Away

I moved over so he couldn't see them. I saw that he had my bookbag and held my hand out for it.

"It's nothing, thank you for bringing me my bag." I thanked him. He handed me the bookbag, and slightly moved me out the way so he can come in. I quickly closed the door and ran over to the books. Once I made it to the books, they had a different cover on them. I realized what was happening.

"What made you forget about school? You know you can't keep doing this, right?" He crossed his arms across his chest, sitting on one of the chairs. I picked up the books and pointed at them.

"These new books that recently came out, it's so good. Yes, I know. It won't happen again." The books had changed to look like a normal reading book. I sat down on the couch, crossing my legs.

"They look interesting, what genre are they? There's a cheese danish in the bookbag, by the way." I opened my bag and saw a bagged cheese danish.

"Just some fantasy books. You told Niven to buy me one?" I couldn't help but smile at the small thought. I felt a small shock from the books. What does it want?

"Yeah, it's not a big deal though. How are you feeling now?" He got up and sat next to me. He put a piece of my hair behind my ear. I came to realization on what I have to do.

"I'm fine. I just forgot about school...The café was a good place though. We should go more often. How was class?" I moved away slightly from him, he noticed but didn't think much of it.

"Yeah we should. It was boring but tolerable." The room got silent. He just started petting Beatrix, who enjoyed it very much. A few minutes pass and I break.

"Can you leave? I'm pretty busy." I tried holding an annoyed tone. I got up from the couch.

"Yeah I can. Why the attitude?" He slowly got up, staring at me with a confused expression.

"I want to give one. Can you just leave?" I turned back to face him. The tension was slowly growing in the room.

"Why? Did I do something wrong?" He tried getting closer but I formed a barrier.

"Yes, you came here. I want to be alone and away from you. Leave." I shouted at him.

"What's going on? You aren't like this Olivine." My heart sunk.

"I don't want you here. In fact, I never did. I felt bad for you so I just played along with this friendship. You're nothing to me." I lied. Of course I lied.

"So... every moment we spent together was because of guilt? You know, it should be the opposite. You were the outcast everyone was scared of and wanted to be near you. I gave you a chance. Hell, I made Niven give you one. I don't know what the hell went through my head, though. You're just like your parents, heartless and cruel. Bye." He revealed and left the apartment.

I fell to my knees, hurt. The books zapped me again, causing me to throw them onto the couch in frustration. Did he mean what he said? He really compared me to my parents when I sacrificed so much for them and their safety. I heard lightning in the distance, the sky was getting gloomy. I want him to come back, tell him I had to say that. I can't show up anymore. I have to leave today.

I spent the next four hours, recollecting myself and grabbing important items. I stacked money since I was a kid, not having to worry about rent because of Aunt Beth. I heard the door knock and I checked who it was. Grey. He had a bag in his hand and a letter. I slid down the door, knowing I couldn't open it.

"I know you're in there. I'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean any of it. Vio, you mean the world to me. You aren't like your parents, at all. Why did you say those things? Why are you pushing me away out of a sudden? Please, open the door. I want to talk to you, we need to talk." I put my hand over my mouth as he continued. Holding in any sounds I could possibly make from crying so much. I slowly got up and continued doing what I was before. However, I let a few minutes pass before I go to the neighbor. Beatrix was sitting on the couch, watching me as I packed everything. I picked her up and gave one final hug before walking out to the hallway. Once I opened my door I saw the letter and bag. I quickly put her down in the apartment and picked up the items. I put them on the counter before going back to the hallway. I knocked on Miss Davis's door and she opened it.

"I'm sorry for the last minute favor, but can you please take care of Beatrix for the next few weeks, possibly months? I have plenty of cat food and stuff for her. If you need me to buy more for her, I will. I have a website I buy stuff from and I can buy it." I asked the sweet elderly woman.

"I gladly will, she's a sweetheart. Also, where are you going? I'll miss you for the time you're gone." Miss Davis frowned.

"I'm not sure yet, but I'll miss you too. Also, if someone comes to my apartment, hand them these. All of them. They know who to give it to." I handed her the stack of letters. All of them had names written on the front of it.

"Please tell your son to also take care of her. I don't want her to be lonely and sad for the time I'm gone." I handed her an extra key for her son. I gave her a final hug before I reentered the apartment. I grabbed my two duffel bags, the letter Grey left me and abandoned the apartment. I arrived to the parking lot, and went into my car. I had it for a while but I never use it. Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I drove away.

I had put a spell on the car, where nothing can attack it and certain people wouldn't be able to see it. Unsure of where to go, I leave town and drive towards a nearby town. It was far from my mother and father, luckily. I had to practice, away from people. I parked the car in a nearby parking lot, searching for a nearby field. It took me 20 minutes to find a massive empty field, that was distant from the town. I started driving towards it, taking me half an hour.

I finally arrived at the field, putting the car on park. I took out the foregone book from earlier and read one of the first spells. It took me a few minutes for me to memorize the wording and movements. Once I get confident in it, I get out of the car and go towards the middle of the field. I chant the spell, doing some concerning hand movements. The sky started getting cloudy, the sound of thunder slowly approaching. I repeat it faster, causing it to come closer by the second. I keep a few flowers in my head, repeating the spell. It started raining, the lightning strikes the flowers I kept in mind, the lightning bolts connect to each other once they strike the flowers at the same time. It formed a barrier of some sort while striking the flowers. Once I clap, the lightning disappears. The rain kept going, I stand in place. I envision Grey and Niven, walking to school alone. Wandering what they did wrong. I'm going to miss them.

I take another look around the field and realized, it's the one from my nightmare. I felt my chest tighten, causing it harder for me to breathe. I fall to my knees, holding onto my chest. There was no other way. It can't go back to what it was until she's dead. I slowly get up, my sadness becoming anger. I ran over to the car, and reached for the book. I read the next few practices and worked on them for the rest of the day. Once I finish and sit in the driver's seat, I see the letter peeking out of my pocket and I finally reach for it to open it.

'To my love,

I've fallen for you a few weeks ago. Every sudden move you made, had me in awe. The way you beat me up in sorcerer's class. You're independent and such a loving person. You always put others before you and you always have and that's what I admire about you. I can't name one single bad thing about you, and I don't think I'll ever be able to. This isn't a goodbye letter or just an apology letter. I want you to read this whenever you're sad or in a bad place so you get reminded on how much I adore you. You're my peace, Olivine Viotto. You always will be, even during a war against demons and weird mythical creatures. You push away others even when it hurts you the most, for them. You believe it's best for them if you're gone when it's the opposite. You bring so much joy and happiness to both me and Niven. I'm glad we got closer this year, you're the best thing that happened to me this year. I'm sorry for everything I said, from today from earlier arguments. I don't want to hurt you in any way. My love, you deserve everything good. You're so strong, dealing with your past family issues and them still coming for you in different ways. I'll always be by your side. I find it hard to believe that I got so lucky to be friends with you, let alone share a kiss with you at one point. We'll meet in the moon, whether we see each other again or not. Hopefully, we share another kiss there.

Sincerely, Grey Caine.'

I couldn't help but laugh at one of the first lines. My heart was aching from this letter, causing me to breakdown even more. I spent the next few minutes, rereading the letter and thinking of the others before I looked over at the time on my phone and saw that it was 10:00pm. I had a few missed calls and text messages. I read through the rest of the book and saw something at the end. A photo of my grandmother, my mom and aunt. They were children at that point and it hurt to see. My mother and Aunt despise each other now. I left the photo in there and closed the book. I put in the directions for a nearby motel. I drove to it.

"Hello. Can I get a room for two, but with one bed?" I walked up to the main desk.

"Yes you can. Your room number is 14. Have a goodnight." She handed me the key and I walked away. I found the room and placed my duffel bags on the floor. I put the letter on the dresser. I freshened up and immediately went to sleep.

I spent the next few days in the empty flower field or in the motel, studying more of the books I took with me.

I wanted to be numb at this point, to not feel anything for the others, to live my fullest without the void space in my heart. I wanted to train in peace, with no fear of losing myself or anyone else. It would make living so much simpler. Why couldn't life be normal again, the annoyance of waking up so early for school, messing with friends to get a laugh out of it.

However, I feel that void. I miss the way life used to be without my parents involving themselves. The only way is to get rid of them, which is practically impossible. I have to try...

After all, I'm the only one who can do it.