Chapter 8

After a few minutes of Alex just sitting there and not saying anything, I scoff at him before getting out of the car rush into the house and slam the door. I hear him behind me but before I can get further from him, he slowly turns me to face him. As he sees the tears that have formed from his actions and silence he looks pained before he gently brushes the tears away. "No, Shorty that's not it." He whispers quietly. "Then why did you ignore me and even the topic of children when Emily brought it up?!" I scream at him as I push his hands away and take a few steps back from him. "Shorty, I want to start a family with you okay? I do" He says firmly before hesitating and continues. "I just, I'm not ready for kids yet." He says before looking away from me telling me he's lying. He can never look at me when he lies about something.

"Why did you just lie to me? You never lie to me. Why now? And about this?" I ask him as more tears start to fall. I can't help but feel hurt at the fact that he would do this to me and about this of all things. "I didn't lie." He says quickly. "You did it again. I know you Alex, you forgot I'm your WIFE. I know you can't look at me when you lie." I say to him. He just looks at me for a minute before replying. "I'm not lying." Obviously not getting anywhere with him I shake my head before heading to the stairs. before leaving to the bedroom I turn to him. "I'm going to bed, it's getting late. You're sleeping down here since you won't stop lying and maybe tomorrow when you've learned your lesson then we'll continue this conversation." Not wanting to hear anymore I make it to the bedroom and start to lay down to get some sleep.

The next morning I wake up feeling stiff. I never could always bring myself to punish Alex like this, I never could sleep without him. However, this I couldn't just brush off. He deserved it. I head downstairs to make breakfast and notice Alex nowhere downstairs. I reach the kitchen to see a note left for me.

Left for work, Hopefully I can try to explain myself when I get home. I love you.

"Yea sure buddy." I mumble to myself as I crumble up the note and throw it in the trash. I quickly make something easy and simple and take it with me to the couch and turn the tv on and eat my breakfast. I absent-mindly look at the tv not really paying attention to what's going on. Last night keeps playing in my head on repeat and as much as I try not to think about it, I can't help but try to figure out why he lied. I try desperately to forget it until he gets home but it doesn't work.

The only thing that got my mind off of it is when my phone rings. I reach for my phone on the table and look to see that it's Emily. I smile slightly thankful for the distraction before answering. "Hey, Em. What's up?" I ask her as I mute the tv to be able to hear better. "Nothing really I was just calling to see if you wanted to hang out here for the night before we leave." She says as I furrow my eyebrows slightly at what she said. "Leave?" I ask confused on what she means. "Yeah, Me and Jacob are leaving tomorrow to go look at houses." She says slowly as if afraid I would be upset. "I mean we can't live with Chase for the rest of our lives." She adds. "Oh yea, I mean duh. I'm just so lost in thought today." I say chuckling. "What's going on?" She asks. I sigh heavily before answering. "Well, uhm, I confronted Alex last night about having kids." I hear her sigh as well before she hesitantly asks. "How did you go." Remembering how it went sends tears to flow down my face. I sniffle and wipe the tears away before responding. "He lied to me, Em. I asked him and he just said that he wasn't ready and I knew he was lying because he wouldn't look at me. He really doesn't want kids with me." I say, my voice become soft and almost a whisper by the end of my rant. "Oh Sam, I'm sure that's not why." Emily says trying to comfort me but I know the truth now.

"Why else would he lie about not being ready? I mean it's the only thing that can explain it." I say. The line is quiet for a few minutes before she sighs again. "Look Sam, just don't do anything yet, try talking to him again and explain that you feel like this and maybe he'll start telling the truth." She suggest. I tell her sure before soon we end the phone call. I look at the time to see Alex would be home soon and hearing the keys in the lock, I know I'm right.

Alex walks into the living room where I didn't leave from the couch and still have some tears rolling down my cheeks from my conversation with Emily. "Shorty, what's wrong, why are you crying?" he asks as he kneels down in front of me. "I just got off the phone with Emily, we were talking about last night." I say and the look on his face, I know that he knows I'm talking about the conversation we had. I take a deep breath and look at him before asking him once again. "Why did you lie? I want the truth Alex, Do you not want children with me?" I ask softly as I see him close his eyes and lets his head hang down for a minute before he looks at me again. "I'm just not ready yet." He says softly while looking away when he says it. I just sit there for a minute and look at him as the tears fall before I slowly get off the couch and walk away. I head to the door and place my shoes on and grab my keys.

My hand touches the door handle, but before I open the door and leave, I turn to face Alex to see he's looking at me worried and confused. "I know that's not yet. You're lying, again, and I can't handle this right now." I say quietly before leaving him there.