Chapter 4

I'm going to Manila right now, the Santiago already left, earlier, I left without informing my parents, I will just gonna call them if I'm already in Manila.

I don't have any idea of what will happen to my future, I think it's just on me what path I will choose, but it's kinda hard when no one will support you in everything you do.

Before I have Jax, the one who supports me in everything, but now he will be taken away from me. Well, I have myself, I will support my self in everything, for what I will choose.

Sometimes when I'm alone, my heart felt heavy, I want to shout, I want to cry, I want to hurt myself, I always asked this question 'Why people likes to hurt me?' I pity my self, I can't stand by my own feet, and I hate it.

I was really tired after arriving in Manila, I immediately went inside my house to take a rest.

"Please go inside Mang Ed, there's already food that had been prepared inside, and also tell the bodyguards and our maids to eat with you" I said

"Okay ma'am, thank you" I just nodded at him, I went inside my room to take a rest.

Maybe tomorrow, I will gonna visit Cassandra, it's too boring here.

And, I don't want to go to the club, I'm shy when it comes to a crowded place.

This house is very quiet, my parents were not here, they are always busy, every weekend my sister was at the club, so I'm always alone in this house, I don't have anyone to talk, I don't even have a pet, my life is boring.

I want to have freedom, like, my sister will leave me alone, my mom will just let me do what I want to, I want to travel the whole world.

The birds were lucky, they can fly around, everywhere, they can go far away, if I'm a bird I will totally go far away from this house, far away from people, where I can have peace.

It's two o'clock in the afternoon, when someone knocked at my door, I immediately got up and opened the door.

"Ah ma'am Ashrielle, sir Jax is here, he said, he wants to be here for a while"

What?! Jax was here?! What the hell! I nodded and immediately closed the door.

They called him Sir Alexander because Jax's full name is 'Michael Alexander Jax Clayton' if you're close to him, you can call him Jax, and if you're a housemaid or what, you will call him sir Alexander, it's just on you of what will you call him.

I went downstairs and immediately went to Jax, he was sitting on the couch.

"Why are you here?" I asked

He just shrugged his shoulders and smiled "I want to stay with my girl for awhile" What the hell!

"I think you're wrong, your girl was in Nacpan Beach" I said and rolled my eyes

"So this is Nacpan Beach? Ah...that's why you're here" He said smiling

"Ugh! You're so annoying! I will not be here tomorrow"

"Where are you going? Is it important?" He asked then his brows furrowed

"I have a date with my boyfriend, so?" I said grinning

His eyes darkened, then he slowly walking toward me.

"Ashrielle, only me....I'm the only man for you, try to flirt, you will see what you want" He said threatening me, I know that my face was red like a tomato.

I want to read his mind because I want to know if he was just playing me or he's totally serious about what he said.

I nodded and shifted my gaze at somewhere "Do y-you want t-to come with me t-tomorrow?" Damn you Ashrielle! I think it's a bad idea!

His face brightened and smiled "Of course! As I just said, I want to be with my girl" He said and immediately went to his room.

Ugh! I hate my self! Why did I ask him that! Wish me luck!

My sister was lucky, she can marry Jax, the boy who is loyal, who has a patient, who respects his parents, who are always there when you're sad, and lastly who can love you more than himself.

I went outside and approached Mang Ed "Mang Ed, can you drive me to the mall? I'll gonna buy something"

Mang Ed nodded at immediately went to the car.

I will just gonna buy a gift for Cassandra and for her brother because her brother's birthday will be on the next-next day.

A few minutes later, we're already at the mall.

I think, Gucci shoes will do, I bought Cassandra's favorite Gucci shoes, she said that she will not buy it because it's expensive, that girl is damn rich, how could she say that it was expensive?

I also bought Gucci shoes for her brother, so they will be matchy.

I remembered the time, Cassandra told this 'We live to achieve something not to cry for a nonsense thing she said, it was the day when I cried because of my sister's evilness, Cassandra was there, comforting me.

When I got out of the mall we immediately went to the house.

"Where are you from?" Jax asked as I entered inside

"In the place where you never exist" I said laughing

Hmmm... There's so much food in here, but who cooked all of this? I will gonna ask Jax.

"Hey Ashrielle, I'm asking y---"

"Who cooked all of this?" I asked

"Answer me first, where ar--"

"Ehhh!!! Who cooked all of this? Jax! I'm already hungry!"

He sighed "It's me" He said and immediately sat down. I sat in front of him and started eating.

"Hmm, it's delicious! Jax! Taste it!" O said happily but he just ignored me.

"Hey! Jax!" But he still ignored me

"Hey! Jax! Why are you ignoring me?! What di--" I stopped from talking when he looked at me intensely.

"I asked you earlier where are you from, but you just ignored me" he said and walked out.

Uh-oh, what will I do? I went to the living room because Jax was there.

"Ummm..... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to ignore you, I was just too hungry"

He ignored me, he was busy typing at his phone.

"Hey... Look, I'm sorry okay? Just come with me tomorrow, and you can do whatever you want" I said then he looked at me.

"Come here" He said, I immediately sat down beside him.

"Just don't do it again" he said in calm tone.

I nodded "Okay, I'm sorry, you can come with me tomorrow, you can do whatever you want"

"No, it's okay, as long as I'm with you, I'm okay with it"

I smiled at him, but after a second, my smile vanished because of what I remember.

"But Jax, what about my sister? She told you to stay away from me, Jax I don't want to get used that you were always there because soon, you will be taken away from me" I said

Then he stared at me for a second "Then I will stay with you forever"

"When will it happen? You can't stay with me forever because you will be married to my sister. Do you know that every time I saw you with my sister, I feel jealous, I really want to move on and accept everything but I can't"

"Then don't" He said

"Jax! Look! I'm already tired, I'm tired in everything, every time that there's bad that will happen, you were always blaming me, I always try to explain, but you never listen, instead you believed to my sister's lies, how about me?"

"I'm sorry, Baby"