Disappointment

I have been disappointed in my life, just like everyone else, but those day the feeling of betrayal I've felt is more powerful than ever. Betrayed by my sister, feeling betrayed by my mother and feeling of reject from one of my friend together is making things difficult to bear.

I'm also disappointed in myself, because If everyone around me is giving me up, then there shall be something wrong with me but I cannot find what and it's killing me.

I might not bet who they thought I was, or they could have been disappointed in me too.

Each time my suicidal thought go away, they come back stronger with better reason than before.

I don't know if I'm going to continue or if this will be the one time that break me, or maybe it will be the next one.