Chapter 5

-Part 15

-To touch my whole body with his hands.

And I continued like this trying to resist, but no matter how much I insisted it was in vain ..

I gave up, the power of my body went totally down, I just wanted to die, my eyes went dark and I gripped the sofa with my nails.

But 1 moment, when he was in the last moments before finishing his goal, 1 strong feeling summed me up, I put my feet on his chest and pushed him with 1 great force, I don't even know today how the power has returned to me so much. sudden.

When he fell to the ground and hit his head on the table, I stood up and ran to the door, turned the key and ran down the stairs, but looked from behind to see if he was probably following me.

I went out and felt the cold and the raindrops.

I walked the street like crazy, my hair was matted, my clothes were torn too, I was almost half naked, and everywhere on my skin I had redness, especially on my neck.

I arrived at Hamide's mother's house and couldn't raise my hands to knock.

He opened the door and was all dumbfounded, put his hands on his head and said;

• Cursed be ..

She grabbed me by the arm and pushed me inside, I immediately shivered like that little bird that is afraid.

He sat me down on the sofa and took 1 towel and 1 blanket, he covered me and started brushing my hair.

• What happened Klara, who did this, what are these marks on your body ???

I listened to her words but I could not answer, my voice did not come out.

I wasn't crying, I was just stoned like ice and standing so frozen, maybe Andy couldn't abuse my body, but he had already ruined my psychology.

Mother Hamide brought me 1 calming opening and 1 glass of water, after drinking them I fell asleep.

I wasn't sleeping comfortably, I was having horrible dreams, I was experiencing what had happened again, I was watching Andy beat me with his hands and his face disgusted me.

I woke up screaming loudly;

• Please don't do this ..

I was drenched in sweat from embarrassment, and my heart was pounding, I could barely breathe.

Mother Hamide was there, at my feet, and she came to hug me, rubbing my back and telling me;

• Past my heart has passed, it was only 1 dream.

Her warmth also warmed my being, I lay in her arms and cried in a painful voice, I needed her because I wanted to bring out the mess that had built up inside me.

She held me like that for a few minutes and she pushed me into her eyes;

• Enough, tell me what happened, you are not alone, you have me ..- these are the words of her that have added to my life.

I wiped away my tears and started to tell the nightmare I had been through, somewhere I got stuck and somewhere I cried again, it was a real trauma, and while I was talking I held the pillow in my hands.

• Forgive me for coming to you and bothering you, but I have no one else in this life, I have no parents, no sister or brother, no friends, I am a miserable orphan ..- and I bowed my head.

• Klara, do not hear me say the word "miserable" anymore because you are not like that, life has really tried you many times but hope should never be lost, one day everything will become beautiful and I will help you ..- were her words of encouragement.

• I ... ohhh I should have been at work now, forgive me again I'm very useless ...- I turned to you with a lot of guilt.

• The work does not cost more than you, now we will think what solution we will give to the problem we have, but first you will take 1 shower ..- she replied.

Lame lame I went to the bathroom, I took off those clothes that had torn and entered the hot water, the marks were endless I rubbed and rubbed them but they were not removed, the dirt that had stuck to me could not be washed if not with soap and water, I did not love myself, I had lost faith in myself and the will to live.

I rolled up and went out, the table was set with different foods, but I had no appetite.

• Klara, do not disturb me either, I will give you some clothes and we will sit down to eat together ..- he told me, I did not want to stress her anymore and I sat next to her.

My mouth was full of poison, everything that was addressed to me seemed bitter.

And while we were eating my phone rang, it was 1 unknown number.

• Who is Klara, who is calling you?

• I don't know, I don't know the number, maybe it's Andi ..- and I slammed the phone on the floor.

She paused for a few seconds and chirped again to rest, anxiety gripped me.

• Clara open your heart, she looks who she is and if you don't talk, shut up ..

• Hi who is ..- I replied.

• Klara how are you, I'm Geni, Andi's friend ..

I felt strange, the words no longer came out.

• Ti..ti..ti how did you find my number? .- I thought directly that she was collaborating with Andin to use me, but when I looked at Mama Hamide she winked at me and she smiled sweetly at me.

I talked like that for a while, and I hung up, she tried to call me again but I turned off the phone, I was pretty irritated.

• When you arrived it was a bit dark, after I put you to sleep and reassured you, I went to the store because I had forgotten something. In front of the door was this boy who seemed to be accompanied. I didn't tell you anything, but he insisted on giving you your number because he could hardly get you close to home ..- he kept telling me.

After all those bad things, something good happened, I felt butterflies in my stomach and I forgot everything negative for a few minutes.

- Part 16

-But I didn't take the initiative to call him back, after all he was a stranger to me and I still didn't know what he wanted from me, but at the same time I was enthusiastic, at least now I knew his name.

• How do you feel about that boy? ..- Mother Hamide asked me suddenly, as soon as I was haunted by the phone screen and read and reread her message.

• A..he is Andy's friend, he came to our house for 1 day and so on ...- but the trembling voice and eyes shining on me didn't match what I was saying.

• Can't you lie to me, even though I'm old now, I was also your age, or do you remember I was born old? ..- and she laughed so softly, trying to make me feel good.

• That guy takes care of you, otherwise he didn't have to wait for you at work, not all guys want something from you, not everyone wants to benefit from it, let him approach you because you want something like this too but fear is what holds you back ..- he continued.

I knew he was right, Andy had destroyed my trust in others, I didn't think that maybe one day I would love someone, I hated the male gender.

• Mother Hamide, I am very confused, I want to lie down and sleep if you allow me, and tomorrow I will go to work ..- I told her.

• Klara I have 1 proposal for you, I am sure that you will not go home and rightly so, as if you were coming to move here with me. I am alone, for me you would be friends. Think even more Answer.

I said good night and lay down on the bed by the window.

Since I was always starting to talk to the sky, it seemed to me that my parents were somewhere there watching and listening to me from afar.

When the moonlight entered the room and whitened the walls, I looked at her so amazed, how special she looked, even though she was alone in all that darkness that still shone.

How I would like to be like her, who didn't need the stars to be strong but with her charm he was unique.

Thoughts were loaded on me, I didn't know which problem to find a solution first, and at the same time Geni bothered me even more, what was happening to me like that? Did I really have to give it 1 chance? did he behave that way? Wasn't it Mrs. Tefta's fault that she hadn't educated her properly? But if these were already important, I would not have justified her perversion with anything, but I was naive.

And so, admiring the sky and hugging the pillow, I fell asleep, in a dream I saw my mother.

We were both in the courtyard of our house in the village, sitting among the colorful flowers and green grass, and Baloja was there, slightly cheerful and happily jumping into my arms, trying to play.

My mother came up to me and she lightly touched my face;

• Do not forget Klara, kindness returns 1 day, maybe not now but later it will do, have courage and everything will be decorated, just like you are beautiful ..- and telling me that she hugged me.

I opened my eyes and it was morning, tears had gushed from my eyes in my sleep, I had experienced that dream so deeply that for a moment I thought it was reality.

I wiped my face with my hands and so limping I got out of bed, I saw myself in the mirror and if I did not recognize how boredom had changed me, it had thrown me to the ground.

The marks on my exhausted body were still there, that land was not leaving me yet, every time I touched it the pain whipped me.

Mother Hamide had already prepared breakfast, it was a long time since I felt that feeling of being important to someone, even if she gave me bread with water and salt, for me she had forgiven the world.

• How you feel today? If you're planning on staying today, don't go to work.

• I am a little better I think, I want to go out and do something, otherwise I will not be able to improve ..- I replied.

• Have you thought about what I told you last night? ..- she asked me again.

I still did not know how I would continue my life, after 1 month I would have started university but given the economic situation we had at home I did not believe that they would allow me, I did not want to be selfish and not help even if I ruined my future.

At the moment I have not answered, I wanted to think about it a little more and be sure.

Meanwhile Mom Hamide had taken care of everything, she had borrowed clothes for me from one of her neighbors.

I thanked her and kissed her hands, I went out to go to work.

I kept my head up, but my strength was very low, I could barely stand but didn't want to give up, from time to time I remembered my mother's advice and however little I got stronger.

The phone in the bag rang, it was Geni again, I had fixed his number.

• Hi Geni çkemi ..- and hapa.

• Clara, how are you? I'm sorry I bothered you like that last night, but believe me, I was really worried about you ..- she told me.

My heart started beating abnormally, I wasn't expecting her call after my behavior last night.

• I'm fine thanks .. Now I'm going to work. I want to apologize for ...- and again after finishing the sentence she interrupted me saying;

• Wait for me to come to your work, I don't think you're good if I don't see you, see you up close ..- and closed.

What was that now?

How was I going to deal with the fact that I had all those marks on my body, that no matter how hard I tried to erase them they were still visible, how could I lie to her?

But I also wanted to meet him, her voice calmed me, and I would finally discover the reason for his interest, as this has eroded me from within.

I had to pick up my broken pieces and reattach them, I had to open a new chapter, I had to fight for myself, for my parents who had left me a will.

But what role did Geni play in my life? Who would he be?

Countinue ..