It breaks my heart how much I love you. It hurts to love you. If I just loved you a little less - just a little - then I'd be able to move on and let go. I know that's probably what I ought to do, but I don't know-how.

Why can't you be that person for me? Why can't you let me love you? If you won't let me love you, at least let me hate you completely. I can't go on loving and hating you at the same time. The tension inside me is building, and I'm feeling like I'm about to implode.

But I know this will one day all work itself out. You will either love me, or I'll find a way to survive without you. It won't be easy. I'm not even sure it's possible to ever completely let go of you, but I have to try.

Don't Go

Until now we are still here in the hospital. The doctor still did not require Winter to come out. This ROYAL is having fun again. They make Winter laugh and it's effective. The Doctor said that Winter's recovery will be easier when he is always surrounded by people who love her. 


As they having a fun conversation. I'm glad. Because I can see her smiling. I hope Winter is always like that. I will no longer participate in their fun. So that Winter doesn't confuse. 


Kris entered the Room. He just arrived and brought a Fruit of Basket then introduced himself to Winter. Winter smiled at him and sat next to me on the couch. Do you know the Awkward feeling that you are next to your mortal enemy? I saw in my peripheral vision that Kris was looking at me so I turned to him. 


"Why? Are you going to mock me? I just don't continue your plan it cuz' I'm not in the mood" I confronted him. 


Kai's Bittersweet Goodbye...