Idiots

Deric's POV

Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot. I am a damn idiot. I should have known better. First, I touched her injuries on her back. I hurt her. When I heard her groan in pain I did my best to get as far away as possible so I couldn't hurt her more than I already did. It's my fault she's not allowed to move. Second, I asked her what the people she was running from, did to her. Her reaction made me want to rip them apart. She didn't show any emotion but her heart rate sped up a hundred miles an hour. She panicked and I caused it. I caused her pain. I have to make it up to her. So I set off to my friend's house, also my beta.

When I got there I knocked on the door and in a second the door swung open, with a very excited Liam behind it. "The pack's been going wild saying you found your mate. Is it true? Come on, tell me it's true." He sounded so positive, I don't think he needs my answer. But I'm in a good mood so I am not gonna play games with him. (Did you catch the sarcasm?)

"What tells you I found her. Those are just rumours you heard. They don't mean anything" his face dropped instantly and he opened his mouth to say something, probably something like, sorry Alpha. But I interupted him before he could even start. "I found her, Liam." The moment the words left my mouth he tacled me to the ground. "Yes. Yes, yes, yes" he chanted until his mate, Crystal stepped in.

"What is going on here?" She asked us. Liam jumped up, off me and pulled me up. "Care to explain you two?" She asked again when we were finished righting ourselves. I wanted to be mean but me and Eric were in to much of a good mood. So I opened my mouth to tell her but Liam beat me to it. "Deric found his mate" he said with a big smile on his face. Crystal squeled a real girl squel that made my wolf whine and my ears ring. They were happy I found my mate, their luna. If she desides to stay after what I did to her. "Why aren't you happier than we are? She's your mate." Crystal's voice interupted my thoughts. I looked at her and Liam and started to tell them about how I ordered the gaurds to torture her for information. I hung my head, ashamed of what I did. "You didn't know she was your mate, Deric." Crystal said, trying to make me feel better. "If she is your mate, she'll find a way to forgive you and it will all work out." What she said made sence but I didn't feel any better. I still felt guilty.

"Thank you, but I still feel guilty. I just wanted you to know. I wanted to tell you personally. Can you do me a favour?" Liam nodded and looked intently at me. "Can you tell my parents that I found my mate? I'd like to use my time to take care of her." They both nodded and with that I left and went back to the house, back to my mate.

When I got to the house, I went to the kitchen to get something to eat. I haven't eaten since this morning and it's, already eight o'clock. I've really been focusing on Lucy. My wolf purred at the use of our mate's name. Beautiful Lucy. She is very beautiful. He said in my head. He's already in love and we just met her, well talked to her. Considering that I have been a complete jerk and cruel to her. While I was walking a small voice came up behind me. "Did you really find your mate Alpha Deric?" I turned around and saw my most favourite pack member. Yeah, an Alpha isn't supposed to have favourite's but Ellie is amazing. She's a little girl of 10 in my pack bit I love he. "Didn't I tell you to call me Deric, instead of Alpha Deric?" I asked her with fake anger. She giggled at my playfulness and answered. "Yes but I wanted to get your attention" damn, she knew me to well. As much as I love playing around with her, I wanted to get back to Lucy. "Yes Ellie, I found my mate. So go to your mom and dad. I need to go to my mate now." I said in a calm voice but my wolf was starting to get restless and I knew it had something to do with Lucy. Ellie nodded at me with an ear to ear smile on her face and ran off. The moment she started running I turned around and sprinted to the house.

When I got there I went straight upstairs to my room wher Lucy was. When I opened the door my heart stopped. Lucy wasn't in bed or anywhere in the room. I ran to the bed and was about to open my mind link when the bathroom door opened behind me. I turned around and saw an out of breathe Lucy. I stared at her like an idiot until she took a step forward and her knees buckled. Before I could comprehend what I was doing and and had her back in bed within seconds. She was still out of breathe and her face was contorted in pain. I wiped the sweat from her forehead with my hand and the lines of pain in her face relaxed.

After just sitting there and soothing her she said, "I wanted to go to the bathroom and I didn't know where you were so I tried to walk and everything by myself. I only realize now, that it was a mistake." She sounded so sincere and innocent I wanted to just tell her it was okey, but she really scared me. "You scared me for a minute there, " I told her and her face filled with guilt so I lightened the mood by saying, "seriously I swear I had a tiny heartattack by the door." She giggled and I smiled a thousand bolt smile but then her giggling stopped when she yawned. That's when I realized the dark circles under her eyes. She needs sleep, and alot of it. My wolf noticed to. "Get some sleep. When you wake up I'll bring you some food." I told he and she nodded her agreement and closed her eyes, within seconds she fell asleep and I left the room to go to my office and do some work. When I got to my office Liam mind linked me. "Rogues on the north side of the territory." He said urgently and I started running out of the house. "I'm on my way" I ensured him and shifted when I got outside, shredding my clothes in a million pieces.

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When I got back to the house I went to one of the trees that had a pile of clothes for me behind it just like everywhere around the forest. I stepped out of the woods and noticed the front door open and my mind started thinking of the worsed things and my heart going a hundred miles an hour. I rushed inside the house and upstairs to my room and swung the door open making it smash against the wall.

I stepped inside and my heart stopped.

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