Guilt Of The Phera

Lucy POV

~FLASHBACK~

I was lying on the cold, hard floor of my cell. Pain all over my body. The heavy silver cell door slammed shut leaving me alone, quivering on the ground, unable to get to my clothes in the far corner. "I'm done. Enjoy yourselves." The alpha's voice boomed from the hall. Making me whimper. The cell door opened again and the beta and omega stepped in. The beta was almost as big as the alpha, but not nearly as strong. The omega was a little smaller than the beta but definitely not as cruel, not as harsh but he still hurts me. "Maybe she's had enough. Look at her." Josh, the omega said, looking at Harris the beta, but just my luck, the beta walked over to me. "No,it's our turn" he said and grabbed my arms, hualing me up. I whimpered in pain, dangling arms length away from Harris. He had an evil smirk on his face, and I was scared again. But the fear didn't last long, because when he pulled me flush against his body, something inside me snapped. Rage filled my mind and I growled at Harris. He pulled me back from his body and looked at me. His eyes widen and I growled again. "Let me take over." A voice boomed in my head. My wolf! I grinned at Harris and replied to my wolf, "Gladly" and she did. In seconds I was a wolf and I lunged at Harris. Biting into his throat. His blood poured into my mouth and his body went limp. I spun around and glared at Josh, baring my teeth and pounced. Biting into his neck swiftly and dying. Not feeling the pain in my body while I drop him and his body falls with a soft thud. They didn't have time to scream so no one knew I was free. I ran out the cell and out of the basement door, where the dungeon was, and I ran and ran until I couldn't anymore.

I bolt upright on the couch. My body covered in cold sweat. I look around, but Deric wasn't in sight. I climb off of the couch, going to the kitchen to get some water. When I walked in I saw Deric sitting at the dining table. His head resting on his arms. When I got closer I heard his steady breath and his barely audible snoring. That is adorable chimed Luce in my head. And it was so adorable. I couldn't suppress the giggle that slipped from me. Deric half choked, half coughed and lifted his head. Our eyes meet and I still have a smile on my face, but then Deric woke up and saw that I was walking alone when I was supposed to be in pain. "What are you doing up? You shouldn't be walking" he said and in a rush he was by my side and pushing me to the couch, making sure I was sitting on it before letting go. "I have to call docter Ludwick. Your injuries are probably worse. Damn, this is my vault. Don't wo-" I interrupted him by putting my hand over his mouth. He locked eyes with me, his filled with shock and mine with amusement. Smiling up at him I said, "I am perfectly fine. Calm down. You are not to blame and my injuries are not worse. They actually aren't hurting anymore." He didn't believe me for one second. So I did something I would never do infront of a male. I lifted my shirt, well his shirt, and show him the wound. I heard a gasp from Deric and look down at my stomach. There's no blood on the bandages. Luce what's going on? Why am I fully healed? There's no pain. I ask her in a rush touching the bandages and ripping them off. Deric gasped again and his eyes widened even further, if that's even possible. You know why your healed. It's the same reason they took you. Come on, remember. She pleads in my head then it hits me. I'm a Phera. A Werewolf stronger than all. An equel to the Alpha king, which is Deric. Ding, ding, ding. She mocked me in my head. I'm his equel and just as strong as him. Stronger, you can do things he can't. She said and I look up at Deric. He was still looking at my, had to be injured, stomach. I put my hands on the sides of his face, feeling sparks egnight, and make him look into my eyes.

"Deric Black, you are the Alpha King. Alpha of all alpha's. I'm your equel not just because I'm your mate. It's because I'm a Phera, Deric. Every five hundred years a Phera is born and the last Phera dies or lives, depending on their strength. Because werewolves are immortal, a Phera lives for a long time until the next. I have gifts you don't. But I trust you more than anyone, because we're equels." He looks at me in awe and shock. He didn't expect me to know he is the Alpha king but I did and we were meant to be together. I can trust him, Luce. Yes you can. Before I knew what happened, I'm in Deric's arms and he was hugging me, so I hugged him back. And for the rest of the night we got to know each other, until We got tired. The last thing I remember is falling asleep in Deric's arms.

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Deric POV

I never thought I would meet a Phera. Let alone have my mate be one. Lucy being a Phera brought relieve and worry. People would want her only for her power. They'de want to take her away from me. A soft growl escaped me and Lucy stirred in my arms. I mentally kicked myself and slipped off of the couch, making sure not to wake Lucy up and went to my office. When I walked into my office I headed straight for my desk and started to get some paperwork done.

Before I realized it was six in the morning and I was beat. I stood up and walked to the kitchen. I opened the fridge and took out the lemon water and poured some in a glass. I was drinking the water when I heard a soft, soothing and melodic voice behind me. "We should stop meeting like this." I was startled to hear the voice, I choked on the water. I was still caughing over the sink when I felt warm, small hands rub my back. It soothed me and within seconds I stopped choking. "Are you alright?" Lucy asked me in a soft voice. I just nodded my head and turned around to look at her. Concern was etched in her face, clear as day. "Yeah, I'm fine. You just startled me, that's all." I tried to reassure her, but I guess a person who hasn't been alright for, who knows how long, will be able to see through me. She is probably the only person that sees right through you. Thanks for that fact, Eric. No one asked you, anyway. Agh, I'm making Lucy worry.

"Your not ok, Deric. I can see that. What's wrong?" She frowned at me in concern and her caring about me, made my heart swell. "I'm just tired. I couldn't sleep last night. I had a dream where you got hurt, after that I couldn't sleep." I told her, trying to ease her worry. But it didn't work. Of course not. She knows your not ok. And yet again, he was right. "It wasn't real, Deric. I'm ok, I'm save with you." She stepped closer, but seemed to catch herself and take a step back. "It was real. You did get hurt. And I thought you were save, but after what happened a few days ago. I'm not so sure anymore." I rant on and guilt, and a hint of something small but before I could identify it it was gone, swarms over her face. Great! Now I feel guilty. Without thinking, I reached out with my hand and took hers. She winced and pulled her hands from mine. Idiot! Eric yelled in my head making me wince to. Yeah, I'm an idiot. I wasn't thinking, Eric. Now we're probably back to squere one. Well... Technically she didn't hate us at all. She already felt the bond from the beginning. And she was born to be our equel. Yeah, Yeah oh wise Eric. Just saying. My thoughts were interrupted by Lucy's frantic voice.

"Deric! Deric!" I looked at her and realize she was shaking me. "I'm fine. Were you saying something?" I tried to reassure her but she still looked worried.

"I was saying that you look exhausted, Deric. And what happened to me a few days was not your vault." She told me and she was right. I was exhausted, I could feel myself ready to collapse with my exhaustion. You should have gotten more sleep, Deric. You always do this to yourself. I know, Eric. I never mean to, I just lose track of time. Now we've found our mate and if she'll have us, it will all go better. He grumbled in my head and lied down at the back of my head. I focused on Lucy again. She wasn't looking at me, she was looking down at her feet and nibbling on her lower lip. She's hesitating. Yeah she is. Before I could ask her what's wrong she opened her mouth and slowly spoke. "In curiousity, how long was I unconscious?" She asked me, still a little hesitant. But that was the one question I didn't want to answer. The first reason, I didn't know if she'll get angry and blame me for her getting hurt. The second was that I want to forget seeing her lifeless body on the hospital bed. Seeing her lying there and me not being able to do anything about broke me, but I looked at her and reluctantly answered. "You were out for nine days. Lillian said you were healing slower than a normal wolf because your under weight" I stared into her face, trying to decipher her reaction, but her face was calm, expecting, because somehow she knew I wasn't telling her everything. Tell her,Deric. She has a right to know. Eric blurted out and I reluctantly agreed and told her. "You had three seizure, which is supposed to be impossible. Your wolf showed herself several times, which usually meant that the damage of your body was life threatening an-" it all rushed out of me, not being able to stop but she interrupted me. "How did she show herself?" She asked and her voice was etched with anger. My eyes widened with the real anger in her voice making me feel afraid. Was she angry with me or her wolf? I wanted to ask but her eyes were glaring at me, not to push her over the edge.

She isn't angry with us. She is angry with her wolf. Eric reassured me but I was still wary. So when I opened my mouth to answer her, I spoke softly. "Your eyes changed to a lighter, almost golden brown." She just stared at me with angry eyes, but they were also translucent. She's talking to her wolf. I stood still until she softly growled. Trying to ease her anger I stepped toward her, not even thinking of my actions. Lifting my hand and softly brushing my fingertips along her cheek. I immediately regretted it. She flinched away from my hand and stepped back, away from me. The tips of my fingers stil tingling from the sparks that ignited at the contact of our skin. Our eyes met and there were no more anger but fear. Fear of me. She's afraid of me! I realized in utter horror and stepped back against the counter.

"I'm so so sorry, Lucy. I wasn't thinking." I apologize to her but her fear doesn't ease. "I'm gonna go take a shower and I-I'll leave you alone." I told her and walked out of the room and headed upstairs, mentally kicking myself.

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I took my time in the shower and when I was done, I realized I was in the bathroom for over an hour. I walked into my room and to my closet, picking out the first things my hands touched. I quickly through them on and went downstairs to check on Lucy and make breakfast.

No, you told her you would leave her alone. Yeah I did, I just want to make sure she's safe. But you have a point. I'll keep my promise and stay away from her.

I walked into the kitchen, a little releaved that Lucy wasn't there. I walked to the fridge, pulled out the loaf of bread and put to slices in the toaster. While I waited I looked around the kitchen and saw how the sun was shining through the window.

I never really paid attention to the kitchen or... Anything in the pack house. I was startled to hear the ding of the toaster behind me. I turned around and took out the warm, crispy toast and took out the butter from the fridge, spreading it over the slices evenly. I took out a pan and the bacon and eggs. Within seconds the aroma of the juicy bacon and fried eggs while the butter on my toast melted. When I was done cooking, I sat by the table. I didn't realize that I was this hungry because in two minutes my plate was empty. I quickly washed my plate and went to the living room to watch tv. I was stopped in my tracks when my eyes met with the unmistakable, warm brown and gold flecked eyes of my mate. There was a hint of fear when her eyes met mine but the more pronounced emotion was guilt. I didn't know what to say... or do, so I just stood very still. Incredulous of what she was going to say or do.