Ch 23 "Congrats.."

Lucinda's voice is a bit off same with aunt Carla , and that's what makes me scared , they are not the calm people normally... they tend to be more active and joyful even in serious times

I took my shower quickly , wrapped my hair with a towel and wore my cloths I didn't even get the chance to dry my hair or do my routine because of curiosity , I went down stairs and found aunt Carla cooking calmly while Lucinda setting the table I faked cough to grab their attention aunt Carla got startled , she seemed to be in a deep thought maybe what is she think about right now is the reason why is she sad , she gave me a soft smile

"Lorraine...honey why didn't you dry up your hair , you know you catch cold pretty fast!"

"No aunt I will be fine...need some help?"

"No sweetie thanks I am almost finished , sit down girls food is almost ready"

I sat on the chair , Lucinda sat in front of me the weather was so calm...deadly calm , I looked at aunt Carla she was putting the food on the plates back to Lucinda she was scrolling through her phone

"Psst Lucy!"

"Hmm?"

"What's wrong with you two ha , since I came back and you both are so calm what's wrong?!"

"Ha?...nothing Lorraine you just overthink there is nothing.."

"There is something! ... I know you are lying!"

I was cut by my aunt putting the plate in front of me , and I went silent again

"Here you go , finish your plates!"

"Carla what's wrong with you two ha?"

"Let's eat first and then we will talk , shall we?"

"I knew there was something!"

I was cat again by my aunt

"Lorraine....after we eat!"

we started eating , they were eating with their normal speed but it felt like they were taking forever while me who was eating so damn fast just to finish as fast as I can I even choked on food to finish and they didn't help but laugh at me I didn't care on myself as much as I cared about their smile it felt okay for me

"Lorraine stop eating like a pig!"

"I am trying to finish my plate Lucinda thanks for nothing!" I said while shoving a big bite into my mouth

"Okay but still...slow down dear"

"Carla I wanna finish so I can hear you god!"

"You are so impatient!" Lucinda said while shaking her head

"Like you never know duh!"

"Gosh those girls!...OKAY finish so we can talk okay stop fighting you two!"

We finished eating and we sat on the couch I sat between the two ladies ready to listen , it took a while before they start clearing their throat it seam to be serious

"Lorraine sweetheart....you know that Sandra and Josh will return back soon and....you have to go back home with them"

I sighed in frustration "Carla don't remind me...I am trying so hard to forget this fact!"

I found Lucinda putting her hand slowly on my shoulder patting trying to comfort me "Relax Lorraine...I won't leave you , I know that you and Uncle are not working so well , plus Miss Sandra...I know you are uncomfortable but you see he is your father!"

"Lucy leaving with dad now....feels like you are a prison , I don't even know if he consider me as a daughter or he forgot about me!"

"No sweetie he loves you don't say that....don't think in that way....after all you will remain his favorite child no matter what" Aunt Carla said in a low fainted voice that I can barley hear her but I got her , I turned my gaze towards her with my frowned brows

"What do you mean favorite child....Carla?"

"Sweetheart you see...it's-" Aunt Carla was shattering she couldn't speak well when Lucinda cut her saying

"Lorraine , Sandra is pregnant!"

I froze...

I couldn't speak nor react nor anything just processing what Lucy had said , I turned my gaze towards her "What...what did you say?"

"You heard me right Lorraine , your step-mother is pregnant with your father's child , yes!"

He is...I....I am not sad that she is pregnant it's any woman's right , but....the fact that he is trying to push me away from his life , like he wants to erase me to forget my existence by having another child and..of course! of course I will be the selfish one....who will step between her father and his SELFISH goals , like if you would marry someone else and have another baby...why are you stepping in my life?!

flashbacks hits me , the moments I have tried to achieve my goals in become what I want...A violin player...he would shout telling me to focus on my studies if I wanna play then inside home and how useless I think , he would always argue with me saying that he works for me...but it's only for himself and after I saw Sandra for the first time....I knew why.....he would work all day

I just smiled softly "Congrats!.... Now I would have a sibling you say...why didn't he tell me , was he scared from me or what?" I said ending it with soft giggles making them a bit worried I won't blame them to be honest , I am losing my sanity day after day

"Lorraine aren't you sad?" Lucinda asked

"No...in fact I am happy for him , if this what they planned for then go ahead it's completely fine really Lucy..."

"Lorraine.."

"Guys I need some space okay?"

"Sure honey Lucy let's leave her-"

"No Carla I wanna go to the book shop...alone! excuse me!"

I took myself and went out going to the bookshop , I just wanna relax....I wanna forget my stress for a while , I don't wanna feel anything....I opened the glass door the fresh cold breeze welcomed me , I went inside and picked one of the books , it was a fantasy one , talking about a girl a daydreamer who creates her own world just to escape her reality and there she achieve what She wants...to become a free person with her lover one , I just felt myself being this girl the connection between both of us is pretty strong...powerful , except....that she met her lover but I didn't

"Wait for chapter 8 it's gonna be more interesting!"

I turned to the voice direction and I found Ashton looking at me with soft smile and sat next to me

"Ash...what brings you here?"

"I guess the same reason why you are here , when problems hit so hard we try to escape...who escapes to the bars who escapes to streets who escapes here....different styles"

"Yeah...."

"let it out!"

I turned my gaze to him

"what?"

He put his hand under my chin "Don't keep it inside , cry if that's what you need!"

My eyes burned me because I was trapping my tears slowly one by one fell down on my cheeks ,I started sobbing he wrapped his hand around my shoulder pulling me closer , so I leaned on his shoulder "Shhh it's fine really , I know it burns.....let it out don't trap it!"