It breaks my heart how much I love you. It hurts to love you. If I just loved you a little less - just a little - then I'd be able to move on and let go. I know that's probably what I ought to do, but I don't know-how.

Why can't you be that person for me? Why can't you let me love you? If you won't let me love you, at least let me hate you completely. I can't go on loving and hating you at the same time. The tension inside me is building, and I'm feeling like I'm about to implode.

But I know this will one day all work itself out. You will either love me, or I'll find a way to survive without you. It won't be easy. I'm not even sure it's possible to ever completely let go of you, but I have to try.

Don't Go

Blossom and I are here in the hospital room watching over Winter. We sent Royale home. We are Winter's Family so it's only right that we take care of her. I don't want to see her on the brink of death again. She's still young. I don't want my cousin to suffer like that. 


"Hey Winter! Wake up! Let's have another Chiki Talk, shall we? We'll still be laughing, you'll still be cooking! So, Winter Wake up! Please!" she continued while Blossom's tears were falling. 


"I can't afford to lose Winter, She's still young. Midnight," she hesitated 


"Me too, we're just the same. We know how brave Winter is? she can't give up! She'll wake up soon. So don't despair, everything will be okay," I comforted her. In this situation, I have to be brave and strong for us ~ 


I made Blossom sit on the couch first and gave her water to drink to calm her down. Later Blossom fell asleep. I shouldn't sleep so I can monitor Winter's condition. 


I Just Want to Forget