Chapter 11° " Love or reason?"

A wave of thoughts had invaded the now Hy's worn mind; all this sadness and confusion had forcefully taken over his proverbial rationality, and all this made him decidedly uncomfortable.

His decisive and resolute character that always guided him well in his life, had always made him make the right decisions and thanks to it he always carried out what he had started ...

But then why something so simple as talking to someone, asking someone something this time seemed so difficult!?

In order to stop himself thinking about Reve and everything else, he threw himself headlong into the study and swimming training as if there was no tomorrow.

After class he was the first to arrive in the pool to train quietly before his teammates arrived; during training then turned into a kind of a drill sergeant. subjecting the others to very hard training. After training he ran home to study until late at night ...

After few days everything seemed to return to normality, until one afternoon when Tip decided to wait for him on the bleachers, because that was the only way to see and to talk to who was once his best friend, but who had recently transformed in someone that Tip didn't know, and especially in someone he didn't like at all.

After giving the last instructions and dismissing the teammates, Hy took the towel and headed for the staircase where Tip was sitting, but after a few meters he stopped, remained motionless as if paralyzed.

At first Tip didn't realized, he looked around to try to understand what could have turned his friend into statue ...

...He saw Reve coming towards him ...

...He saw that he was not alone ...

...He saw that he was hand in hand with Note, and only then did he understand the reaction of his friend

"Hi bro... but ...we shouldn't have seen each other later..."

"Hi... yes you're right, but then I have so many things to do. I saw you go to the pools and then I followed you. Can you give me the notes now, so I can go?"

"Ok ... yes of course ... wait a moment" answered Tip poke around in his backpack "Here they are" he said returning the notes he had lent him a few days before "they were precious as usual ... thanks a lot again friend"

" Don't even mention it" he echoed Reve and following his gaze turned and saw Hy.

It was a natural instinct to smile at him, because in a certain way, even if he didn't understand his behaviour, and even if had made him so angry several times since he had known him, he couldn't hate him, or stay angry with him for so long ...

...wonder why ...

"Now I really have to go ... see you...Bye"

Reve's last glance wasn't for Tip but for Hy, despite this he left without saying goodbye and without letting go of Note's hand for even a second.

"Why I can't even move ... Why he has all this power over me ... Why when I see him hand in hand with that insignificant being I always get that crazy rage ..." thought Hy, who remained motionless, petrified as a statue, and that the moment Reve took Note's hand back and left without even saying goodbye, the only thing he could do was to clench his fists to keep himself from doing something that he would certainly regret, even if for the umpteenth time that awful feeling had taken over.

After Reve disappeared behind the door, instinctively, Tip turned to his friend and what he saw sent a shiver of terror run down his spine.

Hy's face was almost deformed with anger, arms at his sides, fists clenched, he looked like a bomb about to explode; so, Tip rushed down the steps to reach him faster than the wind

"Are you okay bro?" he whispered shyly

No answer

"Are you okay Hy?"

Tip repeated cautiously picking up the towel from the floor and putting it on his shoulders

... for the second time he had no answer...

"Hy ... you can't go on so... you realize it... right?!"

... still no answer ...

"I don't know why you didn't clear up the last time, but you have to do it because you are no longer even the shadow of the Hy that I knew ... Do you want him? Do you really want him!? Then get it! Don't just stand here and jerk off... In these situations, you don't have to think so much, you just have to act... don't use your head just use your heart this time! Please my friend, gather all the courage you have and clarify the question once and for all if you don't want to go crazy!"

"Considering that the recognition of the inherent dignity of all members of the human family and their equal and inalienable rights ... considering that it is indispensable that human rights be protected by legal norms ..."

All these words, all these terms, all these norms, for some time now, seemed to no longer make sense for Run.

He always believed that he was destined for a legal career, because from an early age, in addition to having a strong sense of justice, or at least of what his parents had taught him, he had attended judges and consulates thanks to his mother, a daughter of a long-standing diplomatic family, and his father, an eminent supreme court judge.

Embarking on a diplomatic career therefore seemed quite natural to him. But since he met Alen, what he thought were his values had been upset not a little, and a big mess had made its way into his head.

This confusion was damn deleterious, because it made him unable to concentrate even in his favourite place, the library, where until then he used to stay late studying as much as he could, because there were no distractions that could distract him from studying. To be able to distract him from studying for a few days now, however, he had not been able to concentrate as usual even there, so he closed the heavy book of international law, went out and unwittingly headed for Alen's place.

When he found himself in front of the door and saw his hand grab the handle to open it he froze

"Why am I here? What am I doing? Why this irrepressible desire to want to see him?"

His heart did not take long to answer him, his hand in fact lowered the handle opening the door, his legs moved by themselves, as he entered, he looked in all directions, scrutinizing every corner of the room

"Where is it? I don't see it ... this just means being able to say that it isn't there ... and now ... now what do I do? "

He turned around as if to leave but...

"Welcome back! Take a seat ... please ... I'll be with you soon! "

Iris's shrill voice woke him from his thoughts, so he sat down at the first free table he saw

"welcome back what can I get you?"

Run ordered without even thinking, he took a book at random from his backpack and to pass the time he tried to read it ... in vain because the words were confused in his mind, they no longer had any meaning despite rereading them several times

"Here you go ... sorry if I've made you wait so long, I hope it's all to your liking"

Alen said as he set the glass down on the table.

Alen's words came like a punch in the stomach to Run

"It's his voice! Yes it's her voice! So there is! "

who turned abruptly, to make sure it was really him and not a daydream, and turned the glass that Alen had brought him over with a sore backhand

"Sorry ... sorry I made a mess"

"It doesn't matter ... don't worry "

"But look what a mess ... what a clumsy I am ... sorry "

"It's okay ... these things can happen "replied Alen as he cleaned the table

"I'm not usually that clumsy, but lately I have a lot behind other ... perhaps the stress... I don't know but ... "

"You are under examination, right? It's normal to be stressed, but you shouldn't exaggerate either, you shouldn't reduce yourself as larvae affect your health ... both physical and mental ... "

"You're right ... "Run muttered with his head down

"Listen, what about coming back tonight ... I'm having a party for my birthday ... there will be lots of nice people, beautiful music and much fun ... maybe if you come there, you can have some fun and this can only do you good don't you think so?! "

Alen considered himself a very lucky person that evening, because he was surrounded by many people who loved him, and so this year too he could celebrate his birthday in the best possible way: with his friends in joy.

He looked around, the place, his place of which he was so proud, was full, full of people he loved ... a smile lit up his face.

... Yes, at that moment he realized that he was really happy!

The cheerful buzz wasn't the only element that made the atmosphere of that evening very carefree, because Ipno's big contribution, in fact he wasn't only a very welcome guest, but the animator of it,

because, console in one hand and famous hit in the other, he had managed to transform, as only he could do, a party, like so many others, in an event to remember for a long time. His gift, however, wasn't this, at least not only this, in fact when it seemed the right moment, he lowered the volume

"I want to make a special wish to the birthday boy... to my friend ... I hope this surprise is to your liking ... Happy birthday!"

Said looking first at Alen and then at the bar.

Reve, at that point, got up from the stool where he had been sitting, walked over to Ipno, who held out the violin, took it, looked at Alen and only moving his lips whispered

"Happy birthday"

Then began to play.

It's "Somebody to love" by Queen.

A pressing music, which spread throughout the place like a roar of tone in a clear sky, kidnapped everyone with its theatrical rhythm that growing more and more, as only a rock ballad of love can do, left those present open berries.

A tear ran down Alen's cheek.