fact that everyone doesn't work to earn money, for some it is the way to relax, some may like to continue their work even after marriage because earning money and spending their salary for their own needs makes them proud of themselves, like different people have different opinions. Our parents have sacrificed their dream to fulfill our dreams, so if we sit at home and look after the family as a house wife, then there wont be any value for the sacrifices made by our parents. And not only that, when we think about it after many years we may regret about it. So what I would like to tell to all the girls is that please do not sacrifice your dreams for others, yeah some guys wont be willing to marry you because of your passion to continue the job, please note that I told some. Not every boys are the same, so wait for the one, definitely you will find the guy who supports you to achieve your dream. So yeah now even I am looking forward for the guy to whom I am destined.

And yeah I forgot to tell you guys I even got a seat for pursuing MD. I am specializing in pediatrics. As days passed even my studies are going smoothly, even though it is tough I really enjoy learning it.