DAY THREE

DATE: 21/03/2020

"Don't ask me about my feelings today

They are mess,

I don't know where this lost boat sailing today

I feel lost even with compass"

(AUTHORS NOTE : SORRY FOR STUPID POEM I WROTE HERE ≧ω≦)

Hey again ,today it was pretty normal day , until it was afternoon, I got this immense pain in my head I couldn't handle it so we had to rush to hospital. I am staying at hospital today. yeah I am writing this in hospital about how I brought this book I have my own source Hehe mom bought it along with tasty food.

though I wasn't allowed to eat street food but I craved for it alot so I secretly called my boyfie ≥3≤ ≧∇≦ by the way his name is Yoongi. At first he denied but gave up because I was nagging him alot and I have my own ways and spells to work on him. he is trapped and falls for it really easy.

so he bought my favourite noodles hiding inside bucket of fruits. nurse was doubting on what's inside so she asked too many qestions then was about to check but someone called her so she let it be.

it's was like death call We almost got caught. you know yoongi is so stupid and such a bad liar when she asked him qestion this stupid was shuttering ,She asked what he is here for he replied I am here to check me he is a doctor I face palmed myself and said underneath my breathe we are dead. ,She narrowed her eyes and said don't mess up kid I know you are her Boy friend, so I asked is there a problem she replied yeah ,no sex here we were shocked I looked at her disbelief she continued saying now a days kids are more interested in this kind of shit Then adults we were about to argue Futhure but she eventually gave up on us.

what kind of kids is she surrounded with like dude we do things on time whethers it's home work or sex but I don't have time. fuck I gotta complete my home work and sex before time iguess ヘ(^_^)ヘ just joking.

so I eat that food, while eating I looked at yoongi who was looking at me lovingly we ain't like those cringy couple okay. we are the decent Ones.

he hold my hand and we talked and laughed a little since it was late I pushed Him to go back. sometimes I wonder why I deserve so much love but in small amount. dad and mom visited me I asked them to take rest at home but they denied but had to give up because my room had no sofa or resting tables. and staying in hospital with special case like us were prohibited after 9pm so they left.

it was 9:30 when I skipped from my room to go in garden. I saw a little girl nearly of 14 something was too sitting on bench hiding from everybody it was late so only moon light was helping my eyes.

I walked to her and said , Hey you what are you doing here go back to your room .

she said mind your business, such a arrogant girl I walked to her and sat beside her and said I am nurse her.

she laughed at said go back I have no interest in such lame jokes. how does she knows I crack lame jokes. I looked at her with narrowed eyes.

she said girl you have same bed uniform so dont fool around I know you are patient too for what you are here.

I was caught I looked at moon and sighed then said how I ended up here. I asked her about her.

She said she has surgery tomorrow, it all depends on surgery weather she will live or die. I asked her surgery of what. She said let it be what's the use everything is going to end Tommorrow I am gonna die tomorrow then everything will end this struggle of living one more day on oxygen , faking smiles ,acting weird to prove loved ones That I am not afraid.

I looked at her there was some tears in corner of her eyes I asked her is she afraid.

She nodded yes she also said she is scared She is confused whether she wanna live or wanna die peacefully.

this made me qestion myself what I want, between she is choosing I asked what she prefers ,what's her story

she said, She prefers Dieing because even if she lives she has to live on someone's support once she dies she is free. and about her story she said no use of Knowing that too.

I said, listen I don't know why but I guess you should live I wont say be positive everything will be fine because we just can't help it such conditions .

I said her listen This surgery is giving you chance to live to do it. Just try to come back I want you to know a secret. She said don't do that I may come back because I can't help but be very excited to know someones secret friend. She wanted to hear what I had for her but I denied maybe this will help her to come back.

She kept on asking but I just went to my room. She does too.

I don't know what will happen tom I am scared .but stupid Me forgot to get her name I don't know how will I find her.

for now good night bye ♪☆＼(^０^＼) ♪(／^-^)／☆

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