It breaks my heart how much I love you. It hurts to love you. If I just loved you a little less - just a little - then I'd be able to move on and let go. I know that's probably what I ought to do, but I don't know-how.

Why can't you be that person for me? Why can't you let me love you? If you won't let me love you, at least let me hate you completely. I can't go on loving and hating you at the same time. The tension inside me is building, and I'm feeling like I'm about to implode.

But I know this will one day all work itself out. You will either love me, or I'll find a way to survive without you. It won't be easy. I'm not even sure it's possible to ever completely let go of you, but I have to try.

Don't Go

I didn't go inside the house because I was avoiding people, I wasn't okay and I was hurting too much. So I'll go to the park and sat on the swing then I cry all of the pain. 


Why call Blossom? So I immediately answered the call. 


(Midnight, You go here to the hospital. That was Winter's accident!) I heard her panic on the other line 


I was surprised by what he said so I said. 


"What? How and Why? I'm going there. Message me where hospital she was taken?" I said to her. 


In just a day and a lot of things happening, I also got to the hospital quickly, praying and hoping that Winter is okay when I enter the hospital. I go straight to the Emergency Room as I get closer and closer I hear Blossom’s voice, she is screaming and furious. 


"YOU'RE STUPID! YOU'RE SO INSENSITIVE KAI! IT'S YOUR FAULT !!!" I can see she was pointing at Kai. 


"Blossom, stop it! Calm down." Mom's restraint. 


Doubts