c-h-a-p-t-e-r: 7

'While crying she stood up got out of the bathroom, locked her bedroom door and took out alot of medicines she hidden some-where in her room and started to take them one by one nonstop with-out counting....when her heartbeat started to get abnormal and she felt like fainting she topped taking medicines and went to sleep thinking that she won't woke up ever again into her living nightmare life but after 17 hours she woke up again and said to herself that'

No, no, no, noooooo!!! How the fuck am I still alive after overdosing on that much medicines, i can't believe myself right now, I can't be alive noooo......ughhhh...you know what i'm gonna keep trying ways to die until i don't die...ummm what do i do...oh yeah i have a great idea first i'll overdose on as many medicines i could then cut some of m vains and after cutting I'll throw myself from the stairs, i hope it'll work....

'After saying that idea she went first overdosed on as many medicines she could so she did that and then after that she putted her sharpest blade out and cutted some of her vains and right after cutting she throwed herself from the stairs and as she was felling she fainted, lucky her mom and dad wasn't home so untill she didn't woke up from being faint her doing suicide secret was saved with her,, after few hours she woke up from being fainted because of the sound of trying to open the door, when she saw that her mom and dad has came she somehow ran up to her room hiding herself from her parents cause she was pale yellow cause of overdosing on medicines and loss of blood, when her parents entered the house and right after entering the house madsion mom called her to come down stairs..'

MADSION! MAADDSIOONN

I'm trying to sleeping mom

'Madsion lied to her mom because she didn't wanted her to see her pale yellow skin'

oh okay....but sleeping at this time....

'Madsion mom said to her dad'

anyways....

'Her mom said'

'After few minutes door bell ringed, madsion dad went to open the main door, it was madsion neighborhood friend, so her dad called her to come downstairs..'

MADSION! MMAADDSSIIOOONNNN!

Yeah dad?

Come downstairs your neighborhood friend is here..

Ummm ok-o-ok--okay dad....

'Madsion went downstairs'

Hey! what's up?

'Madsion said'

Hey! I came here to invite you for studying together....wanna come?

Ummm yeah sure

'Madsion only agreed cause she was hiding from her parents because she don't want her parents to see her pale yellow skin, when she arrived at her friend house, after few minutes of studying at her house her elder sister came up to madsion in anger and said'

Don't come here and pretend like you study, you don't even go to school for days and here you are pretending to study, get the hell out from my house, you should die, you deserve to die, you stupid bitch, i don't know why you're still alive...people like you should die cause you deserve it loser, you should die otherwise i'll kill you, loser, non sense, you're a really bad person you only deserve t just die, what are you even gonna by staying alive uhh?? you don't study and you shouldn't act like you do like you're doing at MY house right now, you don't go to school, you're a total loser, a total stupid bitch

'When she was saying all of that to Madsion, she kept quite, she didn't said a word, her friend sister was saying more to her but when she was saying madsion got out from her house and went home, when she entered home she ran upstairs to her room and started crying like a baby and while crying she repeatedly said'

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna be alive the longer I live more bad things happened to me, I'm such a stupid loser who doesn't even know how t live, how to be alive with-out any bad thing happening to me, i just don't wanna be alive anymore just please, please, please goddd just kill me I can't stay alive anymore trust me I'm total done with this world and myself, I losted myself more then one year ago and after that I couldn't even find myself I'm such a stupid loser.....

'Madsion wiped her tears from her face and said'

That's it, I'm gonna try until I won't die otherwise I won't stop trying, where's my suicide note...'

'She searched her room but she didn't found the suicide note so she started writing another note , in which she said'

I'm sorry, I know a sorry won't work but still I apologize, I'm sorry for disappointing you people, for making people mad, for never helping or anything, I'm a loser I admit it, I'm a stupid fucking loser, actually more then that, I've always been this It's just I admitted it now, I'm so sorry for wasting everyone's time, I've never been a good daughter, relative, friend or neither a good person, I know i deserve to die and even if i don't there's no space left for me in this world, no-one let me stay alive, every year is just so much worse from the last year. I can't take it anymore, I hope everyone will be happy after I'll die cause that's what you all want, I'm a burden for everyone espcially for my parents, I can't believe that I'm a burden for my parents too, anyways your burden will be gone now I hope you're happy now.

'She got up and went to the bathroom, filled her bath with water, grabbed her hair dryer, turned it on, got into the bath tub and throwed her hair dryer into the tub, as soon she throwed the hair dryer into the water she started to get electric shocks, as she started to get electric shocks electricity went off, then she said'

Danggg mannnn, I have to try another way now, I just wanna die as soon as I can cause I can't stay alive more longer, ummm I'm gonna try not eating or drinking for days, It's a really easy way to die, oh and while I'll be fasting I'll do overdose, I'm damn sure It'll work (I guess)....

'And then went to sleep'