It breaks my heart how much I love you. It hurts to love you. If I just loved you a little less - just a little - then I'd be able to move on and let go. I know that's probably what I ought to do, but I don't know-how.

Why can't you be that person for me? Why can't you let me love you? If you won't let me love you, at least let me hate you completely. I can't go on loving and hating you at the same time. The tension inside me is building, and I'm feeling like I'm about to implode.

But I know this will one day all work itself out. You will either love me, or I'll find a way to survive without you. It won't be easy. I'm not even sure it's possible to ever completely let go of you, but I have to try.

Don't Go

Midnight and I are back in Winter's room. It's good that she let me hug him. I miss her already. I know what I'm doing isn't right because she has Liam. When we entered. She immediately stepped aside from Liam and wrapped her hand around Liam and leaned her head on its shoulder. 


I will admit I was jealous. In the moment. I hope I can turn back time ~ But I respect what Midnight wants. This is also the way for me to move on with her. Later on, they decide to eat outside. I refused because Lukas was mad with me. 


And this is also my chance to make up for Winter. In what I did to her. I'm the one who will blame them for what happened to her. I'm embarrassed, But I remember she has amnesia, This is my chance to fill her with new memories that aren't bad. 


Desperation