It breaks my heart how much I love you. It hurts to love you. If I just loved you a little less - just a little - then I'd be able to move on and let go. I know that's probably what I ought to do, but I don't know-how.

Why can't you be that person for me? Why can't you let me love you? If you won't let me love you, at least let me hate you completely. I can't go on loving and hating you at the same time. The tension inside me is building, and I'm feeling like I'm about to implode.

But I know this will one day all work itself out. You will either love me, or I'll find a way to survive without you. It won't be easy. I'm not even sure it's possible to ever completely let go of you, but I have to try.

Don't Go

Kai and I were left alone. I do not know? Why do we need to do this? My tears are about to fall but I'm enduring, everything has to be realistic. Kai approached me. He held my hands. The sadness was obvious on his face and was confused. 


"You didn't mean it right? Tell me you were just joking. You won't give me to Winter, Will you, Midnight?" Kai said while his eyes speak to me and waiting for some answers. 


"It was all true, Kai I'm sorry" I removed his grip on my hand and this is the last time I can hold his hand. 


"Why? I'm confused!" He tried to convince me, he even held me on both of my shoulders. 


I just bowed my head, I can't look straight into his eyes. "I REALIZED THAT I DIDN'T LOVE YOU!" I had no excuse to say. 


"No! I won't believe it!" He touched both cheeks "Look straight into my eyes, Midnight Please!" I forcibly look into his eyes. And when I look at it, his eyes also start to cry. Please! don't let my tears fall. 


The Art of Letting Go...