beatifull

Jimin was left there with a deep stare at the ground. He couldnt believe what just happened its been so long since he last saw.. Taehyung. With no expression he tried to stand up but ended up with stinging pain in hes every muscle. As much as felt like just staying there, he had to drag himself out of the hallway.

Jimin grabbed his bag and a few books what were spilled on the floor when he got hit by taehyung. It really hurt but hes mind didnt land on that. He was rather thinking how he just wanted to dissapear right in that moment. with blood dripping from hes forehead he got himself to the nurses office.

It was weird but still... understandable for jimin that nobody even spared a look for him when he was in that condition. The nurse looked really worried though (as the only one).

shortly jimin collapsed on the floor from all the heavy thoughts and trauma he had just receaved. With shaky breaths his whole body went from shaky to as still as ever while hes small but growing voice dissapeared from the room.

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"huh" my throat instantly stinged as i was trying let out a word from my mouth and was suprised to a very worried looking face on top of me.

"oh god"

" did a scare you haha . hey jimin i hope your okay i will take care of you for now"

He appeared to be seated on a bed in the nurses office. He was laying on a white bed in a reasonably small room for him. It had just enough space for a little table beside the bed. as Jimin realized where he was there rose suspicion in his head. Where was he and why was he here"

" Um nurse could i ask you what happened to me" i said

" Oh dont you remember? i just catched you walking in here covered in blood and i was very worried for you. You should just have some rest for now maybe youll remember soon" The nurse said in a very apolotegic tone of voice.

"oh okay... thanks for the umm medicine" jimin looked up at a small bag of dark violet liquid in it. " ill try to rest "

"haha dont worry sweetie thats just so you wont feel as much pain" the nurse said while leaving jimin in the white room what had a very bright lightnig

The room made jimin even more depressed. He didnt know why it affected him that much.

Slowly jimin got the courage to open his eyes and look up and down on his body. He lifted the blanget and saw a small fragile body covered in dark violet bruises, but to jimin it was nothing more than a fat punching bag to release his mind on.

He still wasnt sure what hapenned... did he lose his memory?. Jimin was very confused of all the bruises. he barely reached for his phone what layed on the side of the small table just nearly in reach for jimin. He lifted the phone and the bright light shined on his face. He didnt wanna be late from home so he straightaway checked the time.

Oh shit! it was already 3.40 pm."I need to go right now".

he rapidly pulled the needle attached to his skin. He surely didnt want to be late. some of the violet liquid was left dripping on his skin. Immediately when he moved his bones and muscles felt like tearing apart from eachother. But he didnt care about that it was more important what was gonna happen at home.

And sadly because.....he was used to it.

It was actually a very good change to look around a bit since the nurse was gone for now. There were some white files. They had each of the students pictures and names for them. hm why wouldnt he take a look. He opened one file what had a name "Namjoon ridden on top of it and a closeup picture of a rather good looking man in his 40:s jimin guessed.

The man had a huge dimple smile on his face. But on his face there was obviously written that he was very tired and frustrated of life. His gaze seemed like this man was longing for something he once lost. Jimin dared to open the file.

It had basic information about him..

Namjoons file:

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full name: Kim Namjoon.

age: 42 years old

Training for job: 1 year

Family: Wife dead 2 teen girls

fired from last job: reason unknown

crime register: suspected for sexually harrasing a teen but proved wrong

\\Sometimes acts very suspicous but is very intelligent. Its better to keep a distance from him\\

Jimin felt weird from the last part. It gave him bad vibes but he just shrugged it off for now.

The nurse walked in the room facing the left wall while tightly holding a small black phone full of finger marks in her hand. "Hey Jimin i hope your doing okay and having a good rest its important to rest more when youve been hurt"

"Does it hurt anymore" She turned to face jimin . " Wait jimin! you shouldnt take that off you can be in serius pain after that!"

With a raspy voice jimin answered "Uh actually nurse it doesnt hurt anymore so ill just go now"

" No no dont go itll hurt like hell if you do"

Jimin started running quickly away from the office. He ran trough the main entrance and started panting heavily. running as fast as he could from his weak body. He couldnt stop he needs to be there. Why was it so terrifying?

Flying high is terrifying

As if someone was chasing him but in reality he was all by his own on the dark streets. He was deep in his thought.

I hope people could see the real me.... maeby my life would be different. I was so happy in my childhood but now... ive just been watching someone elses film from the back of the room all alone.

I really miss my lost mind.

I guess i picked a piece on a road that didnt fit to my story. Is this really the moment im schocked how it was this easy to get to this even if its not what i wanted.

I wonder if itll turn out to be a beatifull story...

So out of his breath he was finally in front of his house. He felt his body tremble. Lucky for him he lived a long way from the school and of course he took the longest route to his house. Afterall he doesnt want to see a bloated pig in the mirror today.

He hasitated a while before grabbing the the door handle firmly...

The door opened and for his suprise there couldnt be heared any shouting for his ugly name. "Jimin"

Atleast thats what people say. Mochi thats what they call him .

but the way he looked probably...well surely played a part in it . At least in jimins perspective.

Inside he only heared some sleepy breathing.

Well he didnt want to get involved in that so he just started silently dragging his body up the stairs. He did feel a lot of pain in hes body. But what else shoudve he done? he lied like he always does.

" Im a really crappy person i guess. im so pathetic i cant even tell the truth"

He threw his dirty packpack on his bed and stepped to the bathroom.

Slowly taking each one of his cloth pieces off him. sliding his trousers off it hurt like hell. He felt every single bruise on his body. and his old scars didnt make it feel any nicer.

"hm" He facepalmed to himself while looking in the mirror . I guess thats what others see all day long" He cuckled."no wonder they despise me"

He spared a glance for himself Hes eyes widened at the sight. He stared at his round cheecks

Every single flaw without mistake he noticed it. He slowly slid his hand to his cheeck . way too small eyes for my face, my nose, too big lips, such a chubby face, hair, skin , moles. everything... Fucking everything how couldnt he notice it. How was he so stupid.

Everything about him was somehow wrong.

But under that it was even worse, he absolutely despised what he saw. He grabbed the nonexistend fat on his stomach "What the fuck is this jimin" im not even sure myself how could i be. my life in this world is nonexistend after all.

His body what was still covered in blood. surely the nurse didnt want to see his disgusting figure so no wonder she didnt clean it up.

hah" no wonder they call me mochi" a small smile left his lips

he without even noticing glanced at the razor on the cabinet like it was something he was used to. But he knew he didnt want to fall in that deep hole again so he looked away no matter how much it hurt himself inside.

Without realizing there was formed tear in his eyes. it slowly fell down his jawline. He was so cought up in the moment.

But he knew he couldnt escape from himself ...

And thats what he feared the most.

He slipped between the shower booth, and turned the switch slowly to cold and switched it on. He could feel the cold water dripping from hes head to his shoulders and finally splashed the ground. The water meeting his skin stinged even worse than when it happened. Guess the andrealine covered that for me. But weirdly jimin didnt mind it it felt very comforting for some reason. Like a warm hug he never receaved.

The water gripped tightly around him when he stared down at his legs.

You could say he was dissapointed.

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yes its finally ready!gotta go back to correct some grammar errors -_-

The next chapters gonna be a bit more about jimins past so stay tuned for that.

anyway enjoy! ill work hard.