As I predicted, it is really dramatic. I didn't know how we get into this situation where Louise and Jess is crying.
"What would I do? I really don't have feelings for him!" She said crying.
"You should have said that instead of making him feel like he has a chance." I said looking at her. I don't want to be unfair here, they are both my friends and I don't want to take sides.
"I did that so we can have them as a friend! I sacrificed myself for the friendship but I can't take it anymore." I got shocked on what she said.
"Why would you sacrifice yourself? You don't have to!" I said, I am really getting mad because this is unfair.
"Why are you siding him? I became your friend first! You are choosing them instead of me?" She said looking at me sobbing. That wasn't my intention.
I walked out. My point is just he wasn't there to defend himself. He wasn't there. I walked to where Jess, Vincent and Nie are.
I looked at Jess and asked, "What did you do?"
"Don't fight just because of me. It's my fault." He said, he looked so sad, he looked devastated. He really loves Louise.
"If it's your fault tell me what did you do?" I asked him again
"I—I—I assumed." He said almost crying
"Didn't she let you court her?" I asked, with that he didn't said anything.
I once walked again inside the bathroom where Louise is at with Angel.
I looked at them and sighed, "I didn't choose them. I just don't want to be unfair. I'm sorry."
"I don't want him to court me, Art! Can we be just friends?" She said. What she said seems impossible; I saw how mad Vincent and Nie were.
"Okay. If that's what you want then." I said as I hugged her. I really don't know how it happened, they just said that Louise is crying and they don't know where she ran or where she went. Angel and I need to search for her inside the campus, thank God it was just inside the campus, and well we can't go outside until the program ends. Then here we are inside the bathroom of the college building, we are not supposed to be here but what can we do this is where she hides.
"Let's go. The program is about to end. We can go home in a minute." I said then opened the door for them.
I was thinking while going to the gate of our school. Is that how it is? Do we really need to sacrifice ourselves to have friends? Do we really need to lie we like them to have a friendship like everyone else? Isn't that the worst idea? Why would someone do that? I really want to understand. I looked at Louise, she looked so tired, and I sighed and keep on walking.
What she did is wrong. And I will not tolerate her, I'm just letting her cool down and letting her rest for a while because I know she is stressed. Jess really thought that they feel the same; he really hoped he will be with her before this year will end. But I guess the destiny has other plan for both of them.
I am not disregarding Louise feeling. I know she just want our friendship with these boys to last but this is not the right way to do it. And I hope she realized that.
As we walked closer to the entrance of our school, I saw the boys seating in the bench near the entrance. How do we approach them? I looked at Angel and she just bites her lips and shrugged. I sighed, how can I approach them?
"Hey." I said as we get closer to them. They all nod and I saw how Vincent and Nei looked at Louise. Gosh this will not be easy.
I heard the teachers instruct that everyone can go home now, I looked at the guard and said, "Can we go now?" I said politely. And he just nod.
"Art…" Louise said as I grab my key to leave.
"Leave your car. I want to walk." She said looking down. Angel and I looked at each other. What's the deal now?
"Can you guys walk with us? Even for the last time?" Louise added, the boys stopped walking and looked at each other. Vincent looked at me and raised his brow; I smiled telling him to agree.
"Okay then, let's go." Vincent said. I looked at the two girls and nod at them.
Will this be really the end of our friendship with boys? I hope not. But I don't want to complicate things for Jess and Louise. It won't be easy because we really got close with them but for the comfort of Jess and Louise, I think this will be really the last time we can hang out together as a whole.
As we were walking we were all quite. No one's talking. The atmosphere is so heavy. I can say that all of us are having a hard time because of what happened. It feels like everyone is expecting that this will be the end. We can't do anything about it. We are sad but I know maybe someday we can all be friends.\
"Where are you guys going?" Angel asked and everyone turned their head at her
"Computer shop. We will play to forget what happened." Nei said
Then I remember, "Oh shoot how can you go home? I don't have a car with me." I said as I look at Louise
"Let's just go somewhere first before we go home. I'm still not in the mood to go home." She said looking straight ahead.
"Okay. But how can you—"she cut me off and said, "I'll figure it out." She hated going home alone when it's dark that's why I keep on asking her what do to.
"I need to go home guys. My auntie is near here now and she's asking me if the party is done and I said yes so she said I should go with her now." Angel said in a hurry.
"Oh okay. Bye. Text me when you got home." I said and everyone said their byes.
Our night is not done yet. I need to comfort Louise because she may feel like its her fault.