Chapter 21 : three months later...

It's Drake's birthday.

And he's dead.

So instead of the big birthday party I'd planned for his seventeenth, we're still mourning; dressed in black, with tears.

My golden boy joined the goddess in her realm.

I can't get him back.

And I'll never see him again.

This world is too cruel.

Why did I fall in love? Why did I open my heart in this world thinking nothing would happen? Well, something happened and it's all my fault. The… Bomb, The explosions... it was a terrorist attack aimed at me.

He protected me. And then in return he died for his troubles. He died A hero...my savior. And all we got was a casket and a metal of honor.

I'll never get to hear his voice again. He won't tease me, or hug me, or kiss me. I won't look into those warm golden brown eyes of his and see my future. I won't see him every again.

I miss him.

And I hate him.

Why couldn't it have been me?

Not him. He should've lived.

This wasn't even my world. It was his. And I miss him.

It feels like there's a gaping hole in my chest. And it's been there since he left. And I don't know if it'll ever go away.

I miss him. So much.