Chapter 5

Jax and I were already in Cassandra's house, it's just awkward because of what happened yesterday.

"Umm so... What are we going to do?" Cassandra asked

"Uhh I don't know, by the way, I have a gift for you" I said and immediately gave her the gift.

She immediately opened it, she looked at me with a shocked expression "My gosh! Thank you Ashrielle, but... It's too expensive"

I shook my head "No it's okay, I also have a gift for your brother, it's his birthday tomorrow, right?"

"Yeah, please come tomorrow, his birthday party will be held at the bar, or you can just come in here, in my house so we can go together" she said

We just talked about something, what we missed each other, after that, we immediately come back to the house, we're not that awkward unlike earlier.

"You will go to the party?" Jax asked after we went inside.

"Yeah, and I have a lot of time, I will just get bored in here" I said

"Okay, I will just come with you tomorrow" he said and immediately went to his room.

I sighed, I don't know if he was just playing me or what, I did not say that I suspected him but about him and my sister.... I don't know what I will gonna think.

I went to my room to get dress up, plain T-shirt and shorts will do, I was just in the house.

I went outside and directly went to the living room, I saw Jax, he was sitting at the couch, I sat beside him.

"So... Umm... " I don't know how to start a conversation. He looked at me, asking what I will gonna say.

"Uhh... Do you love my sister?" I asked, oh gosh! It's making me nervous.

He looked at me like he didn't know what to answer, I smiled "No, it's okay, you don't need to answer"

I stood up, I was about to go to my room when Jax suddenly hugged me. My heart beat faster, didn't know what to do.

"J-jax, w-what are y-you doing?" I asked

But he remained silent, I let him hugged me, I liked it, maybe this will be the last time, I will literally miss him.

We stayed like that for a minute, then he talked "I want you to be mine, I want to hug you every day, every minute, every second"

Me too, but we just can't, we're not meant for each other. I want to stop the time so we can be like this forever, but it's too impossible, life has no magic, and that's the reality.

"J-jax c-can you..."

"Ok" he said. I let out a sigh, why I can't accept everything? It's too hard for me to move if he's always like this.

I immediately went to my room and make my self busy, I just want to forget what happened earlier.

I grabbed my laptop and log in to Facebook, this is what I do when I'm bored. I stopped scrolling because something caught my attention.

SOPHIA ELLE LOPEZ

posted 1 minute ago

I'm so happy! Thank you for this ring Alexander! My future husband haha!

That's what it says then a picture of a ring. My heart ached, feeling uneasy, my tears slowly dropping one by one.

I should be happy, but why I feel sad? Or is it too much to wish that I want to be happy? It's like, being happy is a sin.

I let my self fell on the floor, I don't know what to do...

Someone knocked at the door "Ashelea, do you want to come with me?" Alexander asked

Why is it easy for him to act nothing happened? I cleared my throat, stopped myself from sobbing.

"No, I'm busy! Maybe next time!" I shouted, and why is it easy for me to act like I'm okay?

"Are you sure?" he asked, I really want to be with you but not this time, not this that I'm crying.

"Yeah! Just go!" I shouted. Then I heard his footsteps walking away, it's too hard to be okay.

I went to the bathroom and locked myself in there, I just want to feel the water trickling down to my body, I want to relax.

I opened the shower, cold water trickled down to my body, it feels so good. Water is like a medicine for me, making me relaxed.

People change feelings too. I kept that word for so long because it's the truth. We believe in lies because lies tell beautiful words, while the truth tells you hurtful words.

And I'm the one who is always doing that, always believe in lies just to cheer up myself.

After I finished showering, I went out and get dressed up. I'm kinda hungry, but my pride stopping me from going out of my room.

Ugh! I can't help it! I'm hungry, I need to go out, or else I will be starved for the whole day.

I went out of my room and went to the kitchen, oh! Jax wasn't at home.

I immediately took the cereal and milk and put it to the bowl, I don't want to cook, I'm not in my mood.

I went to my room carrying the bowl of cereal. I sat on my bed and started eating.

This is not making any sense, he didn't do anything, I was overreacting, sometimes I wish that I could be like the person that is cold-hearted, so I can hang out with them without doing anything wrong.

Oh! What about taking some pictures? Good idea Ashelea!

I went outside, and immediately went to our garden, I didn't finish my cereal but you know, I'm bored.

I immediately placed my camera on the tripod and got some shots, I will just gonna post it later.

I will gonna edit it first before posting it, you know, there's a lot of toxic people.

After editing I immediately posted it on Instagram. My sister had so many followers, I also did but it's because they knew that I'm Sophia's sister.

I looked at my phone because it suddenly beeped @JaXclayton comment on your post.

I immediately opened my Instagram, I looked at his comment "My sunshine" that's what it says.

My face heated, Oh! Come on! Maybe he's pertaining to the sun because it's sunny out here. Do not assume Ashelea!

I went inside our house and immediately went to my room, I want to sleep, I don't have anything to do, and it's boring, I will just be spacing out.

I closed my curtain and turned off the lights. I can't sleep when the light is on, I immediately went to my bed.

I feel like someone is brushing my hair, I was about to open my eyes when someone talked

"I love you to the moon and back, goodnight baby" then he kissed my forehead.

I opened my eyes when I heard the door shut, I smiled, if fighting for you is worth it, then I'll fight just to have you.