Deserve

Si Ban waited for twenty minutes, ZouMi's phone chimed. There was a faint smile on her lips, which went away as fast as it came, the moment her eyes fell on the screen.

'EAT'

Three simple letters, just a word! ZouMi sighed, no one can notice the changes in ZouMi, her emotions were in control of her, every time.

"Keep here, and go." With that ZouMi chased Si Ban out, who was confused at Gu Huan's behavior. He had peeped onto her phone and notice just a word, that wasn't Gu Huan's nature!

Moment the door closed, ZouMi raised her head, she leaned on her chair staring at the ceiling. From the corner of her eyes, she saw the food, and on the other side her phone, instantly she lost her appetite. ZouMi took her phone, opened her chat box with Gu Huan, scrolling up, she read their past conversation, not even once had he replied with just a simple word.

Si Ban pepped into the room, ZouMi was looking at her phone, while emitting an aura which he found lonely, or rather.... sad. Si Ban had seen her every side, from the ruthless one to the caring... But only the sad side of hers, which she never revels.

ZouMi kept her phone aside, her eyes closed, no can say what was she thinking. She looked like an abounded puppy, which has lost its way. She opened her eyes, turned a bit, gazing at her own reflection in the window.

"Am I that bad?" She voiced out, not knowing who was she asking. She touched her face, a smile, worse than a cry cracked its place on her face.

"Yes! This is what a demon like me deserve." Moving her head left to right, she found no one, she was left alone at the time she needed someone the most. She laughed, "What? Were you expecting someone to take care of a demon like you? Wake up, you're someone made only to hate! You don't deserve anything, except of being alone!" She talked to her own reflection. ZouMi looked at the calendar hanging on the wall, she had left with just few months, all she had to do is, make everything ready for her father. Once he woke up, he shouldn't have to tire himself to an extent of exhaustion, he would've a peaceful life. He should!

Brushing the sadness within her aside, ZouMi took a spoon and ate in a hurry. If she wants to revenge herself and her family, she has to stay strong and healthy. In hurry, she choked on the rice, coughing vigorously, she extended her hand to take the glass of water, but it fell off the table, and its pieces spread on the ground. Her eyes turned bloodshot, with no other option she got up, she tripped and a tiny glass piece entered into her foot, pricing her delicate skin. ZouMi looked down, the pain she felt in her heart was a thousand time more than a glass pricing her skin. She crouched down, hugging her knees close to her chest.

This is the real ZouMi.

Like any other girl, she too was afraid of pain, like any other girl, she too wanted to be loved. But look, what faith had brought on her, even when blood was flowing down from her body, even when her breaths weren't steady, she didn't feel anything. All she was thinking, that a demon like her isn't suitable for anyone. Everyone wants to distant themselves from her, no one wanted her.

Knock! Knock!

"Zu, are you in?"

ZouMi's eyes flew open, Chen! What was he doing here? Sh*t she can't let him see her like this.

She quickly got up, and ran towards her desk, in this process, the glass piece went deep into her flesh, but she didn't winch, neither made a sound. Spraying perfume, to eliminate the blood smell, ZouMi sat on her chair, looking at her computer, she hid the glass pieces into the mat.

Chen peeped into her room, from his view he could see ZouMi taking to someone while looking at her laptop. She looked at him and mouthed,

"I'm busy, will meet you at night." Chen nodded and left. ZouMi have a sigh, now she has to treat her foot first. She opened her desk drawer, a small knife was in it, taking it into her hand, she kept her injured leg onto her uninjured one, making a clear view for her. With a swift move, she pressed the small knife deep into her flesh, pricing it, till the glass piece fell of her body. Her hands tainted with her own blood, yet she was calm, even when she stabbed the knife in her flesh, she didn't flinch dude to pain. A sew and thread was also in the same drawer, this drawer contained every single medical tool, except anesthesia!

ZouMi effortlessly sew her skin, if any third person witness this scene, irrespective of the gender, he/she would faint! No one can handle such a pain, yet here she was, sewing her own skin. ZouMi finished sewing, she took a cotton and poured alcohol on it, she dabbed the cotton on the stitch, and bandaged it, she covered it under her socks. Making sure, that no one could see it, ZouMi finely let a sigh. A sigh of relief, from the pain..... which for a normal human would be agony. Later, ZouMi called Tina to let someone clean her office, she gracefully left, like there wasn't five, self stitched, injury on her foot.

Behind her, the cleaner, and also Tina, both were shocked to the core, and Tina vomited, the blood was over all the carpet, the bloody smell linger strongly in the air. Tina was about to call Si Ban to inform him that ZouMi had injured herself, when she heard a cold voice that send shivers down her spine.

"If you dare say a word, then you don't know what will await you. Be smart and shut your mouth." ZouMi came back to take her phone, which she forgot and also to warn Tina, she left again.