Chapter 2. You

To you

I appreciate the smallest things in you. You are so full. You are filled whit small things. Smallest, most little things make me fall in love with you

The way you hug me, the way you run into my arms when you come out of the train. The way your heart bounces when we touch each other, the way your lips touch mine, the way you kiss me so passionately every and each time. The way you rub your thumb against my hand when we hold hands, the way you pinch me randomly. The way you randomly follow me like sharks follow ships. The way you come close to me, the way you kiss my head softly like a butterfly. The way you grab me into your arms, the way you look at me when you wake up, the way you lift me to sit on your lap, the way you push me to the wall in a hot shower. The way you focus on me when I'm with you, the way you look at me like I'm your whole world, no one looks at me like that, only people in love look at each other like that. The way you say my name, the way you talk to me no matter where we are or who we are with, the way you hold me. The way you crush me with your hugs, your arms feel like cotton around me, they are soft and comfy, you make me feel safe, on your lap, I am in my happy place. I belong there. I love the way you laugh ,the way you care, the way you make me feel with your words. The way how you make me cry because of happiness, the way you make me cry because of worry. The way you cry because you miss me, because you care for me, because you love me and I love you.

When you really care about someone, in my words when you are addicted to someone. You think about them all the time. You don't wanna tell that to them because you're scared that they start to think that you are a freak. You don't want them to feel captured. You want them to feel good, free, and happy.

You are scared. You are scared all the time. You are scared of losing them. Thought of them not being part of your life makes you anxious.

You check your phone all the time. Is there missed text from them or something? Your day instantly becomes 10 times better when you get a simple text from them. Talking to them makes you happier than anything else. Your favorite thing is to talk. Simply just talk with them.

You want them to be happy. No matter how or with who. You want them to be happy even if it's not with you.

You would give your life away for them. You could give everything away just to make them happy. You feel like you don't know how to live or move or breathe without them. You have to constantly say sorry and ask if you did something wrong.

That's what being addicted to someone feels like.

I am addicted.

Why you are above average

You amaze me. Why do you think that you are average? What makes you think that? Dear, you are special, you are way above average.

Your eyes. Have you seen them in sunlight? They look like fresh cold brew coffee. Your nose curves like a mountain. So smooth and perfect. Your face is soft warm like summer air. Your thoughts are butterflies. Your voice is as soft as a snowstorm, calm, relaxing, charming. Your hair curls beautifully when you come out of the shower. Every and each curl is unique.

Your smile makes it hard to be sad. Your smile raises my serotonin levels higher than anything or anyone else. You make my worst days worth living. You make me want to live. Do you understand how big deal that is?

You are strong. Not just physically but mentally as well. You are realistic, but you still have dreams.

This is why you are way above average.

I notice the smallest details in you. I see the good in you. Can you see all the good things in you? I wish you could see yourself the way I see you. You wouldn't hate yourself. Can you see yourself the way you see me?

You

I am scared. I am scared of losing you. Scared of you just leaving. I was in a dark and you dragged me out of it now I'm thankful for you..maybe the rest of my life. I find you special. Very special. The way you see the world, the way you talk, the way you smile, the way you look at things...

How can someone be so pure, generous, loving, helping, and funny at the same time?

You are perfect mix of everything. You have so much good in you. When I see you smile it makes me smile. You bring so much happiness and joy to the world.

What would I do without you? Where would I be?

You took me from this- to this

I was scared to fall in love. I was so broken, messed up. I didn't know what to do when everything seems blurry. Then you came and took my hand. You dragged me out of the dark. You were the light I needed.

You are the light of my life. My lighthouse. I didn't have to walk alone anymore. I didn't have to walk when I didn't want to. You carried me when my legs were numb. You took care of me better than anyone else. Like a parent. I felt the flame in your heart. You were full of life. You gave some of your flames to me. I took pieces of you. You fixed me. No, I am not cured yet, but I am happy with my life, with you. I don't wanna end everything anymore. You took me from my worst to my best. You changed me. How did you do that? You changed everything just with your existence.