Chapter 09

Your beautiful smile.

Your precious and so damn smile.

So beautiful that just smiling at me is enough to bring my demons to their knees before you.

Never stop smiling, don't let anyone allow me to erase it for whatever stupidity they commit, I love your smile, I want to keep it on your face, I don't care what I have to do but I don't want to lose it, I don't want you to lose yourself No one deserves your tears, no one deserves your pain or your sorrows, I will close those cracks that no one could do, I will help you close them if necessary, just don't punish me by stopping smiling.

Anthony adored James's smile and he felt so miserable not to see it again, not to feel it again, to hear it, he just wanted to go back to those afternoons where they did nothing and talk about any nonsense, where he could appreciate him up close, where he could admire him

Where he could want it a little more.

But.

Do you know what it feels like to be rejected by the person you loved? You admired, loved, longed for, it feels ugly, right? That tightness in the chest that makes it difficult for you to breathe calmly, that clouds your mind wanting not to having confessed anything to him, not having made him angry and continuing to observe him in silence.

Since that day in his apartment they had not exchanged a word, the odd look but they were always in pain, James regretted so much having treated him that way, the notes of encouragement were no longer in his locker daily, the lunches were no longer they were shared and the sweet scent of the alpha no longer enveloped him, why?

He berated himself for having treated him that way, for not having the courage if he wanted to apologize, he hated so much having lost the presence of the alpha through his own fault, he felt that those blows he received were in vain .

He hadn't been worth his pain.

He observed how Anthony was playing with his food looking at it as if it were the most interesting thing in the world, next to him was his friend trying to cheer him up but he did not even look up and just made a sad face returning to eat.

She bit her lips knowing that only he was the cause of his strange attitude, decided hard drink starting to walk towards him, she had to face his fears, she should at least try but, what would she say?

"Forgive me for treating you like shit but I miss you, you know"

No, that sounded horrible even in his head but the main idea of ​​apologizing was still standing, his elaborate speech disappeared when he was in front of him, looking at him, having that beautiful look just for him again, he was damn lost, so much so that he did not know he realized what was happening to him, what was going to happen to him.

—We can talk?

They left the other people who were in the cafeteria in the background looking at them like weirdos and that alarmed Marcos, he was not going to let them make fun of his friend, he was not going to let them do it shit, for the moon, he should protect him even if he was just a simple beta.

—Thony, you must go to class, you're already late.

Marcos tried to pull his arm to take him away but he was far from being able to do it, as they both kept looking at each other, so lost as if they were saying everything and at the same time nothing without even saying a word.

—We can, I'll go to class the second hour.

He turned to look at him throwing him a sad smile and he left the place together with the Omega who knows where, Marcos refused to lose his friend, he did not want him to suffer being with him, he knew that he was already too old to take care of himself but, How do you stop caring about someone you care so much about?