CHAPTER 4 ¿HOW DO I TELL YOU?

I arrived on Saturday April 13, a lot had happened about his debate of telling him or not with that the decision to do so was reached but the big question was how to tell him? He knew that it was his opportunity to tell her to avoid all the weight that he was already beginning to feel and every time he saw her he fell more in love his feelings made her grow more and without knowing it he took the first step and admitted being in love with Mary besides that he had the A feeling that she already knows something about his feelings but he let it go by being honest Derek does not know women very well and he did not know what was going through his head at that moment it was everything except that she knows that he is in love and passes Whatever happens, he would do everything possible because something told him that this was his lucky month and everything was going to turn out well but it was the opposite when he wanted to tell him his feelings, Juan was always with it and the opportunity to do so was going on vacation. the occasion but the bad thing is that every time they saw each other they were not alone and that was a factor in the equation of life that Derek had to solve and he could not do it now he asked himself the question of How to tell you? There was no opportunity or when there was someone interrupted right away fate is not with him he was practically mocking him saying 1 month ago he had the opportunity and now you dare so this is my revenge and you will have to keep waiting until I tell him what he feels or who You know, maybe I already have someone, you will be left with doubts for much longer my dear Derek the only thing he could do was shout in his mind he could not lose the integrity that he had left due to the circumstances that happened to him or as he says the bitch of destiny who decided to play her cards against him and did what he had never done before curse everything her bad luck that happened to her that day she decided to wait a little longer to see if her luck had a change or she was going to continue like this for a longer time and she did not like that because just when she already had all the courage in the world to be in front of her without being nervous someone interrupted his great moment even when he was going others would come forward to talk to her and the wisest thing he knew how to do was keep silence and keep waiting like that happened for a few days he was with all the security in the world but nothing his luck remained the same He was already giving up and decided to let fate give him the right time to tell him, but the longer he waited, the greater the fear he had before if someone else was already in it. u life that and other questions that he asked himself last month returned to his mind the sensible thing that he did was to listen to music some of them described his life as it was happening at that moment with that he began to laugh thinking that the singer or the Singers were inspired by their lives to be able to release their songs and being sincere, even they were very brave to express what they feel through the songs and it was at that moment that a great idea occurred to him or perhaps the craziest idea that occurred to him. It went through his head and it was to write him a song and if the opportunity arose, dedicate it to tell him all his feelings and perhaps on that occasion it would be easier than to go and tell him although it is the same but this time he will be more prepared than the previous times.

The rest of the month of April began to work on making a song for her but the more she tried, no words came out, she could not find inspiration and she realized that she still had the same problem that she had 4 months ago in not having Inspiration and that was what he had the most, he could write songs without sweating he was inspired out of nowhere and without sweating the lyrics came out but this time he could not do it he had to find out what was wrong with him or it would get worse every day and that he did not want because it is his passion his joy his reason for being music was everything for him he felt so good when he concentrated on it even thanks to that he had a written notebook of songs from 6 years ago he even had the opportunity to record two of his songs but precisely Life also played badly on that, but while I was making the song the only question on my mind was how to tell you? It was the same thing that he asked himself days ago to express what he feels, I try my best to have that missing inspiration I prayed to God that the month would pass quickly because the only logical thing that went through his head is that it would happen like when he wanted to confess everything It was going badly for him so with all the peace of mind in the world he began to wait until what he longed for, the lyric that was for him arrived, that ran through his veins when he felt happy or sad, he could transmit it through music but no matter how much he wanted to, he had to wait as long as possible be more patient than it is and who knows life will reward you with waiting a little until the end of April and in the next the reward would be very great who knows no one can know what life has in store for you or even asking the "horoscope" all that is a lie is just a matter of oneself having control and knowing how to wait to get what he wants and he was one of those, he is only going to have more, much, much more patience than he should and that had to learn the hard way to have patience was not wrong to try to write other songs and the only thing that came out were songs sad could not help it but it was not the same feeling that he felt in the beginning every time he only got the lyrics but in his heart of his heart I did not feel sadness, I felt great joy, it was the opposite that he wrote who knows, no one is in control of his life, just as he just laughed at what was happening to him in that moment plus his attempt to make a statement and his lack of inspiration to create a song for him. Mary only thought about this month, everything happens to me, I could not spend another day even in another month, but the fate bitch made her dirty move, she will have to get used to it because that will see a lot in her life. Da and his attempt to write her a song stopped trying during the few days that he had left of the month and he was doing other things like looking for new perspectives, he even wanted to go see the new movie that was in its opening week but could not do it because of For other reasons, even that day the least expected moment to confess was presented but due to fate rather how cruel fate is, I did not let him do it because other friends showed up and interrupted what he was going to say or rather what he was thinking to tell him he was going to hit his head but he did not have the opportunity to do it because he did not find a place to do it and that was luck or he would have a great horrible headache that he was going to regret it all his life for that blow and maybe it life is not all a bitch as he thought only once played in his favor and it was that only once to be able to laugh in his face luck that Orlyn was not there or if he had laughed at what he almost occupied rre at that moment even wondered where he is at this moment because he has not seen him at all or what was left of the month and that was very strange because he did not disappear for so long.